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I Chose Right
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| | Subject: | Index | | Time: | 01:55 pm |
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| October 22, 2005 - Meeting Hugh Jackman again.
December 16, 2005 - An Unexpected Meeting with John Barrowman 1 & 2
December 18, 2005 - Regrets and Friendship with Hugh Jackman
December 19, 2005 - Saying Goodbye to the Past: A Letter To Hugh Jackman
January 3, 2006 - Private Thoughts of The New Year
January 15, 2006 - Ben and John Barrowman Meet Again 1 & 2
January 16, 2006 - Morning After With John Barrowman 1 & 2
February 8, 2006 - First Phone Call To Jesse Metcalfe Regarding His Work
January 22, 2006 - Doctors Appointment & Blood Tests With John Barrowman 1 & 2
January 22, 2006 - Couch & Communication With John Barrowman
February 7, 2006 - Ben & John Barrowman Surfing The Net
February 7, 2006 - Ben & John Barrowman Hot Water & Revelations
February 8, 2006 - Ben & John Barrowman Fear of Dominance
February 8, 2006 - Ben & John Barrowman What's Your Kink? 1 & 2
February 24, 2006 - Ben & John Barrowman Getting Test Results Back
February 24, 2006 - Ben & John Barrowman: Celebrating Test Results 1 & 2
February 25, 2006 - Ben & John Barrowman: Intensifying Things 1 & 2
March 11, 2006 - John Barrowman's Birthday Gift
June 13, 2006 - Ben Calls James Franco About His Art
June 14, 2006 - Ben and James Franco Meet In Person | comments: Leave a comment  |
| | Subject: | Ben Affleck & John Barrowman: Getting Home | | Time: | 10:04 pm |
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| (Players Only) (Backdated to March 18, 2006)
Hot, John thinks as he wakes, slowly. It feels like his skin is burning, he's sweating and as he wakes, a wave of pain hits him. His entire body is aching. He can feel Ben holding him and he groans softly. Glancing, when he gets his eyes open, at the clock, he realizes it's time to get up anyway. He does actually feel quite rested, which is something, he thinks with his morning pill he will be able to make it. It's not going to be a particularly comfortable trip home, but he would still rather take that than stay here, not feeling well. Being at home will be infinitely better.
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| | Subject: | Ben Affleck and John Barrowman - Lunch and A Bit More | | Time: | 08:15 am |
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| (Players Only) (Backdated to March 16, 2006) (Immediately follows this)
Unable to stop himself, Ben curls a hand around the back of John's neck and pulls his head forward until their lips press together. It's more a kiss of promise rather than passion but it certainly hints of things to come. "You are a complete and total tease." he whispers against John's lips.
"Who me?" John looks innocent as they part. "All I did was talk about eating. Satisfying hunger..." his voice deepens slightly. "Don't know why that makes me a tease..."
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| | Subject: | Ben & anything_goes: Intensifying Things Part 2 | | Time: | 11:33 pm |
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| Follows this.
Ben's legs instantly part further to allow John access. His hips push slightly onto the fingers inside of him. "John . . ." he breathes out softly.
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| | Subject: | Ben & anything_goes: Intensifying Things Part 1 | | Time: | 11:27 pm |
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| (Players Only) (Backdated to February 26, 2006) (Follows this)
Swallowing a pill, chased by water, John stands in the kitchen and smiles, before moving back into the living room and settling back down onto the couch with Ben. He continues to watch the Law & Order episode they'd decided to watch, and snuggles Ben a little. "Hey there," he says, almost as if he hasn't seen Ben all day, when they'd actually only gotten out of bed a few hours ago - though admittedly most of the day had been spent resting. That thought makes John chuckle softly as he half-watches the lawyers working to conclude the case.
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| | Subject: | Private Thoughts | | Time: | 11:57 am |
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| A new year has dawned and I'm looking at it as a new opportunity. While 2005 seemed the year when I put the past behind me and recognized what I truly want, maybe 2006 is the year to really go after it. Financially I'm better off then ever, my art galleries all are flourishing to the point I'm seriously contemplating opening a new location in Los Angeles. It would mean staying in one place for awhile, but even that sounds appealing right now.
Personally I've figured out what I want, what I need. Of course now it's just finding someone who is willing to be the dominant I know I need. Perhaps that can be my resolution this year, finding someone to lead me in the right direction.
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Saying Goodbye To The Past & A Letter to </a></a> hugh_jackman
In the light of day and after the initial euphoria of Hugh not hating him for running when they met up in London before, Ben came to the realization what he had with Hugh could never work. What they had was in the past and trying to recreate it would only cause them pain.
If Ben wasn’t pursuing an intimate relationship with Hugh then it was probably better to avoid a business one as well. Neither of them really needed to combine Ben’s knowledge of art with Hugh’s burglary. It wasn’t like either of them were struggling financially. The whole thing had been a nice dream, but it was time to wake up to reality.
For several house before his plane was due to leave Ben tried to get Hugh on the phone. A trip by the other man’s home was also useless. So instead of talking in person and resolving this like adults like he wanted, Ben left a note where Hugh would be sure to find it.
H.
Going back home. Thank you for a brief glimpse at the fantasy and what might have been if things had been different. We both know it could never end well if we tried though, so it’s better to say goodbye before someone gets seriously hurt. I’m sure we’ll see each other off and on but it’s better if we put us in the past where it belongs. Be happy.
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| | Subject: | Hugh Jackman and Ben Affleck | | Time: | 12:01 am |
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| Saturday, October 22nd Player's Only
It is early morning and Hugh is sitting at his bar drinking tea and perusing the art section of the newspaper, "Son of a bitch." He stands up in shock holding the newspaper in both hands. Dropping it, he grabs his keys and his leather jacket and runs out the door to his Harley. The abandoned newspaper is open to the grand opening of a new art gallery... complete with an appraiser to valuate the art on the premises. It is this appraiser who catches Hugh's eye.
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