From the 'wtf' files...
So, today in Q&F Aeona posts to ask why her buddy LoneMaverick was banned for 2 weeks.


People post "penis" and "shaddup" in my threads.
A girl PMed me menacing me and screaming at me cause I answered her boyfriend's slave thread.
I try to be a sincere friend and the people mock my trust. Someone lied to me about a girlfriend and boyfriend commiting suicide.

If he lost his nerves and kick the ass of some of them, I think he's perfectly right. My true nature -I hate to admit- is to be a very good person. But it's ofen the only way to deal with those people who respect nothing. To have their disrespect returned is all they deserve. Mav is among the really rare person in here who calmed down my rage and made me apreciate this place. He's direct and honest. I'm sick of those goody-goody people so full of respect who talk in your back when they have the chance and let you down cause they are too busy to be happy. I admire the people who dare to be as cruel as the truth. I deplore so badly the way everyone act. But I really respect people like him. You did a mistake banning him. I don't know what happened yet, but he hurted me once, I told him and he walk to his pride to apologise. He's not the kind of person who attack other for no reasons, and he's able to ammend himself for a fault. I think that to punish someone like that, to remove his right to be, is exagerated. What are you waiting to ban those who care about nothing and no one. The day I saw mav, he was saying that a lot of people try to imitate him being bad, but that he's not for no reason and that he try to help others. He helped me. I can tell you that I'm a pain in the ass.... and that I was really in trouble... the debt of my rage, I could have killed someone. He helped me to calm down, he showed me that some people worth to be met and that the web is not that ugly. I just finished a course in web developpement... it was a real problem for me... but he helped me to open slowly. I was a pain, I'm boring and I writte so damn too much in an awfull english. But he always took the time to reply and he was always really kind... even if all I could find to get his attention the first time I PMed him is to stab him. Well, I was very hatefull and violent... so if he could do so much for something like me... you won't make me believe that you had no other choice than to ban him. I hate how much we are not treated like human beings. You wouldn't believe the way I've been treated, I'm that hatefull for a good reason. For one time I meet someone that I apreciate and respect, he get ban. I think your wrong. Tell me your reasons and I'll break them with arguments.

While most of the members care only about making money, he cared and tried to help others. How could you banned him. There is so many people who make me dislike to even come in the web... and you banned the person who made me apreciate it again.

What could possibly justify such noncense. I'd like to know.

People remind her that mods can not discuss another person's banning with anyone but said person. Mod Lluvia Maya says the same thing.


I'm the one asking why, not him.
I wanna know what happened.

and I need a way to contact him.

is this too much to ask. I'm trying to understand instead to judge and to attack you. I'd like you to express your gratitude for my efforts with some decent informations.

and another question is bugging me. why him. and not me.

The admin of my first form called my school saying that I was making menaces of death since months... they almost destroyed my future with a lie. I was just an annoying little girl begging for affection and unable to express any anger. I've been ban again and again until I became the hatred itself. Now that I act the way I do. How come I'm still here. I'm worse than he is. Everyone I met except bacardii is worse than him. Why him? What did he do. What are those "rules".

People once again remind her that she can't know why her friend was banned. The_Swordsman_of_Death calls her a liar about her claim that the admin tried to ruin her.


I mentionned that I'm disgusted by those in the web who lie all the time. To accuse me of lying is to put me as low as those worms. You have the right to not believe me, but don't you dare to make false accusations.

He is my friend. I care about him. I'm more concern about the fact that he got ban than the one who banned him himself, cause I care for him and wanna see him again. I feel like he won't bother to return... that I'll never see him again. It even torment me even in my sleep. I NEED to know!!!! So how dare you to tell me that it's none of my concern.

I asked you politely why. I came here to understand you, I asked your reasons cause, even if I don't aprove them, at least I can understand and respect them! But you, you judged me, you accused me, you insulted me. The favor that I asked you to return is RESPECT!

Now can we have a conversation between adults. I want us to understand each other. I love him. I miss him. I'M worried. I suffer. I wanna understand why. Can you try to understand that and explain yourself so I would understand you as well.

Do you want me to treat you the way you just treated me? I'm shure Mav got ban for less than that.

Yet another mod (Silver Archangel) shows up and explains YET AGAIN why her friend's banning can not be discussed with her. Others try to pound it into her thick skull. The_Swordsman_of_Death calls her a liar again and further stipulates that she's stupid for falling in love with a bunch of pixels. This sparks a small debate on loving the pixels or the person behind the pixels, but nothing flamey really.

Oooh, but our friend Aeona is mortally wounded by Swordsman..

Thozmosis, thank you so much... can you tell me more... I'm not shure to understand.

I used to be an idealist willing to save the world. But now I would gladly destroy it. The very and only thing that I still believe and respect, is the truth.

I'm violent, agressive, annoying, my english suck, I'M a bitch, and even a whore.

But I'M not a liar.

They emailed my school. They told them that I was making menaces of death since month. I almost got kicked out of school.

You presume many things. And you are wrong. I'm no longer in school. I'm 24 years old. I live on my own since I'm 17. I'm a web developper. I have a good logic, I like to undertsand things. I dispise you for judging the people so fast. If you are a moderator, then I think that you have no life and that you come in the internet to abuse your powers on others, without trying to understand them, cause you please yourself to think that everyone is worse than you, that you are the best, and it makes you feel hard to use your powers on others.

But you are an empty shell. IF you think that me, or anyone else that you are in contact with because of the web, is nothing more than pixels... you are the one who's not living in the real world. This is just another way to be with others, there is face to face, on the phone, and with letters, and now we have the internet. When you talk to someone with a phone, do you think she's not real, that she don't have feelings or worth nothing cause her body is not in front of you? Is all you can see in a person is her body? The I trully pity you. The greatest thing to know about someone is their tastes, their opinions, theyr way to be, feel, act and think... that's what makes a person a human being. The body is nothing but meat that becomes rotted when you die... but if we are still amazed by bethooven's music and Picasso's art... what whas so great about them was what they expressed, in paint or in words... that's what touched so many people. But who care about their skeletton.

The ideas. The way to express them. I don't need to see mav body to admire him as a person. I don't need to see his penis to love the way he is and act. I don't even need to take him in my arms to feel rassured... just to writte him, just to send the idea... it makes me happy. To be talked to, in words that I can read or with words that I can ear... there is no differences... I'm in contact with him. My affection for this person is real. I'M attached to him... whern I think about never recieving his toughts ever again, the sadness that I feel is real. The happyness that I have reading a book is real... so why not the one that I feel when someone writte just for me.

You see, the reason why I became so hatefull, why I dispise the people in general enough to... enough to hurt them without regrets... me who used care so deeply... is cause I've met too much people like you, who can't see further than his nose and judge everyone without trying to understand. I pity you. You repulse me. I didn't had the chance to know maverick long enough to know his real name... I will probably never meet him... but I admire him, I even love him deeply... because he's able to admit a mistake, even if he's paranoid he don't condamn other people, he doesn't attack other people for no reason, he showed respect to a violent and agressive person like me, I'm like poison and he always came back to me with something nice to say...

You're the one who should be ban. You don't care about others, you don't even consider me as a human being, you don't give a shit, you're nothing but an empty shell. What are you doing in here if you don't give a shit about other human being. This whole place would be completly empty if someone wasn't there to post. You don't even believe the truth when it's in front of your eyes. You should put your head out of your momy's ass and look at what the world trully is. But unfortunately, people like you never grow up.

I hope you're just a brat seeking money. That would explain why you answered without even knowing who I was talking about. A little know-it-all who think he's better than anybody. But mark my words, you worth nothing, you doesn't worth to be met, and even in person, I would never love someone who act and think the way you do. You make me want to url.

I miss Mav even more when I see a worm like him...

Now can you see how annoying I am... Mav beared that... without hurting me... many times... he was taking such a good care of me... I can't bear the idea to be surrounded by ordinary people like that worm, and to never see a rare person like him...

well, most of the mod was really nice, so I still have some hope for that place... But if there was some justice, it's people like that trash who would be ban.

I need him so badly... I can't stand to be taled to by people like "The_Swordsman_of_Death" who the heck do he think he is... he have nothing to offer. Even my kidside is more impressive and evil than him. I wanna be with mav... it's so fucking unfair. God I'm depressed like hell.......

Keep that trash away from me. *points The_Swordsman_of_Death* He don't even deserve to be called a person.

People point out that if he really cared for her as much as he claimed, he would have, you know, given her a way outside of Gaia to contact him. Aeona babbles some more.


Keep that open, I'm starting to have some faith in you people. This conversation is interesting. It took me forever to type. I'm not good at resuming my toughts. I have too many.

I would prefer to fall in love with someone that I can touch.
My friends in real life don't talk to me... they email me chain letters without even saying hi... they almost never call me, and when we meet, we watch tv without talking... so I even feel closer with the people I meet in the net, cause we do nothing but talk...

he was my snuggle friend... as well... he told me that I was the first person who returned the favor... more I meet girls, and more I'm sad to see that I'm not the only one... but the good he did to me, as I was so badly sad that hatred become a salvation remain the same...

and the other person is right... he said that he wasn't gonna come back in his hat thread... so many he won't at all. I've been ban in the past... the rejection is terrible. It's humiliating... to be punished by a strager like he was my dad... isntead to clear it out like friends... I can't believe that those I've been with talking 6 hours per day since a year banned me, and I did everything to be with them, so they called my school and lied to get rid of me...

I won't let go on mav... I don't care what it will cost me... I need him... there is other caracters with silver hairs... it's easy to find a evil lord... but not someone like him... it's him that I want... I grew attached, I feel love for him... and even if it's not mutual, even if I have to share him... god I need to feel apreciated by him... cause I value him a lot... he matter a lot to me... and we can't choose who we'll love... all we can is to feel it... and god I'm sick to hate! I hated enough to fall hill for 2 years... I love him... I wanna love him... no matter how stupid it sound... I... I'M so sick to be always angry....... he gave me better.... he tamed me... I don't care if it makes me a stupid pet... I can't bear to be as tormented as I am... and he succeded where my "real" friends failed... he succeded to calm me...

hahaha! I sound so stupid... oups long post again.

Lluvia Maya tells her to ask her friend herself why he was banned, and locks the thread.

Only 3 pages long, but..long and tiring to read.