[players not pups, took place week of 9/26, the day after this]
One thing Johnny loves about California is how warm the weather stays in autumn. In late September, it's gorgeous, perfect for eating lunch out on the terrace, and one thing he likes about this restaurant in particular is the generous space between tables, making it easy to hold a private conversation. An added bonus is that it's mostly-vegetarian, very Davey-friendly, and healthy enough for Johnny to eat a full-sized lunch in peace.
"Thanks for seeing me on such short notice," Johnny says once they've gotten through the basic gossip, talking about Tom and the film and fashion week, and their food orders have arrived. "I didn't mean to wrest you away, I'm just kind of..." he laughs and makes a wobbly motion in the air above his head.
"No problem, sweetheart," Davey smiles, digging into his stir-fried tofu. "I am completely wrestable, especially for you. So what's got you all...?" he copies Johnny's hand motion.
Johnny laughs and swallows his bite of avocado before answering. "Men," he sighs. "Isn't it always?" He takes a sip of the hot tea with lemon that's almost mandatory for post-rough-blowjob-throat before elaborating. "No, seriously. I had this really awesome fantastic scene back before fashion week, and it had my head in a bit of a tizzy, and then just yesterday I had a...wow, I don't even know, evening with someone I've been getting to know, but not in a naked way. Well, he wasn't naked last night, even. I was," Johnny giggles. "Hence the raspy voice today," he explains with a little eyebrow wiggle.
Davey arches an eyebrow. "So, two encounters that have left you all up in the air? This is fascinating. Anybody I know?" He doesn't think Tom's scened with Johnny recently, but he really doesn't keep tabs on that sort of thing.
"Well, you remember Elias Koteas, who we saw at the Equinox party? And I told you about scening with him and Henry Rollins? That was the first one. It was just a really good scene, and it got me further down than I normally do," Johnny explains, sipping more tea and taking another bite of salad. "And then last night... I don't know, I wonder if I'm losing my ability to stay up," he frowns. "But Billy's just... wow, fuck. He's got this hold on me. Do you know him? Billy Zane?"
"Of him, yes," Davey nods. "He's an excellent actor. And I'm guessing one hell of a dom." He tilts his head, mouth quirking as he considers Johnny. "You think you're going down more easily, is that it? You sound like you think that might be bad. Why?"
"Well, maybe not going down more easily, but not coming up as easily. Which is weird, plus... why do I keep having these significant scenes with men who already have partners? Henry and Elias have each other, Billy has a partner, too... but fuck, that scene was emotionally intense." He shakes his head at himself. "He really wanted something out of me, beyond the physical stuff. It was hard. But good, fuck, look at this," he mutters, glancing around to make sure no one's watching and then tugging down the purple silk scarf to show Davey the dark, angry mark right in the center of his throat.
"Looks like he got what he wanted," Davey replies. "How did it feel, giving him that? Was it hard to do? When you finally did give him what he wanted, was it cathartic for you?" He's not just trying to help Johnny sort through this, he's genuinely curious. Davey's never been the kind of sub who had to fight to get there, and he's always been generous of himself for dom/mes who've wanted all they can have. The way Johnny works is completely foreign to him.
"Well, it was weird," Johnny admits, tightening his scarf again and taking another bite of salad. "I mean, normally, that's exactly how it works for me. I don't really want to submit, I do it, it's awesome in the end. Completely cathartic. But this was almost... I mean, something about the way he is made me want to give it up without much of a fight. And then he kept holding back, teasing me, bringing out that desire to struggle. He kept telling me to trust him and acting like I didn't yet, because I couldn't relax and let him do his thing. I don't know, it's not usually that mental for me."
"But you liked it?" Davey asks, intrigued.
"Yeah. It was kind of exhausting, but when he was done teasing and let me suck him off, and he was all into it and getting off on me choking on it, fuck, that was so good," Johnny grins, blushing just a little. "He was more... obviously present than some guys. When I was freaking out because I wanted to rush things, he had me focus on my pulse, and he got me into this deep headspace like meditation, it was pretty intense. He seems to, I don't know, pay more attention than I'm used to." Thinking about it, that's been a common thread with many of his best scenes lately--Paul has that, Elias and Henry both do, Davey's Tom does, for that matter.
Davey nods at that. "The best doms are. Good doms are as much about making it good for the subs as for themselves, but the really good ones pay close attention and manage to give us what we need even if we didn't realise that we needed it." He takes a sip of his tea and contemplates Johnny. "So, what's the problem then? What's got you all wound up like a spinning top?"
Johnny laughs, shaking his head. "I think I have a crush. Maybe several crushes. And it's bad form to have crushes on people who are committed."
"It is?" Davey asks in honest surprise. "Are they in monogamous relationships? Are they cheating on their partners being with you?"
"Well, no. But..." Johnny thinks for a moment, sipping his tea. "Henry and Elias I think just went through an off-again, on-again thing. I doubt they're looking for a boy, beyond playing sometimes. Billy... I could fall for in about five seconds," he admits with a little sigh. "And it's not so much that there's something wrong with it, I mean he's not monogamous, but... when he talks about Oded, his face lights up like he's never encountered anyone more beautiful on the entire planet. And I'm not sure I should go there, because I'm such a romantic, and I want to be pampered, and... well, I told you what happened with Stephane. I don't enjoy being dumped for someone else. I don't know that always being number two would be any better."
"Tom's face lights up when he talks about Viggo or Leo," Davey says, matter-of-factly. "But I know he loves me too. Being a newly-added relationship doesn't have to mean lesser. Not if everyone involved is honest about where things stand, and honest about their needs. That can be hard, though, telling someone flat out what you want, especially if you think it might be a problem. But, we work, Tom and I, so I know it can be done."
"I forgot that Tom had other relationships," Johnny laughs, taking Davey's hand in both of his on the table. "You two are such a unit in my head."
Davey laughs with him, hand resting comfortable in Johnny's. "That's because mostly you see us together. Viggo and Leo can't be with him through all of this the way I can, but they're definitely in touch and in each other's lives." He doesn't add that the changes their relationships have gone through seem to make Tom sad sometimes - that's the last thing Johnny needs to hear right now - and besides, it is still true that they love each other very much.
Johnny nods. "I don't... I mean I don't even have any idea if Billy is looking for a boy. Maybe he's not. But I know his partner doesn't sub, so... maybe. He was definitely talking like he wanted to play again."
"Well, playing again is a start, at least." Davey regards his friend, compassion lighting his eyes. "You really want to be someone's boy, don't you, sweetheart?" He squeezes Johnny's hand. "You're in such a hurry to get there, don't miss out on the good stuff on the way."
"Well, not exactly," Johnny argues, squeezing back and taking another sip of tea. "I want someone to fall in love with me and buy me nice presents and think I'm special. I don't have to be around their house all the time, I just... want to feel precious to someone. I want to be someone's someone," he smiles.
Davey nods. "I get that, really I do." His relationship with Tom had been a long time coming and there had been many lonely nights when he'd wished for someone special. "Did you know that my relationship with Tom is the first real one I've ever had?"
"Really? Huh. And you're older than me," Johnny muses, feeling sad for Davey.
"I am," Davey laughs, "although not ancient yet!" He eats more of his meal, thinking about his next words. "I used to think it was just me," he begins. "That the way I choose to live my life made it hard for anyone to want me as their boy. Oh, not the straightedge stuff, but the constant moving around." He shrugs. "Tom's changed my mind about that. He made it clear from the beginning that long-distance doesn't scare him, and obviously I have no problem moving around with him. I think for me it's happened now because I'm in the right place and Tom is the right man. That I just wasn't ready before. Or maybe it's all fate and I was never going to have everything I wanted until I met him. Who knows? What I do know is that what I have with Tom was worth waiting for."
"That's so fucking romantic," Johnny grins. "Rub a little of your good luck on me, would ya?"
Davey laughs out loud at that. Rubbing a hand over his hair he reaches over and rubs it over Johnny's. "There you are, all ready to meet the Sir of your dreams."
"I am forever in your debt," Johnny replies solemnly, pressing his palms together and bowing forward slightly before he cracks up laughing. Well. Worth a try, anyway.