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| My Forever Home from Possets came today. As I'd hoped, it is a nice tea scent. I also got little sample vials of Maggie (which I already knew I loved) and Penelope (which sadly isn't me). So that was worth going to the mailbox for. | ||||||||||
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I just spent AGES trying to find the 'update journal' link and then EVEN LONGER trying to figure out how to type my entry into this box. OH GOD I HOPE LIVEJOURNAL ISN'T DEAD FOREVER. PLEASE DON'T LET THAT HAPPEN, INTERNET GODS. |
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With the help of the good folks on JF and IJ, I am now set up to simulpost to my journals from the Eee. For anyone curious, you can find [Unknown LJ tag]'s directions here and here. Hurray for Semagic, and for the helpful peeps who pointed me in the right direction! |
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1. So, now that Make it Rough is on sale (and excerpted at the Changeling Press blog, if you're curious), I'm doing other things. Specifically, I'm writing and researching other things. Yes, more than one: I get more writing done when I can switch from project to project. But one of the things I'm tentatively writing/researching/poking at is another doll-related fic, and the research for that is proving interesting. More interesting than usual. I am venturing into new, uncharted territory--or, at least, territory for which I personally haven't seen a chart--and talking to some new people. Specifically, I've been communicating with a couple of the folks at CoverDoll. (If you're at work or there are children hanging around your screen, you probably shouldn't click these links). I asked them for input, and a couple have been kind enough to provide some. It's one of the more unusual conversations I've had in a long time. Check it out. 2. I would dearly love my own page at Fanlore, but I would feel like such an ass writing it up myself. Would anyone like to do a swap? I could give you my info, you could give me yours, and we could write up each others'? I don't know, that would just feel less weird to me. 3. Regarding flocked posts: I hate when people break flock, but that does remind me: possibly I should post unflocked sometimes. Not that anything I post is of urgent importance or anything, but if every single fandom opinion or burst of squee is locked down, it does make it more difficult for fandom to function, particularly for anyone trying to enter a new fandom. No, I'm not saying the growth in secrecy is any excuse for flock breaking; I'm just saying, it's a human thing for any community to want to talk about stuff, and if you never ever provide anything to talk about, then it's less of a community and more a series of enclaves. And I have, like a lot of people, fallen into the habit of flocking everything, mostly just because meanspirited stupid gossip disinclines you to participate in communities, but...I don't know, possibly I should flock less. |
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Meme stolen from ![[info]](http://www.journalfen.net/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} musesfool:Footnote: My memory of this year starts at around November, aka the TIME I STARTED TO LIVE AGAIN, so this list may seem a little end-of-the-year-focussed. Your main fandom of the year? Dexter. Your favourite film watched this year? Probably XXY, though I thoroughly enjoyed Iron Man. Your favourite book read this year? A difficult question this year, since I hardly remember any kind of fiction reading. On the non-fiction front, I have to say that I'm in love with Stephen Jay Gould's The Mismeasure of Man, because, while not new, I only realised the scope and brilliance of his argument when confronted with the context. I got to appreciate Zygmunt Bauman (esp. Dialectic of Modernity and Wasted Lives) and Andrea Smith's Conquest. Sexual Violence and American Indian Genocide broadened my horizon with the elegance of detailed historical feminist research and the bluntness of a sledge hammer. One publication that I awaited anxiously and that lived up to my expectations was Jan Philipp Reemtsma's Vertrauen und Gewalt. Versuch über eine besondere Konstellation der Moderne. [Violence and Trust. An Essay on an exceptional constellation of modern thought.] Your favourite album or song to listen to this year? José James: The Dreamer, Parov Stelar (& band): Shine, Gotan Project's new live album, Sisters: Gender Riots, Nneka: Heartbeat, and, last but definitely not least: Buraka som Sistema: Kalemba (Wegue Wegue). Your favourite TV show of the year? Pushing Daisies, though True Blood and SPN S4 were strong contenders this year, too. Your favourite LJ community of the year? Hm. Wasn't around much. Your best new fandom discovery of the year? The only new thing that makes me want to write fic at this point is True Blood - and I'm mainly interested in Pam & Eric as badly dressed Sapphire and Steel clones - (I'm too heartbroken about the Pushing Daisies cancellation) and maybe Lucifer; but I'd like to finish that one first. Your biggest fandom disappointment of the year? Pushing Daisies! Cancellation! What the heck! Also, House, and the whole anticlimactic something that was Dexter S3. (Of course, the whole trainwreck that's Heroes and Grey's, but these were anticipated) Your TV boyfriend of the year? Either Josh Lyman or one Sgt. Doakes, mentally added in all Dexter's S3. Your TV girlfriend of the year? Charlotte "Chuck" Charles. Your biggest squee moment of the year? Werecollie! Boston Legal's final episode! (I'm going to miss that show so much) The most missed of your old fandoms? The West Wing and Weiß Kreuz. I've got serious cravings for good stories in both of them. The fandom you haven't tried yet, but want to? I hear a lot about Entourage, Life and Merlin. Your biggest fan anticipations for the New Year? Dexter S4! True Blood S2! BSG comes back! Also, Massive Attack may just finally - finally finally finally - publish a new album (MA are one of the only bands I still feel genuinely fannish about) and there's a Blur reuinion up the alley. |
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| Tuesday, January 6th, 2009 |
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Posting from the desktop, because I still can't remember how to set up Semagic to post to multiple journals at the same time so I can do that from the Eee. Please, please, if someone can help... the link I had to a post with info on how was on GJ and I can't get to it. I think Circe likes me more than I thought. She usually flops around the keyboard on the desktop when I'm using the computer, but when I was on the Eee on the futon she came and sat near me; actually I had all the cats near me, it was nice! There's room for them all on the futon. And seriously, I gotta say it again, thanks so much, doombuggie! The Eee was your suggestion in the first place, and I could never have set up the router myself.My bottle of Forever Home from Possets hasn't come yet :( It's lying ignored on some post office truck, I know it. Oh, and with a little nudging from jennywho, I'm thinking of setting up an Eee community. There's already one, but it's pretty dead and very techie-oriented.
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My boss got his kids a Wii for Christmas (or at least that's the official story. How much the kids have actually gotten to play with it is another matter... ;) ) Anyway, he's not much of a tech geek so he doesn't know what all is out there. He and his wife liked bowling and tennis, and his oldest son (who is 7) absolutely loved Lego Star Wars. Actually his oldest son loves Lego anything. I do not own a Wii myself, but I know many of you do. So - got any recs for games? For him or his kids. Thank you! |
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( Water. And bubbles on water. Fun. ) BTW when I asked what people would see in the ice picture I was curious if I was the only one who would see the bovine face. Turns out it maybe wasn't as obvious as I thought, but I wasn't the only! \o/ 
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So today, I thought I had the day from hell today: 1. Lost $30 metrocard 2. Got a shitty schedule 3. Worked for 10 hours in the federal building with no access to internet 4. I couldn't RP I got home and find out that LJ might close, except not. I'll be here until LJ is, but in case you want to find me elsewhere Titti at IJ, Titti at JF, Titti at CJ and Titti at Inksome. I also have a MySpace, Facebook, and Vox, oh and one of those Twitter thingise, but they have never been used. Finally you can put all of your links at The Directorium Then I thought about things that happen the world: 1. People are dying in Gaza 2. I've seen about 10 people detained by immigration today, including one of my clients, a woman with 2 US children and a husband, because she had tried to enter in the US back in 1997. 3. People are losing their jobs Suddenly my problems don't seem so bad          !to ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} cordelia_v and for tomorrow, ridicu_lizNo clicks required:                 |
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This is pretty and elegant. And Chinese. Flowing. I wish the audience would save all that clapping for the end though. I mean, I can understand being excited, but still. Look at those kittens from the Itty Bitty Kitty Committee. I wanted to write more but I'm busy playing around with animated gifs, so maybe I'll attach an ETA or two later. ETA: In a complete reversal of the way the things are, it turns out that P!cat makes great icon-sized animations, while D!cat's turn out lousy. I guess stripes just don't do the resizing so well. :P ( 6 animated gifs ) |
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| EVERYONE RUN AND FLAIL, SOMETHING HAPPENED IN THE ADMINISTRATION OF LJ! BACK UP EVERYTHING! CYBERSQUAT ALL YOUR NAMES! DON'T YOU ALL KNOW THAT LJ IS POWERED BY THE DRAMALLAMA? FEED THAT FUCKING DRAMALLAMA! | ||||||
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A few hours ago, this was going strong. Yeah... cupodtealight is kind of an idiot. And when I say kind of, I mean really. THE END IS NIGH! THE END IS NIGH! LJ IS FIRING PEOPLE DURING A RECESSION! CREATE COMMUNITIES, MAKE ICONS! START SINGING SONGS FROM MOVIES! |
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Recent news is finally compelling me to follow through on my vague intention to double-post between here and LJ, and use my JF account, what I paid for and everything. And so, here I am, double-posting this utterly fascinating information! **** I joined the YMCA this weekend, and I'm still all thrilled by the novelty of it. I was really not getting enough exercise, and I've been feeling it -- not just in tighter clothes, but in a general "bleah" physical state and lack of energy. Naturally, this got even worse when the weather started to prevent me from taking my bicycle out. So this seemed like a good way to keep me active through the winter months. It's not far away, but I wish it wasn't so very hilly between the YMCA and my house -- in warm months, I could ride my bicycle there, go swimming, and ride home! I haven't gone swimming yet, because I don't have a swimsuit that currently fits me. :/ A lot of the machines have TVs attached to them now, so I also had the idea that I could combine my TV appointments with workout appointments -- watch Supernatural while on the treadmill, for instance. Or, if that proves too complicated, I can also load up my iPod with Old Who and continue my watching-in-order project combined with the exercising project. Things to keep me from getting bored. Krista, do you have a family YMCA membership? When you and Tyler come to visit, maybe we could go swimming! Maybe. The "rules" for letting kids swim seemed oddly draconian, but the whole reason I found out about this YMCA was that I went to a kids' party there, and surely not all the child guests swimming at the party were previously vetted and tested? |
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Whoa, how many times are you going to reply defensively there, bucko? I thought the new Doctor was going to be black. This Smith guy looks more like a foot than that Edward Cullen actor. This has been a rather bad few days for me. On New Year's Day, feeding the dog, I pulled a neck muscle that still has a twinge now, and then drove two hours and a day early to my sister's place to help her bake a wedding cake for her bff. Which meant no one was set to feed the dog and cat that evening and the following morning, as my parents were off in New Hampshire visiting relatives. And even though it was my own stupid fault and even though it was easily taken care of, I really wish somebody had said, "Wait. Why are you going to your sister's today?" because apparently everybody realized this except me, but when I (accidentally) changed the plan, they just accepted it in due course. The next few days of making the wedding cake and the groom's cake were no issue, but then on Saturday night, just hours after getting home, I started vomiting everywhere and didn't stop until yesterday evening. My sister's bff's family all had the flu a few days before. So, yeah, it could have been worse. I can be thankful that it wasn't my wedding that I was barfing around (the bride delayed her bachelorette party because she was so sick), and that I also wasn't barfing at my sister's place while we were making the cake. But it still kind of blew as far as the first days of the New Year, yanno? Also I didn't get laid and I bet I could have. Even with my inability to move my head to the left without horrible pain. |
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| Monday, January 5th, 2009 |
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I just got finished watching Dear Zachary: A Letter to a son about his father. It aired on MSNBC last night and is in theaters around the country (check the link for info). I'm not sure how much to say about it because I feel like anything I say will give too much weight to some aspects and not enough to others. If you poke around on the website you'll find out all the details about the film. Including spoilers, if documentaries can be considered to have spoilers. Which some of you may want to read in order to decide if you can see it. But others might not want that information because without it you get to experience many of the events as the filmmaker did. The shortest summary is that Andrew, a close friend of the filmmaker's, died, and the filmmaker (Kurt) decided to make this movie as a way of honoring his friend. Then he found out that his friend had a son, so he decided to make the movie for the son, Zachary, so that Zachary would have something to know his father by. I'd say that information gets you to about the halfway point of the film, and after that are a lot of events that unfolded while Kurt was still making the documentary. This is a hard movie. It's not the best documentary ever created, but at the same time its weaknesses are its strengths. It's not a polished film, it's a deeply personal memorial. You watch it and you feel like you know these people. These are people who are going through horrible events that no one should ever have to go through. Watching it you are going to be devistated. I personally feel like I got kicked in the gut. I still haven't stopped crying. But at the same time - it's a story that needs to be told. It needs to be known. By the end of it I think you'll understand why you needed to be told about Andrew, and Zachary, and Andrew's parents. And part of it is that the only way the dead can live on is through memories, so by watching this we increase the amount of memories out there. And part is that even as you're there, probably crying yourself hoarse and feeling sick to your stomach, you see the absolute best in humanity and that needs witnessing and remembering too. I want to own this movie at the same time that I feel like I couldn't possibly ever watch it again. And this all goes back to that feeling of how this must be known. A part of this story needs to live in as many people as possible. So I'm doing my bit to honor that part by telling all of you about it. It's not easy and those of you who are parents and/or are sensitive to the idea of parents suffering the loss of their children should probably go to the website and get the full story so that you can decide if the movie wll be too triggery for you. But if you can watch it, do. For all of Andrew's family. |
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OMG! Guess what? I am totally taking the most awesome class evar this semester. It's my Intellectual & Cultural History Seminar course, and it's on the history of broken families, and I get to use fairy tales as some of my primary sources, and I realised (this is not something new & unique to me) that the modern version of fairy tales is superhero comics, and perhaps Mary Sues, and I am SO HAPPY OMG!!!!!!! Hi! Happy New Year To Me! |
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Firefox is being a dayglo orange nailstudded dildo. Dripping with habanero sauce that you can't see cuz it's orange, so next thing you know you're all cut up with nails and burning from the habanero sauce. Well, maybe not quite that bad, but it's crashing a lot. Trying out a new anti-malware program (Malwarebytes). Hopefull if I have anything lurking that'll root it out. |
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I'm so fucking sick I want to kill myself. When Jon was over, we watched a really interesting Western. Sukiyaki Western Django. Obviously a play on "Spaghetti Western," this movie is a Japanese "remake/prequel/homage" to the original spaghetti western Django. It was honestly visually gorgeous; the sets were vivid and unusual, a mix of ancient Japan and the Western days, but what really got me were the amazing costumes These two reflect a mix of Western and Japanese clothing, and were extremely creative and colorful in their mix of the two cultures. The movie is from the guy who brought us Zebraman, so it was odd, a little funny, and had some decent action. It's worth a watch (although I still recommend Versus more if you can stand a little over-the-top gore), if nothing else, just to see that the entire movie was in Engrish. (I STILL had to have the subtitles on. XD;) =_= The next ep of Abyss needs to come out. It looks like from the preview that they actually animated the hidden scene between Van and Guy (which surprised the HELL out of me, since they totally removed Frings and Cecille's little subplot). The anime's still doing okay. I'm a bit disappointed that they seem to have totally dismissed Guy's geekiness when it comes to fontech though. Hopefully, though, the anime will introduce people into actually playing the game and they can get the total experience. god i just want to die |
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...I just spent waaaaaaaaaaaaay too much at Whole Foods. But I got all the things I wanted! Two bottles of blueberry juice, a carton of blood orange juice, a bottle of green apple Italian soda, a sixpack of root beer, a fourpack of fancy ginger ale, four sausages (one of them buffalo bratwurst!), some potatoes, the chocolate I promised myself, bagels, cream cheese, butter, a fancy cupcake (I'd wanted to try one of theirs for a long time)... and jennywho and I had brunch from the hot bar. They had comfort food and German food; I had jagerschnitzel and German potato salad. OM NOM NOM. Oh, and before I forget, jennywho (and anyone else who might be interested), here's the Amazon page for the Eee 1000HA. It has all the stats.Mmmm. I might nap now. I had a pleasant erranding-and-socializing on a chilly (but thankfully so far unrainy) day, and now I have a full belly and a full fridge and it's warm in my apartment |
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I have plans to go to Whole Foods with jennywho today. I'm oddly excited, as if for a much bigger outing. Not sure why. Is it just because I enjoy hanging out with her, or is it a harbinger of something good about to happen? Anyway, I have promised myself three bars of Good Chocolate. Probably lavender, bacon, and jasmine, I know Whole Foods usually has those. Tasty-tasy! And hopefully I will be able to get blueberry juice, and I want bagels and some of the awesome sausage they have. I'm drinking cola (laced with falernum, yummy) from a cup instead of swigging it from the bottle. How mature of me. Even if I am using a bendy straw. I was trying to watch the fansub of Death Note: The Last Name on the Eee but Molly kept getting in the way. No good with subtitles! So I gave up for now. Either she was jealous of the Eee getting attention or she wanted to watch it without me in the way. Perhaps she is a L/Light shipper. Do cats like yaoi? |
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Because it's been forever since I signed up with AIM and I forgot the passwored, I had to make a new AIM screenname for the Eee. It's PortableKusu. My YM screennames are the same. So if you see me signed on as PortableKusu, I'm on the Eee. My spiky backpack is now the Eee bag. Still too braindead to tag in Amat. I feel kinda guilty since I owe three people tags, but Kusuri-uri is a tricky voice to get right, as hcolleen can vouch.
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Christmas decorations are gone. My tradition is to leave them up until the Epiphany (...heh) but since that's in the middle of the week I figured may as well do it now. My living room has so much ROOM now! WHEEEEE! Tomorrow I go back to work. While I'm in the in-between stage I'm all meh about it. I think once I make it to work I'll be more content about it. In an odd way I think I've been thrown by not having a routine. Mind you I'll probably deny this when my alarm goes off tomorrow and I have to drag myself out of bed 4 hours earlier than I've been getting out of bed over the past 2 weeks. But then I'll just remind myself of how much I spent over the holiday and how it's nice to have a paycheck to replenish the ol' savings account. Of course the cats are of the opinion that I shouldn't go anywhere. Mac in particular, as he lies across my arms right now. It's possible he won't even let me go to bed. |
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The romantic tale of NJYoder and TigerWolf -- as seen on sf_drama! There's no wank yet, but its writer is clearly hoping for one or both principals to notice it. I'd think C_W would be a good choice, but unfortunately, there will be just a little drama when that happens, followed by the story disappearing and the (obvious sock) account being suspended. And yet, because it has two infamous principals, I want to see it spread far and wide. Suggestions? |
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As long as we're out of the "everybody loves-loves the Doctor but he only loves the showrunner self-insert character...oh, and he's a bad person but please ignore that because we keep casting pretty actors" era, they could have picked Pauly Shore and I'd learn to like it. Ergo, I have no real opinion re: Mr. Smith, but am eager to see the door hit Rusty's fangirl ass on his way out. So there. You may now resume shopping as normal. PS. Still not ginger, poor guy. |
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So I finally went and installed Firefox 3, seeing as how they will no longer be doing anymore security updates. And I am pretty sure that pages are now loading much more slowly than my last Firefox 2 install. But I wasn't sure if it was Firefox 3 or my wireless connection (even though my computer says that my wireless signal is strong) so I thought "hey, why don't I download that new browser Google put out? I can see what that's like and then compare the two!" And I did, and used it for all of thirty seconds before it froze on me while I was changing tabs and I had to Ctrl Alt Delete it. And now I can't get rid of the little floaty blue "close" rectangle. NICE ONE GOOGLE Your Scott McCloud comic lied. On the new Doctor guy-- seeing has how I have never seen in him in anything or heard his name before today I guess I really will have to wait and see, though I will be renting Ruby in the Smoke and DLing Party Animals (and judging by the rate the usual hosting sites are going for me right now I should be done just in time for Smith's time lord debut). I think my favorite reaction post so far has to be one that popped up in my RSS reader talking how they obviously were just looking for a Tennant wannabe and oh boy did they find him, etc. ...based solely on his Confidential interview. Which, unless Smith turns out to have all the range of a crumpled paper airplane, strikes me as more than slightly unfair. I am hoping that his take on the Doctor does turn out to be very different from David's, but we won't know until next year (or perhaps well into the new series, as it took a few episodes for Tennant to settle into his portrayal of the Doctor). Right now, however, my only complaint is that Matt Smith's lack of eyebrows means that Eleven will be impossible for me to draw. I had enough of a hard time when I tried to draw John Simm, for goodness sake And speaking of drawing: this summer I bought a lead holder, for use in a drafting class. About a month after the class ended I figured out that the lead holder came with a built in sharpener. Today, about five months after I took the class, I figured out how to use that sharpener properly. I am not a competent person, in many matters. |
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I don't get why people are all upset about how quickly Doctor Who burns through lead actors. "Oh noes, we'll hit 13 soon!" Yeah, whatever. The Master started at 12 or 13 and he's been played by four(?)* different actors and a CGI snake since then. When the counter rolls to 14, they can fix it in a Christmas special, or with three lines of dialogue if they're feelin' lazy. *Ainley, Roberts, Jacobi, Simm? |
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I owe RP tags, but I'm headachey and sleepy, bah. Horchata-flavor Tang is pretty tasty. Since everyone is giving their thoughts on Matt Smith... I haven't seen him in anything, so all I can say is, he's a rather pretty infant. 26, wow! I was, like many others, hoping for Paterson Joseph, but I'll certainly give Matt Smith a fair chance. But geez, 26... |
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And we have a new Doctor. Now I need to wait for the actually download so I can watch the announcement. No matter who they had picked, it was still the Doctor to me, but I think I like this choice. More info here. |
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calm.
did I mention bored?.
annoyed.
tired.