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The Sweet Haze of Sleep [25 Apr 2004|03:32pm]
[ mood | serene ]
[ music | Don't Go Breaking My Heart ]

The bridge between the waking and dreaming world, the ancients believed that it was here the gods would speak of the future, reveal glimpses of things to be. While I have lain here, in my own meditative state which is centred on the bride I've seen no great truths of recieved a prophocey. At this point I hardly expect to.

My mother always said that I was born in dreams, the first and last time she walked the bridge was during my birth. Perhaps. She has told me many things during the centuries and few have I ever believed implicitly.

These days of been a haze of dreaming, cobwebs in the fore of my mind. It has been as it ever was, peace without interference or alteration. In a way, I have gotten all that I have been wishing for. 'Tis a wonder that I do not feel more joy. Perhaps it is merely the trance-fog, the cool mist which clings and keeps all but deep quiet and serenity at bay. Yes, that may be it...

Gods be damned who do I think I decieve? Certainly not myself... no, I am not meant for this world of half sights and uniform gray. Perhaps, perhaps I was born in dreams, and the fairy tale of the Realm. But I have long seperated myself from that. I am no Elven Prince, the threads of my destiny crossed with anothers, I took their's and they took mine. What is in dreams that is not in the waking world? My sweet peace? Days turn to the phantom touch of wind, centuries crumble into endless nights and ashen thoughts, millenia will dawn and then fade away into night. There is my peace, the continuous march of uninterupted time.

Where was it that my heart left me? Was it in Venice all those years ago? Is that when I fell into my love affair with shadows? I have seen the world and wandered into awoken dreams beyond a dreamer's illusioned imaginanings. So in Bordertown, yes, I found peace that so eluded me in the Realm. It is a strange thing, but here I am more the elf than ever I was in my homeland. Maybe it is that I have no pressure to make me rebel, but can this really be all that there is? Seems that I have walked along way in dreams merely to slumber with more questions.

Am I just a shadow, a wisp of fantasy cling to the sweet haze of sleep?


Orlando dropped the quill and blew lightly on the heavy vellum. Regarding the words etched out in streaks of night the elf sighed softly and turned his gaze to the stars shinning from his window. Laden with sweet perfumes and opulent silks his bower called, urging him to abadon the bridge for true sleep. Reisgned and with no other outlet he rose and curled into the warm nest. At last reaching the other side, mind truely lost to dreaming, the quest sounded from the bridge.

Is this really all that I am?

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Back to the Basics [11 Apr 2004|04:51pm]
[ mood | distressed ]
[ music | Enya- Song of the Celts ]

Nothing has really changed in my... situation. Confusion still colors my thoughts and emotion keeps any real reading at bay. So, faced with romantic difficulties I did what any sane person would in my situation; I fell back into my work. Its a tried and true method to keep from focusing on the other aspects of my rather tangled life.

With the show Sean has placed my pieces in coming up rather quickly I've had a wonderful excuse to simply curl up into myself. Almost all of my time for the last few days has been absorbed in sketches. I doubt if I will have enough time or material to complete all that I have in mind. And while with every stroke of the pencil I may not be any closer to finding a happy medium in my life, every stroke does bring me closer to an inner calm which will keep me sane. To that end I say so far, so good. Right now I am more relaxed than I have been in a few weeks, lost in my art I feel more at peace with myself. Its brought back an old dream of mine, to be simply a sculptor.

Chris doesn't really need me at the Factory right now, after all. He and Nadia are back, wonderfully and splendidly in love. Those two are either on a perpetual honeymoon or at the brink of homicide, while I don't understand their unique brand of romance Nadia once said it that it keeps things interesting. Recalling my own days with that hellion, my only surprise is that Chris is so willing to go oblige. With me he was nothing but tenderness. Goes to show how love will change a person, and why Cupid is always depicted blind. I do believe that those two are my finest match, most likely because they came from divine inspiration.

Now there's a thought, if I can't figure out who I'm truly in love with I could just set them up with each other and find some peace of my own.

Perhaps too much reminiscing is a bad thing.

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This, That, and a Bit of the Other [30 Mar 2004|07:46pm]
[ mood | sigh-y ]
[ music | Self - Stay Home ]

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This is Karl, that is Elijah and the other is what was otherwise a perfectly reasonable life. When did things become so very strange? All I have ever wanted was peace, tranquility, a life of calm. Now all that there seems to be is confusion, mostly concerncing the afore mentioned people above.

Karl is... Karl is like a whirlwind in my life. He sweeps into my life and turns it upside down. When I'm near him its like being caught in the wake of storm. I'm powerless to fight against his pull, simply being near him destroys any willpower that I have. Never in my whole existance have I met anyone like him. Karl wakes up something in me that I have doubted ever existed.

Elijah, though, he is something so completely different. I've never known anyone like him, either. My heart beats so differently near him and every moment with him tugs me in ways that I haven't been in forever. Not since my former fiance` have I ever felt so strongly about a man. Spending time with him is incrediably relaxing, inspires all in me that I have ever wanted in this life.

This is where I am now. Karl who is a magnetic force in my life, a Polaris who draws me to him and makes me forget all reason and logic which governs my life. Elijah is the dawning of spring, soothing with his presence and brightening the world to me. There is nothing I would not give to be with either of them if only... If only to be with one I would not have to lose the other. The thought makes me cring and yet... and yet how can it be love? Only one can hold my heart to have it whole. Before I would have laughed to think it was possible to be in love with two people, two seperate people who are so very different. Yet it seems that this is the direction I am heading. They are tearing me apart when I am not with them but make me forget this mad dilemna when I am. What I would not give for a clear answer.

Sigh.

Here I am, falling in love in two seperate directions. My life has lost its focus. Where has my perspective gone?

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