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[11 Apr 2004|04:51pm] |
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Enya- Song of the Celts |
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Nothing has really changed in my... situation. Confusion still colors my thoughts and emotion keeps any real reading at bay. So, faced with romantic difficulties I did what any sane person would in my situation; I fell back into my work. Its a tried and true method to keep from focusing on the other aspects of my rather tangled life.
With the show Sean has placed my pieces in coming up rather quickly I've had a wonderful excuse to simply curl up into myself. Almost all of my time for the last few days has been absorbed in sketches. I doubt if I will have enough time or material to complete all that I have in mind. And while with every stroke of the pencil I may not be any closer to finding a happy medium in my life, every stroke does bring me closer to an inner calm which will keep me sane. To that end I say so far, so good. Right now I am more relaxed than I have been in a few weeks, lost in my art I feel more at peace with myself. Its brought back an old dream of mine, to be simply a sculptor.
Chris doesn't really need me at the Factory right now, after all. He and Nadia are back, wonderfully and splendidly in love. Those two are either on a perpetual honeymoon or at the brink of homicide, while I don't understand their unique brand of romance Nadia once said it that it keeps things interesting. Recalling my own days with that hellion, my only surprise is that Chris is so willing to go oblige. With me he was nothing but tenderness. Goes to show how love will change a person, and why Cupid is always depicted blind. I do believe that those two are my finest match, most likely because they came from divine inspiration.
Now there's a thought, if I can't figure out who I'm truly in love with I could just set them up with each other and find some peace of my own.
Perhaps too much reminiscing is a bad thing.
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