Thank you for letting me know how you feel about it, baby boy. And believe me, you are far from the only person who knows one thing but believes another. Every skinny girl who thinks she's fat even though she knows better, every smart person who fails one test and thinks he's an utter idiot...it's part of the human condition, I think. There's a saying that goes "Fake it till you make it" and in some cases, that's very true. If you keep telling yourself something long enough, you'll believe it, and it's time you stopped doing that with negative things and started doing it with positive things. I'm very proud of you.
I want to try. Not just because I love you, but I want to do better, I mean I really do. I want to be more relaxed about things and more secure, and I don't want things like my claustrophobia to get worse. I'll do my best.
Also, has anyone ever told you that you're very smart? Because you are. Not just book smart, but emotionally smart. I think maybe I knew that but the way you're handling all this is very impressive. You're good at explaining things to me. I think if you weren't an actor, you would be a good teacher.