I think that reaction was borne of time and distance - I honestly haven't thought about the guy since the previous wank, so I can't really remember any details about why I was skeeved in the first place. It's entirely likely that my original reaction was the correct one, but under the circumstances, I'm not going to go refresh my memory.

Plus, his entire life seems to have been a tragedy. With that distance, I can truly allow for the profoundity of his mental illness (not an excuse for his behavior, but almost certainly most of the reason), and feel bad for him that his death had to be one too.