supernaturalfic

 
I'm so far behind in school work I'm pretty sure my instructors are sure I'm going to wash out. Luckily, online school is more forgiving about due dates and extensions (or so it seems), and my instructors are being amazing.

I cannot concentrate. At all. I can't focus on anything that takes more than one or two minutes, and I'm trying to break things into two minute chunks, then do something else, then go back to school for two minutes, ad naseum, but it's not working as well as it has in the past.

Doc and I briefly considered trying some ADD meds to see what happens, but considering my history of mania it's risky, because my manias--while nice for about a day to day and a half--quickly turn ugly, nasty and dangerous. People get hurt and I do really stupid things. So.. yeah. Right now, with what else is going on with my life, it's just not a safe time to take on that experiment.

So... I'm off to try to compare two Beatle's songs, one from earlier, one from later. You'd think it would be easy, right? Yeah. He wants technical stuff and I can't make it through the textbook or internalize terms (form, rhythm, meter, style, tonality, etc.) I've known since junior high.

Pretty sure I'm not going to make a 4.0 this semester. For the first time since going back to school.

 
Sometimes you're the chimp, sometimes you're the dog...