I hate that I love Azeroth so much, sometimes. I really do. Because if I didn't, I could fuck right off without a second thought right now, for good (setting aside I just got an annual pass -_-). But I love this setting so much that it hurts, sometimes, and walking away from it is something I just don't know how to do. As badly as they've fucked it up, and continue to fuck it up, I love this universe so much, I love playing in that sandbox.

I can't go play TOR as much as I love Bioware, and love their support of LGBT players, because I love Star Wars but I don't have the same attachment to that universe. Ditto FFXI, LotRO and City of Heroes and basically every other MMORPG I've tried. (If Squeenix made one set in Ivalice, I'd jump ship in a heartbeat though.) If it were a Dragon Age MMO, I'd go play it, because that's the only setting in recent memory that's grabbed me by the tits the way Warcraft did back when I first started playing Orcs & Humans a dog's age ago.

So I'm basically fucked either way, as far as I can see. I make these terrible bargains with myself no matter how much this company shits on me and shits on the setting because if I leave it, I don't even have the fucked up things to fix. Does that even make sense? I don't know if I'm making sense. I just know that I purposefully avoided the conversations everywhere but on dear_gnome and wow_ladies because I was triggered enough by the little bit I saw being discussed elsewhere. Suddenly it feels like I'm back in high school being bullied and abused for being a dyke and no one in authority cares (or they say I deserve it). And I just can't. I don't have the spoons.