Thank you for letting me know how you feel about it, baby boy. And believe me, you are far from the only person who knows one thing but believes another. Every skinny girl who thinks she's fat even though she knows better, every smart person who fails one test and thinks he's an utter idiot...it's part of the human condition, I think. There's a saying that goes "Fake it till you make it" and in some cases, that's very true. If you keep telling yourself something long enough, you'll believe it, and it's time you stopped doing that with negative things and started doing it with positive things. I'm very proud of you.