Didi

You know what?

2008-05-20T06:16:44Z

I'm going to

a) try and make myself stop being so goddamn upset over a TV show,

b) drink heavily,

c) read On Phthonus's Altar and Last Outpost of All That Is until this passes over.

didi @ 2008-02-07T20:21:00

2008-02-08T01:23:38Z

The strike is over!

ETA: Okay, not quite yet--it still needs to be ratified by the WGA. But this is a really, really good sign. *glees anyways*

Before I faceplant in my keyboard and fall asleep

2008-01-06T09:43:04Z

I'm almost nearly certain I'm not quite dead yet.

Just recovering from a nasty cold and catching up (very, very belatedly) on Christmas fics. I hope everyone is having fabulous days--many and many hearts to you all. ;)

Thoughts on aforementioned Supernatural ep

2007-12-14T03:13:11Z

Oh sweet mercy of Jesus the credits I think I have to die now.

Those kids are going to be billing their moms and/or Kripke for years and years of therapy in the future...

Dean and Sam carolling ftw.

"No, I didn't mean I was watching um er" ftw.

HOLY CRAP I actually thought Ozzie wrenched off part of Sam's FINGERTIP OMFG.

And just like trickster in S2, I have no doubt Ozzie and Harriet will be back. Recurring seasonal villain? :D?

I get the expository fairy has to come from somewhere, show, but please for the love of God can we stop making Dean dumber than a bag of rocks?

Also, yes, Dean is still going to hell, it's very tragic, Sam is woeful and helpless, etc etc etc. And now I declare a complete ban on Deal Angst for the next... three episodes.

But overall? GAH HEARTSTRINGS. ♥ ♥ ♥ *smooshy melty gloop on floor*

(P.S. Sera Gamble is evil and you know Sam was going to say it.)

Things that make Didi glee

2007-12-13T21:02:18Z

- Fireplace!
- Caramel apple cider with cinnamon and whipped cream from Starbucks!
- You Suck: A Love Story by Christopher Moore, which I just finished!
- Snow tonight!
- Supernatural tonight! *runs around shrieking like a mad thing with flailing arms*
- Third season of Lost DVDs!
- Socks.

AUGH

2007-12-03T17:38:07Z

AM BEING EATEN BY WORK APPLICATIONS SEND HELP.

I made the fic

2007-11-30T04:20:46Z

Happy belated, gina! You absolutely rock my socks. ♥

This is the way Jared eats a birthday cupcake.

First, he nearly sits on it. It’s resting on his chair in the middle of a take and he just misses squashing the candle into the icing.

Then he looks around and crows gleefully and squees very manfully, and hugs the five nearest people in reach before they can explain that it wasn’t them.

Next he makes ridiculously soft melty eyes at Jensen across the set, his eyes all puppy-liquid, until Jim has to jam his hat lopsided onto Jensen’s head to get them to stop staring.

Then he sits down and sprawls out those ridiculous legs and blows out the candle, and burns himself a bit on the hot dripping wax and curls his tongue around the bubblegum-blue icing on the end of the candle and gets a bit on his nose.

Afterwards he tosses the candle into the garbage and peels off the bottom wrapper, very slowly, picking it away with his fingernails, and grabs a paper plate from food services to balance the cupcake on the arm of his chair.

Sixthly, he licks the frosting off the top. Long slow smooth slides of his tongue, darting out lazily and lingering, lapping up blue and white swirls as he licks absently at the smears on his lips. He smudges up a finger full of icing and sucks it off his fingertip as he slouches down in his chair, legs all splayed out, half-reading the script changes.

Abruptly he gets hauled up and dragged into his trailer by Jensen, who has spent most of the take hiding behind the nearest waist-tall table and ducking behind the couch.

Next he wrestles Jensen down onto the bed, flopping over loose-limbed with his ass in the air and his knees around Jensen’s shoulders, slumping out upside-down on top of him as he yanks down the fly of his jeans. He gets his hand down Jensen’s boxers and then his mouth onto his cock, hot and hard and sticky with pre-come, and he’s moaning and stiffening up as Jensen swallows him down his throat, tight and straining-tense, and he slips his hand further into those jeans to rub two fingers against Jensen’s hole and Jensen’s fists tighten in Jared’s shirt and hair when he comes.

Then he lounges out beside Jensen, one thigh between his and arm underneath Jensen’s head, and they pass the tequila bottle back and forth and laugh about nothing. Jensen’s scruffy hair tickles at his nose and Jensen’s eyes crinkle up at the corners, faint crow’s feet, and Jared licks all the sugar and liquor and bitter salty-sweetness right out of his mouth.

Lastly, some P.A. clambers up the stairs and bangs on the door, the bell ringing outside as Kim’s megaphone garbles something static.

But just before that, Jensen swings open the door of the mini fridge and shows Jared the plastic-wrapped pack of store-bought cupcakes he’s stashed in the back.

The process is repeated as often as necessary.

didi @ 2007-11-25T08:32:00

2007-11-25T13:32:28Z

*pokes tentatively at JF, sees if it bites*

GIP, for I have a headache

2007-11-04T04:59:13Z

Is anyone worried about the upcoming WGA strike? Thoughts?

rrrgh

2007-10-15T20:36:00Z

I ordered more userpics for seethroughme's account--after the whole system brouhaha--and they still won't show up...

What can I do? system doesn't have an email contact on their page.

Blessed are the cheesemakers

2007-10-09T17:20:19Z

LONDON–Alex James has seen the future of rock 'n' roll and it comes from cows, sheep, goats and buffalo in more than 450 varieties.

James, 39, bassist with British supergroup Blur and who once billed himself as "the second drunkest member of the drunkest band in Britain," is talking cheese, of course – British cheese, to be precise...

didi @ 2007-10-06T20:50:00

2007-10-07T00:52:00Z

New Alvin and the Chipmunks movie: proof that God exists and that She hates us.

Y / y?

didi @ 2006-09-29T00:26:00

2006-09-29T04:28:11Z

Sorry, guys. I'm feeling much like freeze-dried low-grade-quality sludge-infested crap right now, so I'm going to retire to bed and hope things look a little shinier in the morning.

Be superb.

didi @ 2006-09-06T12:17:00

2006-09-06T16:18:49Z

I'm bored. Entertain me.

didi @ 2006-09-01T12:26:00

2006-09-01T16:29:23Z

I leave you all alone for one minute...

Buggrit

2006-08-30T05:03:43Z

Can't sleep, too much coffee. Own computer still broken, at shop. Miss music, miss tags, miss talking to you guys. Am being neurotic and slightly insane and speaking in sentence fragments, for no apparent reason.

Going to write Will's big meeting with Andrew, which I'm probably going to tear to pieces about fifteen times before posting it, and a Freddie / Jens porn-fic (I think these used to be called PWPs, as in "plot? What plot?"), from a recent idea I got. By hand. Roommate says she's going to make the cats into fluffy little pillows if she catches me on her computer again.

Spam this entry in comments while I'm gone. Go on, anything. I dare you to surprise me. ;-)

didi @ 2006-08-28T17:09:00

2006-08-28T21:13:44Z

*poof!*

didi @ 2006-08-22T14:19:00

2006-08-22T18:25:11Z

[crossposted from own LJ]

YouSendIt is a slutty, bitchy shiteheaded tramp of a fecking goddamn whore.

In other news, I may have to wipe all the files off my system completely if I can't reinstall the drivers on Windows.

Also, on my one day off, the one day I got to kick back, relax a little, take it easy--yes, I have been called into work this evening. Happy joy.

I don't think I'll be around tonight, guys, I'm sorry.

didi @ 2006-08-21T00:39:00

2006-08-21T04:43:42Z

Saw Little Miss Sunshine with Paul. Had bottle of wine to drink while cats chased my socks around the floor. Samosas and iced tea for dinner. Someone was smoking pot outside, I can smell it from the balcony.

I can only function right now with the continued aid of schmoopy, fluffy porn. Tomorrow I'll be coherent and (possibly) sane enough to attempt something good and actually meaningful, but tonight, I need porn. Badly.

*scoots off under sofa again*

Edit: Sparky, will you be around tomorrow night? Send me an email, I want to work out that Will/Damon log for good.

Too long, did not read--Will meta, with Will/Damon thrown in

2006-08-16T04:43:41Z

For personal reference; a guide. Many thank yous to Sparkly.

estwillm (1:19:34 AM): This is what I have so far, maybe you can help me
estwillm (1:19:58 AM): So before Narnia, through a couple of his friends, Will met Andrew
estalbarn (1:20:06 AM): yeah
estwillm (1:20:22 AM): Andrew is the kind of guy who lives by the phrase 'rock out with your cock out', so to speak
estalbarn (1:20:26 AM): ahahaha
estwillm (1:20:42 AM): But really, he's wild, adventurous, dangerous, and terribly exciting
estwillm (1:20:46 AM): And Will falls very hard
estalbarn (1:20:50 AM): the opposite of damon then ;)
estwillm (1:20:54 AM): Well ;)
estwillm (1:21:10 AM): This will actually come into play later
estalbarn (1:21:14 AM): ooh really
estwillm (1:21:16 AM): But Will and Andrew go out, and do all sorts of things
estwillm (1:21:36 AM): And Will's very close to being open with his sexuality--he comes out to his family first, then a couple of his friends
estwillm (1:21:42 AM): And first he has the falling out with Nick
estwillm (1:21:51 AM): And then his agent calls up--she's got wind of this somehow
estalbarn (1:21:51 AM): :\
estwillm (1:22:01 AM): And she says she won't be able to sign him for Narnia if he keeps it up with Andrew
estalbarn (1:22:08 AM): !
estwillm (1:22:11 AM): I know
estalbarn (1:22:22 AM): where does this decision come from?
estwillm (1:22:22 AM): I'm trying to flesh her out, too--she's annoying, but she's kindhearted
estwillm (1:22:34 AM): On her part? She says it'd be bad for his image
estwillm (1:22:49 AM): And she sympathizes, but she says Hollywood isn't ready, blah blah blah
estwillm (1:22:55 AM): Is that too unrealistic?
estalbarn (1:23:18 AM): i don't know. it kinda smacks of Teh Ev0l PR to me, but i mean, if he's being considered for a DISNEY film it's not that farfetched
estwillm (1:23:29 AM): That's the thing--I don't want her to be evil
estwillm (1:23:57 AM): I want her to be, "Look, I'm not a homophobe--I support you and sympathize with you, but if you want to be signed for this film you can't be publicly gay at the moment"
estalbarn (1:24:03 AM): yeah
estwillm (1:24:14 AM): Like, specifically for the Narnia role
estwillm (1:24:28 AM): Maybe if another role comes up in his future, if he feels safer in his career, he can safely think about it
estalbarn (1:24:44 AM): yeah i was about to ask, how keen on coming out was he outside of the narnia thing?
estwillm (1:25:05 AM): I want to say he was getting comfortable, but I don't think he was
estwillm (1:25:12 AM): Because he does end up having an affair with Anna
estwillm (1:25:23 AM): I wonder if Andrew is part of a sort of experimentation phase?
estalbarn (1:25:36 AM): experimentation with what?
estwillm (1:25:50 AM): A more dangerous life, maybe, or exploring his sexuality
estalbarn (1:25:58 AM): ah i see
estwillm (1:26:09 AM): Because I think there is genuine attraction on Will's part towards Anna
estwillm (1:26:18 AM): But they don't work out because they're too volatile together
estalbarn (1:26:29 AM): so what is damon then?
estwillm (1:26:48 AM): I really do think Damon is where Will feels comfortable enough to really explore
estwillm (1:27:01 AM): With Andrew it almost feels like a dare, like doing something forbidden
estwillm (1:27:11 AM): But in a way, Damon is as fearful and new and unexperienced as he is
estalbarn (1:27:15 AM): yeah
estwillm (1:27:23 AM): And he genuinely likes Damon, outside of lust and love and everything
estwillm (1:27:32 AM): So he feels comfortable with Damon, in a way he doesn't with Andrew
estwillm (1:27:35 AM): Does that make sense?
estalbarn (1:27:49 AM): because he knows damon won't push him to do anything he doesn't want to?
estwillm (1:28:13 AM): Exactly, and I think Damon won't make fun of him or put him down for being new at this whole thing
estwillm (1:28:23 AM): They're both on the same level, so to speak
estalbarn (1:28:39 AM): yeah they are, i think that's part of what attracted them to each other
estwillm (1:28:54 AM): Like--one doesn't lead and one doesn't follow, they both go together
estalbarn (1:29:06 AM): yeah
estalbarn (1:29:20 AM): the question is where it's going
estwillm (1:29:25 AM): Exactly *g*
estwillm (1:29:37 AM): Will's meeting Andrew right now because he wants to settle accounts, he doesn't want to leave anything open
estwillm (1:29:44 AM): He wants to go forward with Damon without looking behind
estwillm (1:29:56 AM): Like in that recent vignette, where he thinks about James and Andrew
estwillm (1:30:08 AM): He's making the conscious choice to be with Damon, as unromantic as that sounds
estalbarn (1:30:52 AM): because damon is safe?
estwillm (1:31:07 AM): Damon's safe not in that he's boring
estalbarn (1:31:17 AM): no i know what you mean
estwillm (1:31:24 AM): *g* I hoped you might
estwillm (1:31:34 AM): Will definitely doesn't think of him that way
estwillm (1:31:52 AM): No, he wants to be with Damon so he wants to leave it behind without regret
estalbarn (1:32:01 AM): indeed
estwillm (1:32:35 AM): So, that's what he's going to see Andrew for
estwillm (1:32:44 AM): And Andrew is very very attractive, and there's still a little bit of... you know
estwillm (1:32:46 AM): ;)
estalbarn (1:32:59 AM): ooh
estalbarn (1:33:01 AM): temptation?
estwillm (1:33:16 AM): Physically, of course
estwillm (1:33:19 AM): Andrew's hot
estalbarn (1:33:35 AM): heh
estalbarn (1:33:45 AM): M!Damon just squirmed uncomfortably
estwillm (1:33:45 AM): Which is what fuelled their relationship, so yeah, Will will want to jump his bones
estwillm (1:33:59 AM): But one of Will's main character traits really is loyalty, and he loves Damon
estalbarn (1:34:04 AM): awwwww
estwillm (1:34:06 AM):
estwillm (1:34:08 AM): So he's faithful
estwillm (1:34:28 AM): And plus, Andrew and Will end up sparring at each other a lot during the convo, it's not pleasant
estalbarn (1:34:35 AM): eesh
estwillm (1:34:46 AM): I know--it's really volatile, like with Anna
estwillm (1:35:00 AM): I think Will is getting used to the idea of there not being drama with his relationships
estalbarn (1:35:08 AM): and he's with DAMON?
estalbarn (1:35:09 AM): :D
estwillm (1:35:14 AM): *dies* Well...
estwillm (1:35:38 AM): No, I mean, more like clashing personalities
estwillm (1:35:44 AM): He fits much better with Damon than with Andrew or Anna
estalbarn (1:35:53 AM): how so?
estalbarn (1:36:18 AM): because once the new love shine rubs off, damon's going to be a little less... i don't know. unconditionally accepting.
estwillm (1:36:33 AM): No, that's good
estwillm (1:36:45 AM): I think Will is... more vulnerable around Damon, he lets down his guard more
estwillm (1:37:06 AM): There's a compulsion with Andrew and Anna to be more than he is, to be perfect, and he feels that pressure
estalbarn (1:37:10 AM): ah
estwillm (1:37:10 AM): But with Damon he can be honest
estwillm (1:37:56 AM): And Damon challenges him, yeah, but it's not like he's putting up with it--I think with Anna he got very stubborn and sort of clammed up while digging in his heels; with Damon he cares enough, almost, to open up and lash out
estalbarn (1:38:06 AM): heh
estwillm (1:38:14 AM): *g* Which makes no sense, but it does in a weird way
estalbarn (1:38:41 AM): so the question is, if they feel safe with each other, are they going to get bored?
estwillm (1:38:56 AM): That's a good question
estwillm (1:39:02 AM): Will definitely wants to experiment, a lot
estwillm (1:39:19 AM): I think that's how the ill-fated 'sir' moment came about, because he is fascinated by the idea of dominance and submission
estalbarn (1:39:35 AM): whereas damon is not so much
estwillm (1:40:04 AM): No, I gathered ;)
estwillm (1:40:12 AM): How much is Damon going to want to experiment, with the whole kinky sex thing?
estalbarn (1:40:41 AM): i really can't say. he's not that interested in kink, and if will never brought up the idea of actual D/s play, it probably wouldn't occur to damon to give it a try
estwillm (1:40:56 AM): Well, Will might...
estwillm (1:41:06 AM): Will wants to research, he's nagging about it in the back of my head
estalbarn (1:41:10 AM): heh
estwillm (1:41:17 AM): *g*
estwillm (1:41:19 AM): Damon's not comfortable with it, though
estalbarn (1:41:24 AM): i'm sure they have classes at the est or something
estwillm (1:41:29 AM): I think that's been mentioned, yeah
estalbarn (1:41:35 AM): it's not that he's not comfortable with it exactly so much as that it's not really his thing
estalbarn (1:41:45 AM): i don't see damon ever getting much use out of the rooms at the club
estwillm (1:41:55 AM): *nodnod* What's he interested in?
estalbarn (1:42:01 AM): just... being with someone
estwillm (1:42:05 AM): Hmm
estalbarn (1:42:12 AM): he's a romantic
estwillm (1:42:13 AM): So that's how things should develop?
estwillm (1:42:18 AM): *loves on him for that*
estalbarn (1:42:24 AM): and he's really a relationship type person
estwillm (1:42:29 AM): Not so much kinky experimentation--there should be that--but also developing their relationship
estalbarn (1:42:45 AM): yeah
estalbarn (1:43:01 AM): and when it comes to anything BDSM, damon will do some things, but mostly because will wants them
estwillm (1:43:24 AM): Well, Will won't force it if Damon doesn't want to--I mean, he'll bring up ideas and such, but if Damon's seriously not into it...
estwillm (1:43:29 AM): I wonder if that'll put a strain on things?
estalbarn (1:43:39 AM): it might
estwillm (1:43:47 AM): It's something to consider
estwillm (1:44:02 AM): Because Will might eventually want to try something out and Damon would just be "I'm not into that"
estalbarn (1:44:19 AM): possibly. i don't know how likely damon is to do something he's not comfortable with for the sake of pleasing will
estwillm (1:44:41 AM): Exactly--I mean, he's stubborn himself
estalbarn (1:44:45 AM): yeah
estalbarn (1:44:54 AM): but will's very persuasive :D
estwillm (1:45:24 AM): :D
estwillm (1:45:44 AM): Well, they can experiment, sure, and if there's an issue they can quarrel, maybe, and make up
estalbarn (1:45:49 AM): yeah
estalbarn (1:46:15 AM): i think with damon, he's still getting used to the idea of being gay, so he's much less focused on the sexual experimentation
estalbarn (1:46:30 AM): whereas will has had time to come to terms with it a bit more i think
estwillm (1:46:41 AM): Good point
estwillm (1:46:46 AM): So Will sort of leads the way a bit in this?
estalbarn (1:46:51 AM): he'll have to
estwillm (1:46:57 AM): I mean, Will is relatively new, too
estwillm (1:47:01 AM): But he's got a bit of an edge on Damon
estalbarn (1:47:06 AM): he does
estwillm (1:47:10 AM): That's another part of their dynamic, being gay
estwillm (1:47:17 AM): Because Will does hate being closeted publically
estalbarn (1:47:22 AM): yeah
estwillm (1:47:28 AM): And Damon--well
estalbarn (1:47:29 AM): whereas damon doesn't think it's anyone's damn concern
estwillm (1:47:36 AM): You tell it, Damon ;)
estwillm (1:47:48 AM): But he does get pissed off about it, I think?
estalbarn (1:48:08 AM): who does what now?
estwillm (1:48:21 AM): Damon, being pissed off about people have issues about other people being gay
estwillm (1:48:27 AM): *having, I can't type
estalbarn (1:49:51 AM): i don't know that he's pissed off about it
estalbarn (1:50:07 AM): i think he thinks homophobia is stupid and ignorant, and he thinks it's ridiculous how het up people get about it
estwillm (1:50:15 AM): Right
estalbarn (1:50:29 AM): i think it makes a big difference that damon's pretty much been chewed up and spit out by the publicity machine
estalbarn (1:50:48 AM): so he's less worried about the gay part than about the "people nosing into my private life" part
estwillm (1:51:13 AM): Does he get paranoid about it?
estwillm (1:51:17 AM): How does he deal?
estalbarn (1:51:23 AM): a little. he REALLY doesn't like people taking pictures of his daughter
estalbarn (1:51:33 AM): and missy would be a major concern of his
estalbarn (1:52:05 AM): he knows what it's like to be tabloid bait, so he's wary of any sort of public knowledge of his private life
estwillm (1:52:20 AM): Right, it's the same with Will
estalbarn (1:52:30 AM): no, i really don't think will knows the way damon does
estwillm (1:52:30 AM): So they're both working around the wariness
estwillm (1:52:48 AM): Sorry *g* Will gets it maybe on a very superficial level
estalbarn (1:52:52 AM): :D
estwillm (1:53:00 AM): ;) Worrying about Narnia and Andrew and such
estalbarn (1:53:01 AM): which could be a point of contention between them
estwillm (1:53:06 AM): Ahhh, good thought
estalbarn (1:53:21 AM): because damon won't hesitate to be like "no, you reallly don't know what it's like, not like i do"
estwillm (1:53:31 AM): Because it does loop back to the fact that Damon is older and has more experience on him, and Will makes him feel that sometimes
estalbarn (1:53:36 AM): yeah
estwillm (1:53:45 AM): Damon would need to bitchslap Will about that
estwillm (1:53:49 AM): In a metaphorical sense
estalbarn (1:53:54 AM): yeah
estwillm (1:54:22 AM): I can see where issues are coming up now, and this is good
estalbarn (1:54:42 AM): yeah. i just want to have a sort of rough game plan for them rather than just random scenes that may or may not contribute to the overall pictures
estwillm (1:55:03 AM): 'Zactly--I mean, random porn is great, but you want to go somewhere
estalbarn (1:55:21 AM): and then we have will going to NZ for prince caspian
estwillm (1:55:26 AM): Ah, yes ;)
estwillm (1:55:39 AM): I picture him leaving after Christmas, for shooting to begin in January
estalbarn (1:55:48 AM): good idea
estwillm (1:55:53 AM): Bear in mind that the script should be about 150 pages long
estwillm (1:56:04 AM): And they usually shoot between 3 and 4 pages a day on most movie sets
estwillm (1:56:17 AM): That works out roughly, to two months-ish
estwillm (1:56:52 AM): Allow for delays and reshoots, and cut out the parts where Will doesn't show up
estwillm (1:57:05 AM): There's actually a substantial part, where it just focuses on Caspian
estwillm (1:57:10 AM): And two months sounds about right
estalbarn (1:57:20 AM): that's not too bad then
estwillm (1:57:30 AM): And Will can come home for flying visits and stuff, so it's not bad at all
estalbarn (1:57:45 AM): oh, and we also have missy and suzi to think about as well
estwillm (1:57:54 AM): Good point--Will needs to meet Missy, obviously
estwillm (1:57:58 AM): And maybe fit into her life, in a way
estwillm (1:58:16 AM): Because the first meeting is nice and all, but Missy will eventually cotton onto the fact that Will's not just a friend
estalbarn (1:58:16 AM): i think at the very least, if will seems to get along with her and she likes him, that's going ot make a big difference to damon
estalbarn (1:58:24 AM): you think so?
estwillm (1:58:28 AM): Because nothing is more important than his daughter <33
estalbarn (1:58:32 AM): i don't know how aware of things like that kids tend to be
estwillm (1:58:37 AM): How old is she--seven, right?
estalbarn (1:58:43 AM): almost seven
estwillm (1:59:44 AM): I wonder how cool she
estwillm (1:59:46 AM): 'd be with the idea
estwillm (2:00:00 AM): Because I wonder if eventually Damon would tell her
estalbarn (2:00:04 AM): no
estwillm (2:00:11 AM): He wouldn't?
estalbarn (2:00:16 AM): he doesn't see any need to be like "this is my boyfriend adn not my friend"
estwillm (2:00:24 AM): Right, okay
estwillm (2:00:36 AM): But it does put a crimp in things, they can't be really affectionate when Missy's around
estalbarn (2:00:52 AM): not necessarily. i mean, they're not going to snog or anything, but they can still hug and stuff
estwillm (2:01:03 AM): That's true, and wrestle and all that
estwillm (2:01:12 AM): It's not such a big deal, is it?
estalbarn (2:01:20 AM): no it's really not, in terms of just missy
estalbarn (2:01:31 AM): what concerns damon is that missy is going to tell suzi stuff, just in conversation
estwillm (2:01:51 AM): And Suzi is not going to take it well
estalbarn (2:02:04 AM): eh, she's not going to be difficult about it
estalbarn (2:02:20 AM): she doesn't approve, and he knows that. but she's not going to try to break them up or use missy against damon or anything
estwillm (2:02:28 AM): Oh, thank God *wipes brow*
estwillm (2:02:46 AM): Because that would be drama
estalbarn (2:02:47 AM): i think she's genuinely concerned about whether this is a good idea for both of them
estalbarn (2:02:56 AM): well i'm not into big drama, so no worries there
estwillm (2:03:09 AM): *snogs* No, I know, not drama as histronics and melodramatic
estwillm (2:03:14 AM): I mean--Damon being really torn
estwillm (2:03:25 AM): She'd express her concern to Damon, wouldn't she?
estalbarn (2:03:31 AM): oh she would.
estalbarn (2:03:41 AM): but she's not the type of person to harp on it continuously
estalbarn (2:04:00 AM): but the fact that damon has a small child is going to put a crimp in his relationship with will a little
estwillm (2:04:08 AM): *g* No kidding?
estalbarn (2:04:12 AM): :P
estwillm (2:04:14 AM): :p
estwillm (2:04:20 AM): But I do see what you mean
estalbarn (2:04:33 AM): and i think damon's a little worried that will isn't entirely going to understand
estwillm (2:04:39 AM): About Missy, or...
estalbarn (2:05:02 AM): about the fact that she comes first all the time, and that that means less time with will. or that they'll have to change their plans.
estalbarn (2:05:17 AM): it's kind of that "you don't have kids, you don't get it" thing
estwillm (2:05:25 AM): I'm poking at Will to see if there'd be any friction
estalbarn (2:05:37 AM): i'd be surprised if there wasn't
estwillm (2:05:46 AM): So far, I'm not getting any--I can see him getting his hackles up, if it's a continual thing
estwillm (2:05:55 AM): But so far, as terrible as this sounds, I think he does understand
estalbarn (2:06:24 AM): well, it will be continual, really. missy's around all the time until school starts and oh snap! i should find out when school starts in the UK
estwillm (2:06:30 AM): September, ne?
estalbarn (2:06:40 AM): i don't know. it starts late august here
estwillm (2:06:43 AM): Ooo
estwillm (2:06:47 AM): *does go to check*
estalbarn (2:08:29 AM): i think damon's going to take missy to devon for the weekend before her school starts
estwillm (2:08:36 AM): Awww <3
estwillm (2:09:05 AM): M!Will: See, I don't mind. I just--I don't want to feel unimportant to him. I'm okay with the fact that Missy comes first.
estwillm (2:09:22 AM): There may be some slight friction, but I do think Will will get over it--it's not high on the list of their issues
estalbarn (2:09:51 AM): august 31
estalbarn (2:12:07 AM): so then she'll be gone during the day
estwillm (2:12:13 AM): Very good point ;)
estwillm (2:12:19 AM): And Will's not occupied majorly until December, when he goes
estwillm (2:12:27 AM): I don't foresee any major press junkets or anything
estalbarn (2:12:55 AM): so they've got the fall to fool around and fall further in luuuuuurve
estwillm (2:12:59 AM): :D
estwillm (2:13:06 AM): And then Christmas
estwillm (2:13:13 AM): And then Will is definitely going to be emoface
estalbarn (2:13:15 AM): blargh, can we not do christmas stuff?
estwillm (2:13:22 AM): You mean, not celebrate it at all?
estwillm (2:13:33 AM): Will'd like to send a gift, at least
estalbarn (2:13:35 AM): i have a really ridiculous hate-on for christmas
estwillm (2:13:41 AM): Srsly? Okay
estwillm (2:13:48 AM): No presents or anything
estalbarn (2:13:56 AM): *is wet blanket*
estwillm (2:14:01 AM): Blah, of course not
estwillm (2:14:06 AM): Why don't you, though? *is curious*
estalbarn (2:14:32 AM): i've just never liked it
estwillm (2:14:40 AM): Fair enough *g*
estwillm (2:14:47 AM): Damon will have to bring it up in advance, though
estalbarn (2:14:53 AM): bring what up?
estwillm (2:15:02 AM): Not to celebrate, that he's not comfortable
estalbarn (2:15:11 AM): um. damon celebrates it.
estwillm (2:15:14 AM): --ohhhh
estalbarn (2:15:15 AM): i just dont' want to write it.
estwillm (2:15:20 AM): Ah, okay, I hear you
estwillm (2:15:31 AM): We can do a throwaway reference, then
estwillm (2:15:36 AM): Or something
estalbarn (2:15:40 AM): ok
estwillm (2:16:00 AM): Anyways, Will leaves, all emoface
estalbarn (2:16:17 AM): indeed, there is emo
estwillm (2:17:07 AM): Will Missy be emo? *curious* How far should Will and Missy's relationship have developed? I can see Damon wanting to compartmentalize the two
estalbarn (2:17:35 AM): i think she'll notice will's gone, but i think damon is going to want to prevent any attachment between them for a while
estwillm (2:17:39 AM): Right
estwillm (2:17:49 AM): Mostly Damon-emo
estalbarn (2:17:53 AM): he's really wary of letting anyone get too close to missy
estwillm (2:17:59 AM): *nodnod*
estalbarn (2:18:04 AM): because to be honest, he's not sure how things will turn out with will
estwillm (2:18:09 AM): No, it's only fair
estwillm (2:18:32 AM): I think that's one of the major advice experts give about single parents dating--don't introduce your kids until you're certain it's going to last
estalbarn (2:18:38 AM): yeah exactly
estwillm (2:18:40 AM): Because you don't want the kid accustomed to a string of people coming in and out
estalbarn (2:18:52 AM): indeed, and that's going to put a strain on their relationship
estwillm (2:19:17 AM): Another strain ;) But yeah, I see what you mean
estalbarn (2:19:33 AM): well, it's life.
estwillm (2:19:45 AM): Exactly--life is screwy like that *g*
estwillm (2:20:14 AM): To be honest, it really isn't a high priority with Will--he wants Missy to like him, in as much as he wants Damon to approve of him sticking around, but he doesn't want to play surrogate dad or anything remotely like that
estalbarn (2:20:24 AM): that's good
estwillm (2:20:37 AM): I mean, the issue with their age and experience and experimenting and all that is much larger
estalbarn (2:20:53 AM): i don't know about that. damon worries pretty equally about all of them.
estwillm (2:21:18 AM): Well, in Will's eyes--Damon is quite right to worry equally
estwillm (2:23:34 AM): But I do think they love each other, given the opportunity, and it can work out
estalbarn (2:23:41 AM): indeed
estwillm (2:24:27 AM): Two months apart will be a strain, but it can be time to evaluate their relationship and stuff
estwillm (2:24:32 AM): And hey, hot reunion sex ;)
estwillm (2:25:55 AM): I say we've got a good working plan here, on what to touch base?
estwillm (2:26:03 AM): What else do you think we need to cover, at this point?
estalbarn (2:26:36 AM): well, i'd like to get some solid ideas for what to write so we're not just wandering. i mean, we have a basic idea of things, but how will we illustrate them?
estwillm (2:27:41 AM): hmm
estwillm (2:27:55 AM): I think we can keep this up almost as a checklist, and focus scenes along that
estwillm (2:27:59 AM): I'm not sure exactly how right now
estalbarn (2:30:50 AM): i just want to make sure things aren't moving too fast.
estwillm (2:36:11 AM): No, I agree
estwillm (2:36:30 AM): The next time they meet up--Damon's given him the phone call so ostensibly they're going to meet
estwillm (2:36:33 AM): Should Missy walk in or not?
estalbarn (2:36:47 AM): no. i think we should keep missy out of it for now.
estwillm (2:36:53 AM): Right
estwillm (2:37:07 AM): What's the aim of the next scene then?
estalbarn (2:37:38 AM): well, they did talk about getting together this weekend, and shit, it's sunday. um. yeah.
estwillm (2:38:25 AM): Backdating, my friend ;)
estalbarn (2:38:32 AM): indeed
estwillm (2:39:04 AM): So they get together
estwillm (2:39:10 AM): And porn, hopefully
estalbarn (2:39:16 AM): and...
estwillm (2:39:29 AM): And... hm
estwillm (2:39:30 AM): And what?
estalbarn (2:39:58 AM): well like i said, i want to illustrate things in these scenes. what's attracting damon to will and vice versa.
estwillm (2:40:07 AM): Right
estwillm (2:40:18 AM): What is attracting them together here?
estwillm (2:40:22 AM): Will
estwillm (2:40:25 AM): *bleh
estwillm (2:40:33 AM): Will's obviously in lust
estalbarn (2:40:35 AM): well, for one thing, damon likes that will doesn't seem to be pushing to go out
estalbarn (2:40:37 AM): haha, as is damon
estwillm (2:40:40 AM): :D
estalbarn (2:40:46 AM): they're totally going to shag as soon as will walks in
estwillm (2:40:54 AM): Oh, really, they won't make it past the front door
estwillm (2:41:07 AM): But Will is just glad to be with Damon, to banter with him, to share his company
estalbarn (2:41:13 AM): indeed
estwillm (2:41:18 AM): He feels... brighter around Damon, as sappy as that sounds
estalbarn (2:41:21 AM): so once they have sex they can talk and cuddle and be cute.
estalbarn (2:41:35 AM): and eventually get dressed to do non-sex things
estalbarn (2:41:44 AM): or attempt to, and just end up screwing some more
estwillm (2:41:52 AM): Ha, I love that
estwillm (2:42:06 AM): And I like that notion, of just being cute together
estwillm (2:42:30 AM): Because as much as I know they have the capacity to go wrong, with all these issues, I do love knowing they can go right
estalbarn (2:42:41 AM): yeah
estwillm (2:44:24 AM): *g* So, porning and cute
estalbarn (2:44:43 AM): and some reflection on why exactly they're together
estwillm (2:44:49 AM): Right, exactly
estwillm (2:45:07 AM): And around that point is a good time to have Will talk to Andrew
estalbarn (2:45:19 AM): which he will not be mentioning to damon, yes?
estwillm (2:45:31 AM): Nope, can't see him bringing it up
estwillm (2:45:40 AM): Just as Damon is not talking about being a cheating bastard ;)
estalbarn (2:45:44 AM): heh
estwillm (2:45:47 AM): Another point in their relationship, I think
estalbarn (2:46:02 AM): yeah. at some point they really do need to talk about that, because it's a big hangup of damons, the "i'm a fuckup" thing
estalbarn (2:46:11 AM): cos will really doesn't understand just how badly damon's fucked up
estwillm (2:46:41 AM): I think Will wants to understand, because he loves Damon and all that, but essentially he doesn't
estwillm (2:46:45 AM): Will that get in the way?
estalbarn (2:47:01 AM): possibly. again, damon's kinda been around the block in terms of fucking up relationships.
estalbarn (2:47:17 AM): so he really doesn't think will has the capacity to understand
estwillm (2:47:56 AM): Maybe Will does and doesn't
estwillm (2:48:03 AM): It'll definitely be something to talk about more
estalbarn (2:48:11 AM): once they actually stop having sex
estalbarn (2:48:28 AM): it's troublesome, because damon doesn't think about it all that much when will's around
estwillm (2:49:08 AM): Why not? *g*
estalbarn (2:49:26 AM): because will is distracting
estwillm (2:49:39 AM): *hee!*
estwillm (2:49:47 AM): But Will does want to convince him he's not a screw-up
estwillm (2:49:55 AM): At least, not when it comes to Will
estalbarn (2:50:01 AM): heh, good luck with that
estwillm (2:50:18 AM): :D He thinks that it'll become self-fulfilling, that Damon will screw up because he thinks he will
estwillm (2:50:21 AM): And he wants this so much to succeed
estalbarn (2:50:26 AM): yeah
estwillm (2:50:38 AM): And he just wants Damon to be happy, underneath that
estwillm (2:50:47 AM): So Will will dig in his heels on this one
estwillm (2:51:00 AM): Witness the scene on the balcony they had a long while ago, that was sort of the fore-runner
estalbarn (2:51:07 AM): yeah
estwillm (2:51:13 AM): And 'thai and tribulations'--that's a big issue
estalbarn (2:51:29 AM): yeah. also? will should not bring up graham, really.
estalbarn (2:51:31 AM): /random
estwillm (2:51:44 AM): Oh, he won't
estwillm (2:52:04 AM): I don't think he really knows the extent of how badly things are between Damon and Graham, so I think he's a little curious, but he's not going to push it
estalbarn (2:52:14 AM): things aren't bad, they just don't talk
estwillm (2:52:22 AM): Well, all the tension between them
estalbarn (2:52:38 AM): there isn't really tension either, they just don't talk. it's more of a "graham's moved on with his life" thing than anything else.
estalbarn (2:52:47 AM): doesn't change the fact that it hurts damon
estwillm (2:53:39 AM): Right, I understand you
estwillm (2:57:15 AM): Will's not going to even know about Graham, I think
estalbarn (2:57:15 AM): yes.
estwillm (2:57:31 AM): I think he gets the sense that something bad has happened in Damon's past, but he has no details
estalbarn (2:57:45 AM): well damon told him he fell out with graham
estwillm (2:57:55 AM): When? *goes back and searches*
estwillm (2:58:02 AM): I have such a bad memory, I'm a Dory...
estalbarn (2:58:03 AM): thai and tribulations
estwillm (2:58:07 AM): Ah, okay
estwillm (2:58:15 AM): Will won't press it
estwillm (2:58:28 AM): Unless Graham comes up in canon, it's a non-issue
estalbarn (2:58:44 AM): he won't
estwillm (2:58:53 AM): Then they won't talk about it
estwillm (2:59:07 AM): I think we've got a good headstart on what we need to cover
estalbarn (2:59:51 AM): yeah
estwillm (3:00:00 AM): Clearly, we rock ^__^
estwillm (3:00:03 AM): At least, you rock
estwillm (3:00:09 AM): I just sort of stand over here near the rockingness

So not my fault

2006-08-10T23:23:50Z

I have a new pup.

Say hi to everyone, fljungberg.

M!Freddie: Hi, everyone. *g*

didi @ 2006-08-10T00:42:00

2006-08-10T04:48:12Z

Please believe me when I say that I love you all, and I mean it--everyone--and I'm loving my time here.
But right now, I have absolutely no desire to talk to anyone.

Be excellent to yourselves.

didi @ 2006-08-08T01:58:00

2006-08-08T06:19:44Z

My uterus is going through its monthly transformation into something out of the Black Lagoon, and work tore a couple of shreds off me today, and I feel worn out and dazed and in need of a good cry. So I'm thinking about Will's log with Andrew to take my mind off it.

There's this dichotomy between Andrew and Will. Andrew is very openly gay, and proud of it, and uses it to an advantage--diversity quotas for movies, perhaps, but also good causes and charities. Will, for obvious reasons, is still in the closet as far as his public career goes, and doesn't have any plans to come out. I'm still trying to get a hold on Andrew's attitude, whether or not he despises Will for staying in the closet and not publicly acknowledging it, or gets frustrated or irritated what. Maybe a mixture of all of them.

Also, he's very hurt. He thinks that Will left him because, essentially, he cares about his public image and getting ahead as Hollywood--he sees Will as selling out. Will has probably felt terrible and guilty because he's felt along the same lines, because his loyalty to his friends and loved ones is one of his major character traits--as well as his ambition, his desire to succeed--and no doubt he'll feel even worse. This is a huge character crux for Will, this whole event is really important. I don't know if or how that split in him--that loyalty to his friends, that honesty and truth to himself, versus his determined ambition--will be resolved.

He's a very attractive guy, and Will may feel some residual stirrings, but it's important that the essential--what they had--has passed on. It was a friendship, with a really hot physical fling along the way, but it's dissolved. Will is coming here, back to Andrew, to settle affairs and move on.

And he wants them settled well. I think that's so important for Will--he does want everyone to like him, and he doesn't want old feuds and hatreds to linger on. He likes things emotionally settled (witness his steadiness in the face of Damon's anger or indecision). I don't know how he'll settle this: maybe with an apology. Maybe with a final catharsis of emotion, a fight. A combination of the two.

I'm thinking along structural lines of sitting in an outdoors cafe--at first, there's polite but strained pleasantries, chilly tension. Then Will's attempted apology and airing of past memories. There's a fight that quickly grows heated. Catharsis, and... well, if not reconciliation, a settlement. I do want Will to have things finished with Andrew at the end.

Randomly, I'm wondering if est_news will pick up that Will Moseley was spotted with an unknown blond in an outdoors cafe now--which would be terrible but brilliant. Maybe if I bribe the muns with chocolate brownies.

I'm sorry if that was incoherent, I'm not very together tonight. Better tomorrow, possibly, after some sleep.

GIP

2006-08-06T05:43:24Z

I am maybe 92.8 percent certain I had nothing to do with this. Whatsoever.

didi @ 2006-08-05T01:43:00

2006-08-05T05:54:42Z

Oh, wow.

Hi, Citadel!William Moseley.

Est!Will: Doppelganger! ...Am I doomed now?

I will not compare my pup to the other pup. I will not feel inferior to the other mun and I will not mope gloomily about how terrible my writing surely is by comparison. I am a good writer and I need to keep believing that.

...Didi, KNOCK IT OFF.

EDIT: Oh ho.

It's from a talk on AIM with James-mun. Will is still thinking about his ~~log~~ meeting with James a few days earlier, and the bar chat, and wondering what exactly he feels about James. Because James is his friend and he loves him, but it's not like he loves Damon, and it's very complicated and he doesn't quite know what he's gotten into, and deep down he's wondering if he left James just like he left Andrew--which ties into the arc I want to get into, the finding resolution with his past lover, the figuring out what he wants.

Which will all be the subject of a vignette, I am thinking. More to come on this later.