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[not] Drew Fuller (![[info]](http://www.journalfen.net/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} drew) wrote,@ 2007-08-01 09:10:00 |
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Drew Fuller and Kevin Zegers ziggy: Proposal
[Happens two days after Drew arrives in Paris]
The work had gone well and having Drew around had made Paris fun for Kevin. He had the afternoon and evening off so they had decided to do some sightseeing, ending up looking out over the city as the sun set. Smiling up at Drew, Kevin nudges him and inclines his head in the direction of a man and woman near them. The man kneels, taking the woman's hand and obviously proposing as the woman nods and leans to kiss him.
Drew's attention is already caught by the couple way before Kevin even points at them. He smiles at his lover, tugging him a bit closer and then clasping their hands together. "We're in Paris, baby. I think things like that are in the air... Maybe the water." Grinning, looking at Kevin adoringly, Drew leans in and quickly kisses his temple.
"Yeah, well - makes you wonder if they'll still feel all starry eyed back in Cleveland when the real world is banging on the door," Kevin says and then smiles at Drew.
"Don't be so jaded." Drew grins, bumping hips with Kevin. "Some people want that, you know. Giving themselves to one person and just the one." He watches the couple fondly as they hold each other before glancing back at Kevin "And I don't doubt some actually make it work..." Looking at the couple again, Drew can't help but smile as he sees them both wiping at their eyes.
"I'm not jaded," Kevin says. "I'm a realist. Shit, look at how hard we have to work at it and we love each other."
"Everybody has to work hard at any relationship especially if they truly love each other." Drew sighs softly, still smiling at Kevin.
"Why?"
"Why work hard at it?" He tilts his head, looking at Kevin intently. "If you truly love each other and want to be together, there's a lot of factors to consider because, it's not just you anymore - you're a couple - considered one, right? Sacrifices, compromises - they need to be made."
Kevin looks at Drew and feels a slight edge of panic cut through him. Couple.
Drew pulls Kevin closer. "Look around, baby. Lots of people around here are together. This is Paris. Love is in the air. Wouldn't you rather see people looking at each other starry-eyed like that than hissing at each other?" He looks down at him and grins, tapping playfully at his nose. "That's why you have to keep working at it. Make each other happy. Better this," he gestures around them, "Than claws and fangs, right?"
"Yeah," Kevin wraps his arms around Drew and holds him. "Making each other happy..."
Leaning his head against Kevin's Drew slides his hands, gently caressing his back. "You make me happy, baby. And I hope like hell I do the same for you..." Drew smiles, then kisses Kevin's forehead.
"You do," Kevin says. "I - it just - it's a hell of a responsibility, you know?"
"Yeah it is..." Running his fingers through Kevin's hair, Drew first looks around, grinning as he sees no one minding them and he tilts Kevin's face to his, kissing him soundly. "I love you," he whispers. "Having you here with me and making me happy every single day - that's the reward. And it's worth it. You are worth it."
"I hope," Kevin says, the kiss making his breath catch and he smiles. "I love you too, completely."
Drew smiles, taking Kevin's hand and threading their fingers together. "Come on. We have reservations."
"Yes sir," Kevin says smiling and glancing at the engaged couple one last time.
The restaurant was wonderfully romantic, the meal - well, wasn’t In-N-Out, that's for sure. Drew has his arm around Kevin's shoulders as they walk leisurely toward the spectacular fountains around the city. "You having fun, baby?" Drew asks, dipping his head to whisper in Kevin's ear.
"Yep," Kevin says, turning to kiss Drew's cheek. "But I'd have fun anywhere you were."
"I feel the same way." They stop by one of the more impressive fountains and Drew smiles at Kevin as he fishes in his pocket for coins. "I'm happiest when you're with me... Here," He hands him a coin, "Make a wish..."
Taking the coin, Kevin closes his eyes and makes a wish, kissing the coin and then flipping it into the fountain.
His thoughts flood back to several years ago when they both wished at a fountain back in Beverly Hills and Drew can't help but feel a sense of déjà vu. Smiling, he takes his turn and with the coin against his lips, he whispers. He keeps his eyes closed and then he tosses the coin over his head, wishing the exact same thing he did back then - for Kevin to get whatever he wished for.
"I'm glad you're here with me," Kevin says and takes Drew's hand, kissing it.
Drew flips his hand over, taking Kevin's and he weaves their fingers together. "I told you last time that I'd go with you, right? I may be a few days late, but I'm here. No place I'd rather be." He tugs Kevin to his chest, feeling as if they're the only two people right there and Drew kisses him languidly, slow, intimate, loving. "I love you...so very much, Kevin."
Wrapping around Drew, Kevin let's the kiss wash over him. He sighs and clings to Drew.
"Will you marry me?"
"What?" Kevin jerks in Drew's arms and looks up at him, brow furrowed. "Huh?"
Drew honestly had no idea where that proposal came from and is just about as shocked as Kevin after he said it. "I - I - " Opening his mouth and then closing it again, he stands there and pulls Kevin close, thinking deeply about what to do - what to say. "I said, w-will you m-marry me?"
"No!" Kevin says, clinging to Drew.
It takes a few beats for that one word - that single word to register in Drew's brain. He thought he heard a 'No' but with his heart pounding loud in his ears...
Yeah, he heard a 'No.' "No?" Drew asks softly, arms loosening, face suddenly ashen.
Kevin won't, can't look up at Drew. He hears it in his voice, in the beat of his heart under Kevin's cheek pressed against his chest. Swallowing he clears his throat and speaks, "I - we're - it's not real."
"Oh it's real." Nodding slowly, Drew looks at Kevin, his face suddenly fierce because in his heart he knows he means it and he has no doubts about that. "We're real. What I feel for you - that's all real." He gathers Kevin slowly, a little apprehensively in his arms and just holds him against his chest. "I love you - to my very core, I do. I don't want anyone else."
Shaking his head, Kevin looks at Drew. "No, I mean marriage - for us - for gays. Maybe over here, but - no. It's - it's no. I told you I'd stay with you forever. I love you, but - no. That isn't the real world."
And of course Kevin has a point. They go back to LA and their marriage would mean shit but he can't help the tightening in his chest regardless. Drew sighs, holds Kevin closer, unable to say anything for the longest time.
"You're right," Drew says at length, sighing again. "I know you're right."
"It's a great thought, but - it's fantasy..." Kevin says softly. "It's like those cakes on the shelf at the bakery."
Drew can't help but chuckle at that, nodding, kissing Kevin's forehead. "Yeah... Pretty on the outside but it's just icing on cardboard."
Sighing again, staying quiet, Drew keeps Kevin close, and then he reaches down to cup his chin, tilting the younger man's face up. "I love you... Forever," he smiles softly, thumb rubbing Kevin's chin.
"I hated those cakes when I was little," Kevin says, smiling up at Drew. "They just teased me." He leans into the touch. "I love you too, forever. It's a beautiful dream, but... it's just - icing on cardboard." He grins mischievously and slides his hands down to grip Drew's ass cheeks. "I got the real thing, I don't need fantasy."
Drew couldn't agree more.
TO NEXT LOG
ziggy: Proposal[Happens two days after Drew arrives in Paris]
The work had gone well and having Drew around had made Paris fun for Kevin. He had the afternoon and evening off so they had decided to do some sightseeing, ending up looking out over the city as the sun set. Smiling up at Drew, Kevin nudges him and inclines his head in the direction of a man and woman near them. The man kneels, taking the woman's hand and obviously proposing as the woman nods and leans to kiss him.
Drew's attention is already caught by the couple way before Kevin even points at them. He smiles at his lover, tugging him a bit closer and then clasping their hands together. "We're in Paris, baby. I think things like that are in the air... Maybe the water." Grinning, looking at Kevin adoringly, Drew leans in and quickly kisses his temple.
"Yeah, well - makes you wonder if they'll still feel all starry eyed back in Cleveland when the real world is banging on the door," Kevin says and then smiles at Drew.
"Don't be so jaded." Drew grins, bumping hips with Kevin. "Some people want that, you know. Giving themselves to one person and just the one." He watches the couple fondly as they hold each other before glancing back at Kevin "And I don't doubt some actually make it work..." Looking at the couple again, Drew can't help but smile as he sees them both wiping at their eyes.
"I'm not jaded," Kevin says. "I'm a realist. Shit, look at how hard we have to work at it and we love each other."
"Everybody has to work hard at any relationship especially if they truly love each other." Drew sighs softly, still smiling at Kevin.
"Why?"
"Why work hard at it?" He tilts his head, looking at Kevin intently. "If you truly love each other and want to be together, there's a lot of factors to consider because, it's not just you anymore - you're a couple - considered one, right? Sacrifices, compromises - they need to be made."
Kevin looks at Drew and feels a slight edge of panic cut through him. Couple.
Drew pulls Kevin closer. "Look around, baby. Lots of people around here are together. This is Paris. Love is in the air. Wouldn't you rather see people looking at each other starry-eyed like that than hissing at each other?" He looks down at him and grins, tapping playfully at his nose. "That's why you have to keep working at it. Make each other happy. Better this," he gestures around them, "Than claws and fangs, right?"
"Yeah," Kevin wraps his arms around Drew and holds him. "Making each other happy..."
Leaning his head against Kevin's Drew slides his hands, gently caressing his back. "You make me happy, baby. And I hope like hell I do the same for you..." Drew smiles, then kisses Kevin's forehead.
"You do," Kevin says. "I - it just - it's a hell of a responsibility, you know?"
"Yeah it is..." Running his fingers through Kevin's hair, Drew first looks around, grinning as he sees no one minding them and he tilts Kevin's face to his, kissing him soundly. "I love you," he whispers. "Having you here with me and making me happy every single day - that's the reward. And it's worth it. You are worth it."
"I hope," Kevin says, the kiss making his breath catch and he smiles. "I love you too, completely."
Drew smiles, taking Kevin's hand and threading their fingers together. "Come on. We have reservations."
"Yes sir," Kevin says smiling and glancing at the engaged couple one last time.
The restaurant was wonderfully romantic, the meal - well, wasn’t In-N-Out, that's for sure. Drew has his arm around Kevin's shoulders as they walk leisurely toward the spectacular fountains around the city. "You having fun, baby?" Drew asks, dipping his head to whisper in Kevin's ear.
"Yep," Kevin says, turning to kiss Drew's cheek. "But I'd have fun anywhere you were."
"I feel the same way." They stop by one of the more impressive fountains and Drew smiles at Kevin as he fishes in his pocket for coins. "I'm happiest when you're with me... Here," He hands him a coin, "Make a wish..."
Taking the coin, Kevin closes his eyes and makes a wish, kissing the coin and then flipping it into the fountain.
His thoughts flood back to several years ago when they both wished at a fountain back in Beverly Hills and Drew can't help but feel a sense of déjà vu. Smiling, he takes his turn and with the coin against his lips, he whispers. He keeps his eyes closed and then he tosses the coin over his head, wishing the exact same thing he did back then - for Kevin to get whatever he wished for.
"I'm glad you're here with me," Kevin says and takes Drew's hand, kissing it.
Drew flips his hand over, taking Kevin's and he weaves their fingers together. "I told you last time that I'd go with you, right? I may be a few days late, but I'm here. No place I'd rather be." He tugs Kevin to his chest, feeling as if they're the only two people right there and Drew kisses him languidly, slow, intimate, loving. "I love you...so very much, Kevin."
Wrapping around Drew, Kevin let's the kiss wash over him. He sighs and clings to Drew.
"Will you marry me?"
"What?" Kevin jerks in Drew's arms and looks up at him, brow furrowed. "Huh?"
Drew honestly had no idea where that proposal came from and is just about as shocked as Kevin after he said it. "I - I - " Opening his mouth and then closing it again, he stands there and pulls Kevin close, thinking deeply about what to do - what to say. "I said, w-will you m-marry me?"
"No!" Kevin says, clinging to Drew.
It takes a few beats for that one word - that single word to register in Drew's brain. He thought he heard a 'No' but with his heart pounding loud in his ears...
Yeah, he heard a 'No.' "No?" Drew asks softly, arms loosening, face suddenly ashen.
Kevin won't, can't look up at Drew. He hears it in his voice, in the beat of his heart under Kevin's cheek pressed against his chest. Swallowing he clears his throat and speaks, "I - we're - it's not real."
"Oh it's real." Nodding slowly, Drew looks at Kevin, his face suddenly fierce because in his heart he knows he means it and he has no doubts about that. "We're real. What I feel for you - that's all real." He gathers Kevin slowly, a little apprehensively in his arms and just holds him against his chest. "I love you - to my very core, I do. I don't want anyone else."
Shaking his head, Kevin looks at Drew. "No, I mean marriage - for us - for gays. Maybe over here, but - no. It's - it's no. I told you I'd stay with you forever. I love you, but - no. That isn't the real world."
And of course Kevin has a point. They go back to LA and their marriage would mean shit but he can't help the tightening in his chest regardless. Drew sighs, holds Kevin closer, unable to say anything for the longest time.
"You're right," Drew says at length, sighing again. "I know you're right."
"It's a great thought, but - it's fantasy..." Kevin says softly. "It's like those cakes on the shelf at the bakery."
Drew can't help but chuckle at that, nodding, kissing Kevin's forehead. "Yeah... Pretty on the outside but it's just icing on cardboard."
Sighing again, staying quiet, Drew keeps Kevin close, and then he reaches down to cup his chin, tilting the younger man's face up. "I love you... Forever," he smiles softly, thumb rubbing Kevin's chin.
"I hated those cakes when I was little," Kevin says, smiling up at Drew. "They just teased me." He leans into the touch. "I love you too, forever. It's a beautiful dream, but... it's just - icing on cardboard." He grins mischievously and slides his hands down to grip Drew's ass cheeks. "I got the real thing, I don't need fantasy."
Drew couldn't agree more.
TO NEXT LOG
