Her delusional nature is a twisty one. She mentions how she can't legally sell her book, so she's at least somewhat aware of reality, but she really does seem to believe that SM doesn't own her own characters, that they exist indepedent of the author. It's like watching someone with impulse control issues, she feels compelled to try to get this book of hers out despite the "haters", the legal reasons, common sense and any suggestion of moral wrongdoing. Fascinating!