Aja

Proudly announcing....

2007-11-23T04:36:25Z

We are extremely proud of this one.

Come join us!

just fyi

2007-11-13T15:41:49Z

I'm turning anon commenting off until this spam epidemic is past. Wtf.

you guys can spam me as much as you like, though. <3

Gmail - Inbox (299)

2007-09-29T14:18:02Z

Stop nudging me, Sam.

bookshop @ 2007-08-28T21:50:00

2007-08-29T01:53:05Z

i feel sheepish making this post because it doesn't actually involve most people reading this, and i would be saying it to the meme directly, except i can't say it to the meme directly because they'll dogpile me, but i can't say what i want to say except to the meme, even though they'll probably dogpile me for saying it here even though what i want to say i can only say to them one way or the other, BUT ANYWAY:

Meme, thank you for making me laugh. At myself and rapingsteen and everything.

to the meme:

2007-08-15T18:16:34Z

OKAY YOU AND I HAVE GOT TO CLEAR SOME THINGS UP, STARTING WITH:

1) AJA IS A MEME DENIER!
- I AM NOT. I didn't leave the meme out of righteous indignation, I left b/c I was spending too much time there and didn't feel healthy and then I got rly busy. I never disliked you, (or you, Becky), and I was completely taken aback that suddenly there was all this Aja hate the next time you guys showed up on my LJ. The amount of vitriol was a bit :/-inducing, but then I know you guys are fickle.

2) CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND WE DON'T CARE?
- oh, please. If you can go for one day without suspecting I am there on the meme I might start believing that.

3) TENIPURI ANON MEME WAS NOT ABOUT YOU, YOU IDIOT.
- well, i know that now, but at the time i did not know you were randomly trolling all memes everywhere, and since you tend to track the fandoms i am in, and since it was right around the time you were semi-trolling my journal, it felt pretty personal. I am over it now.

4) I am not even going to go into how you move from thinking "Why do only the men drive the plot of HP?" means "I HATE WOMEN AND THE ONLY WOMEN I LIKE IN HP ARE THE VILLAINS." WHATEVER.

5) I like becky! I like rf! I like all of you, even when I am :/ and even when i am making a nuisance of myself. I just want to come and lurk every now and then and not have you guys COMPLETELY FREAK OUT BECAUSE YOU THINK I AM ON THE MEME. JESUS.

6) I didn't burn that stupid t-shirt to lead a massive fan revolt, I JUST WANTED TO BURN SOMETHING OKAY. I wanted to destroy my ties to LJ, and I loved that shirt, so I was like :-< I will set fire to it as a way of motivating myself to actually go through with leaving. And it wasn't supposed to be this big thing, i didn't even post it to my journal, i posted it where I thought no one would care. Of course it was wanky and silly, that is how i am. but it wasn't meant to be some OMG STATEMENT!!!!!!!!! Also, I laughed and laughed over Becky's parody.

7) The person who posted about receiving a letter was not me. The juvenile facility threader was me, and since I only post about my real life under heavy filter, I didn't expect anyone to make the connection between them and me. I was upset, and having someone decide to out me because of that did not make me less upset. It was not me trying to MAKE MY FUCKING PRESENCE KNOWN TO YOU. Jesus, look at the way I get shitpiled every time you guys think I am actually on the meme. Why would I want to bring that on myself when I could be happily lurking and posting lyricspam or something? Which I have been, more or less, doing for weeks now.

That's all. If I have forgotten something, you can tell me about it here, ~~but I'm screening comments~~ because you will probably be pissed off that I made this post. that's okay. I just wanted to defend myself against your ire, because I mostly consider myself to be one of you, and always have.

P.S. MY ICONS ARE AWESOME.

Ikasucon (my stupid anime con writeups, let me show you them)

2007-08-13T04:24:41Z

So I spent all day yesterday at Ikasucon in Fort Wayne, Indiana, my first anime convention, which managed to be tiny and mild, cool and surreal, predictable and extremely unexpected, all at once. There are three main points I wish to cover, which are as follows:

A) I did not sing karaoke, for which the world is forever grateful; and I did finally finally finally get to see DDR for the first time live and in person. I kept wanting the players to select JE music; sadly, no one did, and moreover whenever I gratuitously brought up Kame and Yamapi and Jin, people stared at me like I was a fan of some freakily obscure anime that even the fans of freaky obscure anime thought was too lame to mention in public. Also, o.O, despite being a smallish convention, OMG SO MUCH COSPLAY. I NEVER KNEW. O.o

B) I BOUGHT 30.5. ADSFLK;SSDLDS OMGGGGGGG 30.5 THE PRINCE OF TENNIS ARTBOOK, IT IS MINE. IT IS ALL MINE AND IT IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING I HAVE EVER SEEN AND I THOUGHT I HAD SEEN ALL THE SCANS OF 30.5 BEFORE BUT THERE ARE PICTURES IN THIS BOOK THAT I HAVE NEVER SEEN ONLINE, AND I CAN'T TELL WHETHER I'M MORE IN LOVE WITH, FOR INSTANCE, THE PICTURE OF SENGOKU AND AKUTSU LOOKING CUTE AND DOMESTIC, THE PICTURE OF OISHI STEALING TEZUKA'S GLASSES AND WEARING THEM AND I REALLY HOPE SOMEONE SOMEWHERE HAS SHOWN THIS PICTURE TO prillalar BECAUSE OH MY GOD, OR THE PICTURE TOWARDS THE END OF RYOMA AND KARUPIN ASFKJK;LSFJAW;KLSKLAFKJS;FKLDSJF;LASDJF;KLS;DSKLJKLFLSK;D;FKLSFKLSAFSDFSDLD;LS;DSKJL I LOVE IT I LOVE MY ARTBOOK I AM SO HAPPY SO HAPPY SO SO HAPPY AND MOREOVER NOW I UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE GO TO ANIME CONVENTIONS IT IS FOR THE SWAG.

C) I had signed up sort of last minute to do the Yaoi panel (which was predictably entitled "Your Thoughts On Yaoi") last night from 10-midnight, which made me pretty nervous despite the fact that I've modded panels before, since as we all know I hate anime. ;)

Instead what happened was that even though we were scheduled opposite the two main events of the conference (the dance and the karaoke), the room was packed. And not only was the room packed, but:
- more people kept showing up as the night went on, and staying;
- in some cases, people left briefly and then came back with more people to sit in, including a parent who went and brought in her daughter and her daughter's friends because she wanted them to sit in on the discussion
- even though it was a two-hour panel, it flew by, and when no one wanted to leave, the guy who was holding the panel after ours told us to keep going, because he said we were doing what panels were designed to do.

The panel was extended for a full half hour, most of which was discussing the recent events at livejournal, which I had purposely set aside the last 15 minutes to discuss. Everyone asked questions - most of the audience members had LJs and were concerned about what was happening. We talked about the art, which most everyone had seen, and we discussed action being taken and the best sites to go to. I gave my opinion that at the moment Journalfen is the best place to be if you're an at-risk community or fanwork-producing journal.

I conducted as a round table. We talked to everyone in the room and I was so totally gratified by the discussion and people's eagerness to discuss slash and yaoi together without devolving into a discussion about semantics, which always seems to happen. Though I kept bringing up WB shows in examples, for which I blame the greater fandom on LJ entirely. I may also have mentioned Amanuensis's Finding Nemo chanfic. Uh.

Most of all though, I was really elated to see the openness and the honesty people brought to the discussion. Lots of guys came and I really enjoyed having that many straight men talking about how they were trying to become more open to yaoi, whether to impress their girlfriends or to better understand the genre. Also I discovered that I totally knew as much about yaoi as anyone else there, which was a huge relief even if I got totally blank stares when I mentioned Tezuka/Ryoma. :)) It was a totally vibrant dialogue, and we got permission to run over for half an hour, and the best part of all was that after it was over, the mom and her daughter and her daughter's best friend all came up and hugged me, one after the other, because they said the discussion had been incredibly powerful.

teenagers hugged me!!!!!!!

I'm still pretty much on a high from this, and will probably be for a while. I LOVE TALKING ABOUT SLASH.

Yay.

Also, in response to the stance taken by 6A on pro-ana "support" communities on LJ, one member of the audience at the yaoi panel last night has formed a similar "support" community for fandom members who like to slash fictional characters. I think this is risky on her part, but I applaud her for it. The comm is prowrnotpedos, and the userinfo is a thing of pure beauty. :D

____________

Jackie, I have not watched your ep of Ouran yet. I have been gone. However, I did watch a couple eps of D. Gray Man. Love me.
Epon, you will hate me for this but I kind of............... neverfinishedMonster. However, I feel my reasons for this are vast and valid. :(( I am sorry to devastate you in your hour of need.
Veronica, for the love of god join that community i'm not supposed to talk about and download the eps directly. i can't believe you are doing this. HAVE YOU SEEN NOBUTA YET?

yawn.

2007-08-11T11:33:21Z

in half an hour i'm supposed to drive up to Fort Wayne with a couple of friends to pop in on my first ever anime convention, Ikasucon. I don't imagine any of you are going because so far the publicity seems to have been virtually non-existent. They don't have programs or anything so I have no idea what to expect apart from, like. Cosplay and viewing rooms. Shamelessly I just hope they'll have tenipuri swag in their vending room. SWAG. OH I'VE WAITED MY WHOLE LIFE FOR YOU. *_____*

Anyway, instead of actually sleeping last night I was so restless that I spent the entire night uploading prince of tennis icons, possibly to make up for not having had any tenipuri icons for like 6 months now.

now i have no sleep and nearly 200 icons. I actually did not upload every tezuka/ryoma icon i have stashed away on my poor computer; not even close. look at them all. my icons alone are a ship manifesto. the more icons i uploaded the more excited i got. GOD I LOVE PRINCE OF TENNIS. I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I. LOVE. SO MUCH. this show makes me continuously giddy in a way i can't even articulate. i know it has to do with the characters. yesterday i let jackie twist my arm for like two hours into watching an ep of Ouran and the whole time i wanted to yell at her that it was seriously not cool that she likes a show where characters race horses alongside convertibles but not a show where they land helicopters on tennis courts. (not that the helicopter has actually landed on the tennis court yet. but come on, it's atobe. where do you think he will park?)

I LOVE PRINCE OF TENNIS.

okay, i'm going to be gone for like two days. Jackie, I haven't watched the ep you sent yet. don't hurt me. i was sleeping. which is good, considering i was awake all night.

oh! and i think i'm doing, uh. a panel on, uh. yaoi? at this con thingy. i'm not actually sure what will happen. i might just stare blankly at the attendees and explain to them that i hate anime so can we please talk about j-pop rps.

have fun everybody. i promise i will update all eros_affair participants on sunday when i'm back.

GO LOOK AT MY ICONS AREN'T THEY LOVE BEST PAIRING EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER.

bnfs will never be shaved again!

2007-08-08T11:12:48Z

LOOK AT ME, I AM bookshop now and forever! BNFs having fun is a thing of the past. :))

i am so amazed at how little time it took to rename. no tokens, no nothing! anyone else wanting a rename, hie thee hence to rename_me. all you have to do is ask.

Thank you, JF mods! :D

bookshop @ 2007-08-03T00:22:00

2007-08-03T04:24:58Z

So, guys. Where will it be?

Where will you all move? journalfen? Greatestjournal? the highly anticipated all-fandom archive, if they make a blog service?

i feel like Topol at the end of Fiddler on the Roof. Kicked out of Anatevka, slowly watching my community scatter sadly to the winds. LOL. D:

bookshop @ 2007-07-14T14:55:00

2007-07-14T18:56:51Z

LJ is dead, I miss anon memes and i DESPERATELY WANT BOOK 7 TO BE ONLINE.

life. 8-x

bookshop @ 2007-05-30T03:33:00

2007-05-30T07:34:18Z

Hey, gang.

I know it seems like I've been saying this everywhere, but we need to focus on rounding up as many moderators of communities as possible, so if you have contact info for anyone whose journal was purged or whose community was lost as a result of today's purges, please have them contact me or femmequixotic on lj. you can email me at bookshop at lj.

okay. bed now, i think.

bookshop @ 2006-11-15T20:03:00

2006-11-16T01:04:27Z

oh my god, best last comment evar. KITTEN SPAMMER, YOU ARE AMAZING. ♥♥♥!!!!!

bookshop @ 2006-08-21T22:44:00

2006-08-22T02:48:18Z

Ignore previous version of this post. I do try very hard not to stir up drama, honestly.

For the record, I screened the only comment that I consider to be truly hurtful, out of all 14,000 comments, the moment I saw it. I also apologize to Maygra and her friends for any hurt they may have received as a result of my meme. I did not know any of the history behind the supernatural meme, and the comment when I read it initially did not strike me as hateful in any way - it struck me as embarrassed. I understand how it was interpreted, though, and I do apologize very sincerely to Maygra.

I also apologize to Esorlehcar for the fact that someone posted one of her filtered posts to the meme.

I meant what I said earlier. This meme will be the last anon meme that I ever do. It is impossible to have an intelligent discussion about the nature of hate. So I am removing myself from the argument. Causing hurt to anyone is the last thing I have ever intended these memes to do, and I have learned the lesson I should have learned six months ago.

ETA, for what it's worth: I was already intending to make the memes private and/or go through and screen out every hurtful thing I could find. I was already planning making some sort of privatization. It was just that this was the last push I needed, along with many private requests from anons on the meme itself, to delete it altogether. Sorry.

bookshop @ 2006-08-16T21:15:00

2006-08-17T01:15:54Z

As many of you know I was the one who came forward and provided independent confirmation of the death threats that heidi8 received yesterday which prevented her from being a Guest of Honor at the Phoenix Rising conference.

Heidi was one of the very first people to rec my fanfiction. She was the one who invited me to join Fiction Alley. The very first review for the very first fic I ever posted there was from her. When Warner Brothers came to Fiction Alley and demanded that they delete my fanfic, Love Under Will due to its slash content, Heidi said no, and stood between them and my fic until they backed down. I have been loyal to Fiction Alley and FAP for all these reasons, and because I want to believe the best of people, including Heidi.

I still do, and I still believe that Heidi is capable of following angiej's example and making a full and complete apology, while taking full accountability for herself and her actions - both her past actions and her recent ones.

In the meantime, I am rescinding my confirmation of the death threats that she received. I cannot confirm or deny the existence of death threats against Heidi pertaining to the accusations of plagiarism that have been made against her. I was mistaken, and I did not have all of the facts. I jumped to conclusions and I made a false assumption that I shouldn't have. I apologize greatly for the confusion this has caused.

I am deeply upset by the conflict this will perpetuate, and I assure anyone reading this that I would not be making this post if I thought there were any other way to protect my personal integrity and ensure that members of the fandom do not ask questions that needed to be asked because they are basing their judgments on my word.

I am very sorry about all of this.

-crossposted to livejournal.

Edit: To be explicit, I did talk to the head of the conference yesterday. Amy Tenbrink confirmed that there were death threats, but that that was all that she confirmed. I have since talked to her again and clarified that the threats were not specifically directed at or to any one person.

bookshop @ 2006-08-13T19:11:00

2006-08-13T23:12:51Z

Wah! Why'd the bad_penny post about my favorite fandom convention *pimp pimp pimp* get deleted??? :/

Fic rec! :D

2006-08-10T03:50:15Z

HEEE. A Hell of a Season by kill_the_spare. :D

procrastination always leads me to wank....

2006-08-06T03:33:25Z

Oh, hell, why not.

bookshop @ 2006-06-20T00:31:00

2006-06-20T04:44:10Z

bookshop: i think i have a crush on charlottelennox
eleveninches: dead
bookshop: i need her in my life.
eleveninches: I WONDER WHO SHE IS...
bookshop: she never friended me back on LJ...
eleveninches:
bookshop: i keep looking back at the people to whom she dedicated previous chapters.
bookshop: feeling irrationally jealous
bookshop: thinking what do i have to do to be one of you
eleveninches: adsgasdgasdgasgdasgasdgasdg
bookshop: charlotte, my love
eleveninches: you should start sending her emails
bookshop: I'm writing her a poem.
bookshop:

They called Joan of Arc
A whore and a harlot,
But for her brave men fought
Til the French fields ran scarlet;

So art thou to me,
My fearless crusader:
You've stunrayed my heart
Like a Martian invader.

To this lovesick wanker,
Adoring midst many,
No star shines as bright
As my favorite bad penny.

I thrill at your name,
Every word from your pen;
I need you like journalfen
Needs Chapter Ten.

Some say Fandom Wank
Is a den of vile varlets;
For them, I've but one word:
And that word is Charlotte.

eleveninches: yessssss
bookshop: there's no way she can say no to me now

bookshop @ 2004-10-05T18:51:00

2004-10-06T00:11:13Z

... wow.

This looks like some prime wank for anyone with the time and inclination to go through the backstory and figure out just what the dust-up is.

It seems, very predictably, to center around this fic. Which, having read, I feel deserves to be wanked mercilessly for its own sake. If only because if not, then I will probably wind up wanking myself because, wow, a story about gay men and homophobia. Actually, scratch that, I already did, haha.

Of course, for all I know, it already has been, because it sounds like something fandom_wank would have a ball with--I have been so woefully out of touch with this place lately.

Uh. How is everybody?

bookshop @ 2004-07-15T01:24:00

2004-07-15T06:25:00Z

*sporfle*

Libertine, a non-wanka?

Perish the thought. :D

bookshop @ 2004-06-24T08:18:00

2004-06-24T14:56:31Z

Huh.

Possibly this post isn't productive in the slightest, because I'm not a mod of anything JF-related, nor an old skool wanka by definition, and I'm known more around here for bringing the wank than the funny.

But I sort of want to sound out how I feel about this, because I'm just reading through the basic fallout of what happened, I'm confused and not 100% sure how I feel about it--and also, hurt feelings everywhere like woah.

Back in the day, I was a member of the Kevin Spacey fandom. Yes, Kevin Spacey has a fandom. This was just over 5 years ago, and the largest mailing list in the fandom had a staggering 300 people. There was no fanfic, the community was based purely on fannish squeeing and OMG the Spacey love. It was all done on mailing lists and there was no livejournal.

I was a BNF in that teeny tiny fandom, not that I knew it at the time--and like every BNF I had a cluster of people who hated me, and one day I came online to discover that the mod of the fandom's one and only mailing list, the KSML, had unsubscribed me from the list without warning or explanation. By their own TOS they claimed that they always explained why they removed anyone, and that if 10 or more people requested a person's removal from the list for any reason, that person could be unsubbed. (I never found out what reason caused my removal from the list, but nevermind.) When word got out that I had been unsubbed the list went up in flames, all the members were outraged on my behalf, and my friends came up to me and said, "You should start a new list."

I said okay, and I did--but I did so with the disclaimer that I didn't want sole control over the group. I didn't think it would be right--so I let the person who had first suggested the idea to me take ownership. Everybody thought of it and promoted it as 'Aja's list'--and within like two days, the new list had drawn half the members away from the KSML and everybody was utterly appalled that the new list had gotten over 150 members in such a short time omg! and that now there were two lists in this fandom, and we all felt like revolutionaries of the Great WankSchizm. Our new list was laidback, cool, hip, generally unmodded, and relaxed. We were virtually wank-free for a little while. Good times.

And then, we had wank. To make a long story short, we had wank coming from Kevin Spacey himself, and the mods of both lists were running around freaking out that our lists were being spied on and 'infiltrated' by Spacey's assistants. It was crazy and chaotic, and really scary because as wanky as this is, our list actually was being infiltrated by Spacey's personal assistant--and in the middle of all the pressure, one morning I woke up to discover that the person I had allowed to be owner had deleted my mailing list.

She had done it out of the blue, just because of her own personal issues over the Spacey wank. It was completely my fault for unthinkingly letting her be owner while I was the head Mod, but I never thought that she would actually use the access to just delete it literally on in impulse, without telling or consulting any of the other mods. I mean, wtf WHO DOES THAT? I was hurt and betrayed and all my other mods were thrown into even more confusion, and I've never really forgiven her for it.

So my lovely little list that I was so proud of was gone forever, along with all its archives and member list--and we had no record of who had been on it, and no way to contact anybody on the list to tell them what had happened. We immediately made a new list, of course, and people found their way back, but now instead of being the cool revolutionaries we had been tainted by the wank, and it felt like we'd lost our street cred. Very rapidly after that the entire fandom became wankier and wankier, and I soon handed over the reins of the new list to somebody else and got the hell out of Dodge. The 9 month period I was in that fandom was the wankiest, most ridiculously dramatic, petty, and stupid online experience I've ever had. Nothing I've seen in HP fandom has ever come close to it, not even Ivy accusing me of threatening to kill her.

Because of that experience I have a kneejerk reaction of *vomit* whenever somebody deletes a community on Livejournal because of his/her personal issues. It's wanky, it's unfair to the community members, and tends to destroy the credibility of the community. What gets me most of all, though, is when one mod supercedes the other mods and goes off on their own--see Gryffindor Tower. There are certain unalienable laws of modding I stick to, and the first one is that you don't make a major decision like that if you're a mod or a maintainer of a community without consulting your other mods.

I am of two minds regarding the deletion/undeleting of fandom_wank. And yeah, I knew about it in advance and cast my vote in favor of deleting it.

Had it been intended as a permanent deletion I would never have voted for it. We all knew it was going to be wanky. The mods knew there was going to be a huge ugly nasty wanksplosion sooner or later--but the F_W mods also wanted it to happen on their terms.

I think people just tend to assume that because the f_w mods aren't very verbal or active that they don't actually mod--and that therefore if they don't actually mod then they don't actually do anything that gives them the right to have a say in the goings-on of the community. Frankly, I think that's bullshit and I also think it's a willful misunderstanding of how much perspective and patience and self-awareness it takes to be a hands-off moderator of a place like fandom_wank--and a JournalFen admin as well. The thing that bothers me most right now about this whole entire thing is how the now former mods of F_W are being demonized by the community and how people are treating them as though they were renegade wankers who suddenly got too big for their britches and overstepped their boundaries. Uh, no. They've *always* been the mods and they've always been good mods--it's just lately they've been having to take more of an active role in shaping the community direction, because in the past 2 months the community has gone to shit. This isn't about them suddenly getting egoboosts, it's about the community changing, and about the way they chose to deal with it. Making it about anything other than that is wanky in the extreme and doesn't do anybody any credit. (And I personally feel the former f_w mods deserve a hell of a lot more of it than they're getting.)

When the mods chose to delete fandom wank they went to those of us who had a vested interest in keeping the community wank-free. By a vast majority we all agreed that locking down the community for a few days would let the wank happen, let everybody cool off, or go elsewhere if they couldn't wait long enough to get their wank kicks, and kill off a lot of the excess tension that had been brewing just under the surface of the community for weeks. The intention was always to undelete it again after a few days. It was the fandom_wank equivalent of "okay, take 5 minutes and cool off." Moreover, all the fandom_wank mods approved the decision and had notified zorrorojo of exactly what they planned to do.

Up and until zorrorojo made her first statements yesterday about the journal deletion, I had assumed zorrorojo was okay with it--I knew she had gotten the heads up from the mods the night before, and I assumed if she had issues she'd take it up with them first. Maybe I was wrong to assume that, and certainly I understand and respect that Zorro has a right to be mad. Whether or not she created JF.net specifically for FW, she had a lot to do with FW's being here on this server, and if she honestly didn't like the plan to delete, it has to feel like a huge slap in the face to her that she wasn't more closely consulted about this plan. And if Zorro wasn't informed that it was going to be undeleted again within a few days, then I have no qualms about saying that was a major major mistake on the part of the mods.

But it was my understanding that Zorro did know that the community was going to be undeleted within a few days. This was intended to be nothing but a wakeup call and not a permanent censoring. I know, Zorro felt like the f_w mods were overstepping their bounds and taking themselves too seriously--but speaking as somebody who has had one of my moderators go in and delete my community right out from under me, without ANY explanation whatsoever, leaving all of its members confused and out in the cold--I think the only person overstepping their boundaries here was Zorro. :|

The mods talked about it extensively, they knew what they were doing, they let the system admins know what they were doing, and planned to bring it back. The deletion was done to make a point--and no matter what you might think of the conduct of the mods, surely you have to acknowledge that if anyone has the right to make a strong point on a community, it's the moderators of that community. Yes, they knew it would be wanky, but those of us who encouraged them to do it hoped to see positive things come out of it.

When Zorro superceded the community mods and undeleted it without asking them or even notifying them in advance, she stripped the action of its point entirely, and left us with nothing but wank. I mean, nothing's been resolved this way, at all--the community is still going to shit, and now it has the dubious addition of being currently overrun with people who are just happy to see the perpetuation of wank, and who are more than happy to blame it on the old mods without wanting to deal with the reasons why the mods felt they had to delete in the first place.

Most of all, I feel like the freedom of speech ethic that Zorro founded journalfen on also encompasses the freedom not to speak, or to make a point through non-action, even if that action is wilfully passive-aggressive. It's extremely frustrating to see the head mod of the server override the free speech of the former mods of fandom_wank. Because that's ultimately what it's about. Journalfen was founded as a place to give everybody a chance to speak. No one was depriving anyone on fandom_wank their opportunity to speak, but by assuming that the rights of the many superceded the rights of the few (the mods), and undeleting, I feel like the mods had their right to free speech taken away. Again, had they not planned to undelete the community within a few days, the speech would have been action, and it would have been within Zorro's right to take other action--but as it was, deleting the journal was a statement, just like it was when anatsuno deleted DL_A. And despite the close relationship fandom_wank has always had to the journalfen servers, if this had been livejournal, and brad had stepped in out of the blue to undelete a community after the moderators had chosen to delete it for whatever reason, it would have looked utterly bizarre, and most people would have thought he'd gone off his top.

That said, I'm not blaming Zorro, even though I think she was wrong to undelete without consulting or even notifying the moderators of fandom_wank. I blame the steady decline in tolerance I've seen around here over the last 2 months, the lack of open discussion, and the willful refusal of the influx of new fandom_wank members to acclimate themselves to the way things have always worked around here, or to understand the purpose of fandom_wank. And as I see it, the best thing to do, as soon as possible, is to regroup and figure out how we can get the community back on track and deal with those issues, not who was right or wrong to delete or undelete.

Those of us who knew about the deletion are feeling terribly alienated right now, and while I really want us all to have a place we can feel comfortable, I really hope that it doesn't involve splitting fandom_wank in two. When I came to the HP fandom from the Kevin Spacey fandom, I lurked for a year and a half because after the wankery there all I wanted to do was just lie low and enjoy myself and not get involved in fandom politics. But then I delurked, and despite still not wanting to get involved, I got involved and how. In the middle of that journalfen gradually started to seem like a safe haven of sanity and self-mockery, where nothing was ever taken too seriously. Journalfen has never been a place of cliques and bitchery, and if there's a way we can get it back to that point again, without splitting into two groups defined by the outcome of this wank, I really hope we can do that.

And, uh, I'm hitting post right now and hoping I don't regret it. Much love to everybody, all around.

bookshop @ 2004-06-23T09:28:00

2004-06-23T14:29:24Z

Uh...

Guys?

bookshop @ 2004-06-22T12:21:00

2004-06-22T17:40:44Z

Oh. MYgod.

First there's this thread on fanfic_hate, where "anonymouse" brings up o0_magz's fic Hard Time.

Cue miles and miles and miles of wank.

And then--color me unsurprised--o0_magz herself reveals the stunning truth:

And the great thing is that 99% of the stuff on this anti-my fic thread was posted by me and my homegirls. I love stirring up insane wank.

Honey, if you want to see insanity, look in the mirror.

(Not posting this to FW because they must be sick to death of f_h wank.)

bookshop @ 2004-06-21T06:58:00

2004-06-21T12:01:13Z

oh my GOD, my BRAIN HURTS.

GO AWAAAAAAY, phoenix. Clearly you have passed beyond the earth and its lower life forms, as your logic is beyond our comprehension.

Travel to that higher, troll-free plane, and stay there.

FOR GOD'S SAKES.

bookshop @ 2004-06-13T00:05:00

2004-06-13T05:06:27Z

HAHAHAHAHA.

Wank on, HP fandom, wank on. :D