Jess

Yesterday would have been my dad's 60th birthday. It was a hard day and didn't help that I found a photo album of old pictures of him and us, but I cried and then did some things to make me happier and look on the happier side of things.

Which leads to the baby watch. Jacks' due date is now TWO days away. JD doesn't show any signs of coming just yet but that can change at any time too. We're just playing the waiting game. Everytime my phone rings I'm expecting it to be my mom or sister saying it's time LOL At least I'm close. I only live about 3-4 blocks from the hospital now. Plus one of our friends is also due anytime as well so we're waiting to hear about her too.


Holiday Cards
I meant to do this over Thanksgiving but I am planning on sending out holiday/winter cards this year and so if you would like one please comment here (comments screened) or email me your address (aramiv@gmail.com) I'm not sure with all the moves and what not, whose addresses I have or who have new ones so if you want one let me know.

Hope anything is going well with everyone!

<3

6 months.  has it really been that long? Half the time I try to figure out if it's gone by too fast or has just been dragging along.  Some days are better as with anything but I wonder if anything hurts quite so bad.

Of course we all miss dad but we can laugh and joke in his memory and I think that's a good thing.  We joke about my nephew who will turn 14 in a week and how he has so many of my dad's mannerisms, and the hilarity when he says something is SO just my dad.  My sister's birthday was yesterday and mine is in a month and I found myself remembering last year this time when he'd splurged and surprised us with tickets to the Seahawks.  It was ridiculously fun and we had such a good time.

and then there are family things that just don't seem right anymore.... my little sister's baby shower on Sunday... talking about plans for Thanksgiving... my new little nephew's arrival in t-minus 6 weeks... the Christmas party we always have and christimas itself.... all of them he was such a part of and I equally dread them and don't want them to change anymore than they have.

all that and my cat went to live with my ex-roommate.  He was hers and she moved to Buffalo. I kept him until she got settled and then took him to her this past weekend.  Dad goes, then she leaves, and now kitty.

Sometimes I just don't know how to get through anything even though I do, I want to.  I have plans and ideas and things I want to do and... nothing.

we joke and say that dad had terrible timing and should have worked on it a bit better.  I think we can say that about a few things and people too.

State of well... Me


It seems like it's been so long since I've posted or anything and maybe it has.  But as I sit here this Sunday with a little fuzzy thing keeping my feet warm the mood to write has hit so I take that as a sign.

It's been a month and two weeks since my dad passed.  I can actually think that and type it and I get a bit fluttery but I'm okay.  But that's only been the case for a few weeks, and I know that's understandable.  Per his wishes, we didn't have a funeral but instead did a memorial service / wake.  And though the circumstances sucked, I did get to see a lot of family I hadn't in a while and that was amazing.  The service was really great.  So many people, it was great to see, and so many pictures and testimonials.  Because he served in the Marine Corp, the folks from my mom's unit contacted the Corp and had a colour guard there.  They draped the flag and played Taps and gave it to my Mom.  It was just.... really great.  The Father's Day ads I'm seeing more and more now are getting to be a bit much and I'm just letting myself get emotional over them, dealing and moving on.

I also think me being in the middle of a move when all of this happened helped as well.   I kept busy enough for myself but didn't get TOO overwhelmed.  And now I have this great new place and I could be happier with it, even if it is still in chaos but I'm good with it.  I know this was such a good choice, good idea.  I'm loving the new neighbourhood, everything.

Other news is that I'm going to be an aunt again.  We are all so excited; at last check, my sister was due at the beginning of December.  It's kind of...... cool because she's due within days of Dad's birthday.  My nephew wants a little brother, my mom and brother in law want a little girl, and Jacks, she just wants it healthy.  With all the complications that she had with my nephew AND afterwards, she's just happy to BE pregnant.

Work is work, is going good.  :) in this day and age I am just happy to consistently be working and all of that.

I am also feeling much better and in the headspace to get caught up; on thread and characters and all of that.  It's been a while so thank you everyone for being patient with me.  You've all just been so wonderful <3333

Dear new person in my head,
No vacancy, please to be moving on.  You being pretty is not enough.

Besides, you're German. And NO I don't have problems with German people. Some dear friends are that, but I really really really reallllly don't need German. In. My. Head.

Kthxbye

No love,
Me.

Funny how you never expect to write something like this... I honest don't know how I'm doing it now.

Dad passed away yesterday.  He was at home and it was fast and he wasn't in pain.  I guess that's all we can hope for in the end.  Actually I could hope for more time but it's not realistic.  Mom of course is pretty much hysterical.  They just celebrated their 38th anniversary 9 days ago.  They'd been together for 40.  She just doesn't know life without him, none of us do.  Of my two parents, everyone always said he and I were so alike and we'd always been close.  We liked a lot of the same things, had very similar (terrible) senses of humour, and if I ever needed anything, he was always there.

To the question of how am I doing?  Not in the least well at all.  To those who have offered well wished and thoughts and prayers already, it is much appreciated and I can't begin to say how much it means to me, to all of us.

Tell all those who you love that you do before it's too late.

I'm not really commenting back to my journals at the moment but I am keeping tabs on my email, just don't expect quick reply's :)

<3

Hockey Day in Canada
Whoot!

Last night I proved what a complete klutz I am.  Tripped on the sidewalk and landed on my ass as I was heading into the 'Tips game *sigh*  Epic, I tell you. Epic.

Dad is doing okay.  There was a scare with his leg again but they're trying some homeopathic medicines and stuff and the outlook is optimistic.  He's still getting to go on his trip to China and is very excited.  He's supposed to be "working" but it's more like a fun trip than anything which is good.

baby darth vader commercial is still cute as hell.

Need to catch up and clear out my DVR, no lying.  Must. catch. up. on things.

I am finally under $2000 left owed on my car. Whooot, finally!!

*grumble*

Is anyone else NOT getting JF comments?  I've been going back to posts that I or my pups comment and/or reply to and find that they WERE replied to and often days ago.  But I'm not getting any of those notifs in my email.   I haven't changed email on any of them or my own so I'm not sure if its JF or.... something else :(

So of course, if I or a pup hasn't replied back or answered, that's likely the case
*sigh*

Hello friends :)

Does it seem like 6 weeks... well that's what it's been. I have been covering for someone at work who was out with pneumonia so bad she was in the hospital after three days with it. I feel bad for her and luckily she is getting much better. However, she does the work of two people, and so do I, and I am her backup.... do the math. Basically as my manager says, I've gotten very good at treading water so I'm not technically drowning. But she's back now, and  I think I might have jumped for joy when she came back that first day. I'm thankful for the OT they're giving me but sometimes that's just not worth it.

So how the heck is everyone LOL

Being mid December I would like to say that if anyone wants a Christmas/Holiday card from me, please let me know, leave me your address or email it to me (aramiv@gmail.com). I have a lot of handmade ones I would love to share with folks. I love getting and sending cards so yes this would be good.

COMMENTS ARE SCREENED or you can email your email to me :)

OMG
I hate hate HATE the phrase "TO BE CONTINUED".....
Why don't they just say 'HA gotcha! We know what's going to happen but you're going to be our bitches for three months until the fall season starts"

UGH
UGH
UGH

*keysmash*

I am mainlining NCIS and Criminals minds.
I BLAME you people.

Yes YOU know who you all are too
:P

That is all.

I just wanted to let folks know that I might be absent for a few days. Seems my broken tooth is worse that I thought I'm being taken into surgery to day.... in a couple of hours. Doc's done this before but it's major surgery and... well I won't go into details. It's likely that I'm not going to feel like being conscious for a day or so

:)

So anything I have to tag back to folks, I will get to it as soon as I can
*G*

Have finally caught up on Dr Who (yay for not having to wait for BBCA) Am kind of disburbed? have questions about the Power Ranger Daleks (TM to rihani for that one)



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HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNA!!!!

*muah!*
:)

Happy Friday!

It is my last day off in the fiscal year.  Granted I thought I'd taken all the days I had to already but eh, not going to complain about a random three-day weekend.  It was either today or Monday and I like Fridays off better.

And thank you anonymous person who gave me extra paid time on my journal.  Completely out of the blue and unexpected but very very kind of you.
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My mp3 player is amusing.  It goes between Avenue Q, Dropkick Murphy's and the Boondock Saints OST.  I am a fan of this on any day but today it is making me very happy.

I think tonight it ight just have to be a double dose of the McManus twins.  Them and their 'stoopid fookin rope'
*G*



"It is better to be lucky than to be good"
~Irish Proverb

Meme Gacked from All Over the Freaking Interwebs
Pick either or both!

1) Ask me a question about one of my stories. It can be absolutely anything in any fic and I will tell you the honest-to-god answer. Don't hold back. Anything. Whatever you ask, I will try my best to answer.

2) Ask any of my characters or RP pups a question. They will answer. Same deal.

Happy New Year everyone. I hope 2010 is very very good for you all.

It's been a pretty lazy day but very good too. And between the Winter Classic, and loottts and lots of Dr Who on, it's also been very good too :) It feels like a Saturday but then again I've veen off since Wednesday; it's been rather nice though.

Finally got my mom's address in the Middle East, well at least where she's getting mail. So that's good, plus she has her email too.

The only thing that would be better is if it would snow =)

<333 to everyone.

Phone calls before 7:30 on a Sunday are never good. Especially when they're from mom.
My dad is back in the hospital again.

I just don't think the thinking positive thing is jiving with me at the moment. They're hoping he is just having post op issues, but it doesn't look good so far.
God damn deju vu all over again because there's nothing that I can do.

Dad Update~

First thank you to everyone for your thoughts and prayers and whatnot. It really is appreciated.

He was in good spirits and mobile but then the graf of the originally surgery collapsed. The only thing to do is harvest a vein from his arm and go into surgery again to fix this. So he's still in the hospital but back in his room. He's still pretty drugged out and tired but that's to be expected. He's frustrated but is cracking a few jokes so that's definitely good. He just wants out of there but I can't blame him there.


after we left, we went and got some good food and then just went to a park over looking the water and chilled. It was really kind of great.

now I am doing laundry, oh so excited. But clothes to wear to work is usually a good thing :)

*sigh*
I just found out the 'exploratory' surgery my dad had found he has a blockage in the femoral artery in his leg.  They're moving him into another surgery tomorrow.
I'm still not supposed to worry that this is the same thing my grandma had done, right?

Yeah I'll work on that.
:(