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Thursday, May 14th, 2009
12:52 am	Interesting... in a way that's not. I was going to make a big post about how my dentist appointment went and how my meeting with the kid's TAG teacher went but then I got... well, read my last real post. Kinda like that again. So I'll run through that stuff quickly and then move on to my psychosis. The dentist appointment was a regularly scheduled cleaning with annual xrays. I'd been having some dental pain in the past couple of weeks (what's new, right?) so I mentioned that. The hygienist told me the same thing she always says: my gums are in good health, my teeth had very little plaque buildup, it looks like I take pretty good care of them. The only thought that leaves me with is that all of my dental issues must be because my teeth hate me and are engaged in a conspiracy against me. I have to go back on June 5th to get something scraped, something smoothed and to let them "root around" in one of my teeth and "see what's in there." Yes, the dreaded RC was mentioned as a possibility if she doesn't like what she sees. Then I had a meeting with the kid's TAG teacher and core studies teaching team. It went quite well. They were concerned about a couple of things with her but after meeting me they were reassured. They were thinking that some of her more quirky behaviors were due to her being under some kind of stress or something. They really had no idea how to explain it. After talking with me for a while one of the teachers said Vicki was like a mini-me. They said that some of the things I said and did were exactly like how she did them. Apparently she even does the weird eyeroll-y thing that I do when I'm trying to access information in my brain. So the teachers were reassured and I had it reaffirmed to me that my kid is both brilliant and quirky. So there's that. Then we're back to this horrible sense of... nothingness that I have going on. I don't know how to explain it. Apparently I'm really good at acting normal (well, not "normal" but normal for me) since no one seems to notice that there is anything really odd going on with me. In a way that kind of makes me sad. No one in my life outside of my household knows me well enough to see the lie and even the family doesn't know what is really going on in my head. I can think of all kinds of things that I would like to do or even should do but I can't seem to convince myself to actually do any of them. I'd rather just go to sleep. I have been having some excellent dreams lately and I'm getting really good at the trick of getting myself to fall back into the same dream if I happen to wake up at an inopportune moment. When I'm asleep my brain really seems to like me. When I'm awake I don't like me very much. Or at all. I may go and raid the booze supply in the kitchen. I feel the need to numb my mind. cross posted to my various journal homes Current Mood: disappointed (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 13th, 2009
7:37 am	Life is blah. Ever have a period of time where things just don't feel... right?  I mean, not anything you can put your finger on but just a vague feeling of wrongness?  I just feel... funky. blah.  Can't be arsed to do a whole lot of anything.  Apathetic in the extreme.  I'm not in a bad mood.  In fact, I feel a little closer to happy.  I can't explain it but it is really fucking with my brain.  I find myself sitting in front of the computer and not feeling interested in any of the sites that I used to go to daily.  I haven't read any fic in... I don't know, probably a couple of weeks anyway. I know I haven't been getting enough sleep lately and when I do sleep the dreams have been very vivid.  Extremely odd (even for me) and vivid.  In a way I look forward to them very much.  I never know who is going to appear or how they are going to play out. I can't seem to get it together though.  I'm off my game.  Lately I feel like I don't really know who I am any more.   cross posted to my various journal homes Current Mood: blah (Comment on this)
Monday, May 11th, 2009
6:35 pm	Aaarrgh. Help! Twitter isn't working. I don't know what to do. cross posted to my various journal homes (Comment on this)
Monday, March 30th, 2009
11:14 pm	RIP Andy Hallett I remember years ago when he had to cancel that one con (one of the Moonlight Rising cons, '04 maybe?) because he was in the hospital and then we found out he'd been diagnosed with cardiomyopathy. I wanted to believe it was something that he would be able to recover from and continue with life as normal. Unfortunately, after doing some research online and asking some of the docs at work I realized that wasn't the case and that his time on earth was much shorter than anyone could have expected. I did get to see him a couple of times after that. He was still a funny, crazy guy but I couldn't help but feel that something essential had changed. He was never the same after that. He still did the cons, though not as many, he still made us laugh and he still worked on his music but he didn't hang out after his obligations were met. I've talked with various people over the years about how he changed and how sad it was. I'll never forget his stories about the school bus and how every time I heard him tell it there would be more or different details. Never the same twice. Then there was his rather odd obsession with Paul Lynde and Hollywood Squares. Nobody did a Paul Lynde impression like Andy. I'll never forget the first time I saw him at a con. It was Mid Ohio Con 2002. Only the third con I'd ever been to. Andy and Mark Lutz were my reasons for attending. They did a couple of hysterical panels with a guy who I didn't really know at that time named James Leary. I don't remember many of the details of those panels except for the badly timed fire alarms, laughing until I was in tears, Mark making fun of the ultra-serious stormtrooper guy and Jimmy making a very hungover Andy nearly vomit by offering him a t-bone smoothie. These are things I truly hope I'll never forget. RIP Andy Hallett. My memories of you will continue to bring smiles to my life for years to come. cross posted to my various journal homes Current Mood: melancholy (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 5th, 2009
12:16 pm	Stuff I'm doing today. A little while ago I sneezed so hard it hurt from my head to my intestines. I've had an ass-kicking headache ever since. Hopefully these Excedrin will kick in soon and give me some relief. I'm taking a break from housecleaning right now while I wait for the next load of laundry to finish drying. I still have at least 2, maybe 3, more loads of laundry to do along with a couple of rounds of dishes. I'm also wanting to straighten the kid's bedroom and sort through some stuff in my room today. Also? For those of you not on my facebook or twitter, the heat has been out in my house since last Saturday. It's not too bad right now, about 60 in the house, but it's been pretty freaking cold around here over the last few days. cross posted to my various journal homes (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 5th, 2009
3:17 am	Good question! What Kind of Serial Killer Would You Be? Your Result: Organized and Goal-Oriented   You're a planner. You'd carefully plot each murder, and carry it out methodically. You'll kill them in one location and move them to another later, and you'll study up your forensic science. The good news is, you're much harder to catch. You won't kill for the person, you'll kill for material gain. Your goal is finance, not a psychopathic compulsion- but you have absolutely no problem killing as many people as necessary to get what you want. Organized Visionary   Disorganized and Gain-Oriented   Organized and Mission-Oriented   Organized and Hedonistic   Disorganized Visionary   Disorganized and Hedonistic   Disorganized and Mission-Oriented   What Kind of Serial Killer Would You Be? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz cross posted to my various journal homes Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 13th, 2008
4:52 pm	Assistance please! Hi guys. I got a new phone and I have to transfer everything over manually. If you have ever given me your phone number or would like to give it to me now please send me a text. I really don't want to have to program everything. Number is the same, 304-617-0328. Please tell me who you are in the text since I'll never figure it out otherwise!</span>cross posted to my various journal homes (Comment on this)
Sunday, December 7th, 2008
9:13 am	So, I'm in bed asleep around 7 this morning when I'm awakened by an odd feeling. Can't really identify it other than it seems to have something to do with my thumb. I move my hand and start to drift back to sleep when I feel it again. My fuzzy mind rouses enough to think "that kind of felt like something nibbling on my thumb" at which point I find myself standing at the foot of my bed. I'm confused and I have to pee so I head for the bathroom thinking I must have dreamed or imagined it. I'm still quite tired and I'd really like to return to the nice warm bed but I fear there may be a mouse in there. Upon returning from the bathroom I decide to check under all of the pillows and blankets just to reassure myself that nothing is there. The cat is in the room with me and I talk to her as I do this. I remove all of the blankets and pillows but one thinking the entire time that I must have imagined it. I lift up the last pillow and yelp, "Holy shit! There was a mouse in the bed with me!" Just as I lifted that last pillow I saw the beady little eyes look at me and then mouse butt and tail escaping down behind the head of the bed. *shudders* Yes, Virginia, there was a mouse in bed with me nibbling on my finger this morning. Needless to say, I did not get back in the bed. The pillows and blankets are still in the floor and I have been in the living room ever since. cross posted to my various journal homes Current Mood: freaked out (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 4th, 2008
11:23 pm	Yes. We. Did! President Barak Obama Holy shit. We didn't fuck it up! cross posted to my various journal homes (Comment on this)
Monday, October 27th, 2008
5:01 am	Assistance needed I need the assistance of any of you out there who have ever been on a cruise. Particularly a Caribbean cruise. Tell me your best and worst moments regarding onboard activities and shore excursions. What did you love or hate about your particular cruise lines? If you've had experience with multiple cruise lines which one would you recommend. Most importantly, what kind or onboard dining options are there for people who are not particularly inclined to dressing up? Seriously. I'm taking the kid on a cruise for Spring Break this year and I'd really like to book this bitch soon. I'm just having some final click anxiety so if any one can help me out I'd greatly appreciate it. cross posted to my various journal homes Current Mood: nervous (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 25th, 2008
11:47 pm	Another quiz Your result for The What type of MAN turns you on Test... Buff bad boy You like your men with a boyish or feminine face but a manly body. You like him to possess bad boy looks while still maintaining some innocence. He looks like the all-American kind of hunk and I bet you love someone like.......Travis Fimmel. But let's face it, the whole point of this was to look at a bunch of hot guys. If you liked what you saw, please rate my test! Take The What type of MAN turns you on Test at HelloQuizzy cross posted to my various journal homes Current Mood: amused (Comment on this)
10:27 pm	Interesting Your result for Howard Gardner's Eight Types of Intelligence Test... Intrapersonal "This area has to do with introspective and self-reflective capacities. Those who are strongest in this intelligence are typically introverts and prefer to work alone. They are usually highly self-aware and capable of understanding their own emotions, goals and motivations. They often have an affinity for thought-based pursuits such as philosophy. They learn best when allowed to concentrate on the subject by themselves. There is often a high level of perfectionism associated with this intelligence. Careers which suit those with this intelligence include philosophers, psychologists, theologians, writers and scientists." (Wikipedia) Take Howard Gardner's Eight Types of Intelligence Test at HelloQuizzy I'd have to say this one seems accurate. cross posted to my various journal homes Current Mood: Interested (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 15th, 2008
6:31 am	NYC Sunday Betcha thought I wasn't going to post this, dincha? Well, considering my record with posting reports on my travels I can't really say that I blame you. And yet... So my Sunday in Manhattan started when I woke up (late) at 8AM. I had a tour booked for 9AM. Still, I managed to get the world's fastest shower and get out of the room by 8:30. I walked quickly to where I thought I was supposed to meet my tour group for a walking tour of lower Manhattan which was at the corner of 51st and 6th at Rockefeller Center. I couldn't find the restaurant that we were supposed to meet outside of so I quickly realized that something was wrong. Thankfully, I had remembered to bring my confirmation letter from the tour company with me. I took it out and found that, sure enough, I was in the wrong place. I was supposed to be at 50th and Broadway. How I got those confused I have no idea but I hauled ass and got to the right place with two minutes to spare. Then, of course, we didn't end up leaving on time because we were waiting for a group of 8 to show up. The guide, a lovely man named Jonathan, gave them 15 extra minutes and they never showed so we headed toward the subway for the ride down to Battery Park. I can't begin to recall all of what Jonathan told us and showed us during our supposed-to-be-three-but-was-closer-to-four-hour tour but I'll try and hit the highlights. We started out in Battery Park next to the Staten Island Ferry terminal. He told us a bit about the history of some of the buildings that were visible there at the end of Manhattan and about the Ferry. Someday I'll take the SI ferry out and back in the evening to see the city lights. We walked around Battery Park and checked out various statuary and what-not. Jonathan told us some history about Governor's Island, the harbor, the park, Castle Clinton, and we wound up that part of the tour at The Sphere. We left Battery Park and headed north. We saw the church and home of the first American-born saint, Mother Seton, which have been preserved as a shrine to her. Jonathan showed us where he was living and working on 9/11 and what he experienced that day. We stopped at the original DelMonico's restaurant which was right across the street from his former apartment. I had heard of DelMonico's before but didn't really know why it was so famous. Turns out they were the first restaurant in the US to serve salad with dinner back in the mid-1800's. Before that when you got dinner in a restaurant is was just meat and bread. They also invented several well known dishes there including Eggs Benedict, Lobster Newburg and Baked Alaska. We walked down Stone St and learned a bit about it's history and the reclamation of the street in recent years changing it from a deserted dump into a quaint little cobblestone street lined with nice little restaurants with outdoor seating. Oh hell. I don't think I'm going to be able to finish this right now. I've been up all night and I'm really tired. I need to catch a nap for a bit. I'm going to go ahead and post this much and I'll finish this up later today. cross posted to my various journal homes Current Mood: exhausted (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 12th, 2008
11:06 pm	NYC Saturday I was getting ready to type something up about my day today when I realized that I hadn't written anything about yesterday. I finally got to sleep Friday night at around 2AM I got up at 7:45 Saturday morning. I hustled around the room getting ready to go but didn't manage to get out of the room until 8:30. (I had planned to leave at 8AM.) I walked down to 42nd Street to buy a Metro card and catch the 1 train downtown to South Ferry. Having a timed reserved ticket for the Statue of Liberty Ferry is great. I didn't have to wait in line nearly as long as the kid and I did back in April. I'd say my total line wait was around half an hour. I love the view of Manhattan from the ferry. Once on Liberty Island I went to pick up my audio tour stuff and then wandered about the island listening to the recording and taking pictures. It was a gorgeous day. Cloudless blue skies, slight breeze, 68 degrees. I couldn't have asked for better. After turning in the audio tour I got in line for entrance to the monument. The security line there was the slowest I've ever been in but it was worth it. The museum had actual size models of Liberty's face and foot that gave a real perspective of how big she really is. Up at the top of the monument base the views were amazing and there were some great photo ops. I spent about four hours on the island and then hopped a ferry back to Battery Park. I skipped Ellis Island this time. After I got back to Battery Park I wandered about for a while. I got a pretzel and a bottle of water and sat on a bench people watching and sharing my pretzel with a squirrel. As I meandered my way out of the park I took a few pictures including one of a wild turkey that was just wandering about as though it belonged there. I went past The Sphere and took a couple of shots of it. Then I made my way toward the subway stop that would get me to the uptown R train. On the way there I passed the Bull and watched tons of people giggling like little girls as they got their pictures taken touching the bull's balls. I got as far at Trinity Church before I stopped to consult my map and discovered that my subway station was just on the other side of the church. Turned out that the churchyard was open so I wandered in since I remembered being told that there were a couple of famous people buried there. I took several pictures of the various graves including the graves of Robert Fulton and Alexander Hamilton. It's really quite a lovely little graveyard. Y'know, if you like graveyards. I made my way around the church and caught the R uptown to 28th St where I got off and set about trying to find the Museum of Sex. I only made one wrong turn and found it quite easily. It was very interesting. Aside from the Permanent Collection they also had exhibits on the Sex Lives of Animals and Sex on Film. The animals were fascinating. I think I was there for a little under 3 hours not counting the time I spent in the gift shop. When I left I headed back to the subway and caught the R up to 42nd St. I wandered back to the hotel in a staggering kind of way stopping at several stores on the way. I saw a few things I wanted but I wasn't buying just getting ideas. I finally wandered back to the hotel at around 9:30. I made myself something to eat and crawled in the bed to watch TV. I fell asleep and woke up at around 11 when Paul called to check on me. I woke up enough to talk to him and the kid for a bit. Unfortunately that ended up waking me up too much and I couldn't get back to sleep. It was nearly 2AM before I was able to get back to sleep. I'll post on Sunday later. Right now it's time to pack. I have to be ready to head out to the airport by 4:30AM. cross posted to my various journal homes Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 11th, 2008
1:37 am	Live from New York it's... Me! So the traveling part went very smoothly (and we all know how rare that is for me!) except from some running between terminals at the Charlotte airport but, hey, that's typical. Landed at Newark around 1PM. Saw a little altercation at security with someone who was going in as I was coming out. Didn't really see much but some guy was dropping the f-bomb rather loudly and the a security guard said (in best authoritative voice), "Sir, I strongly suggest that you calm down!" Everyone stopped and stared for about five seconds then just shrugged and moved on. It was kinda funny. Got my stuff at baggage claim and caught a SuperShuttle into Manhattan. Went through the Lincoln Tunnel which was a new thing for me. Got to the hotel (Hilton Garden Inn Times Square at 49th and 8th) and checked in. The room rocks! It is easily twice the size of the room the kid and I had at Spring Break. There is free WiFi in the rooms and every room comes with a refrigerator and microwave. I'm stocked with pop and water and good to go! After hanging out in the room for a bit taking the required pictures and unpacking I headed out to go to the United Nations. What? I like the UN. I strolled there along 45th Street. Wandered around at the UN for a bit and took a few pics. Hit the gift shop and bought a couple of souvenirs. Walked back via 42nd Street and took in the sights. Went back up to the room and relaxed for a bit before getting ready to go to the play. Left the hotel at 7:45 and walked down to the Broadhurst theater. It was a packed house. I only saw a couple of empty seats. This was my first experience with a drama on Broadway. The only other Broadway plays I have seen were musical comedies. I must say I liked the play quite a lot. It was loud and startling, humorous, angry and sad. I really enjoyed it. Richard Griffiths was great and Dan Radcliffe was amazing. I had read all of the good reviews and whatnot but I had kept my expectations low so as to not be disappointed. Well, there was no chance of that as it turned out. He was great. The whole nudity thing, while interesting, was really just a side note. At the curtain call there was a standing ovation for Richard and Daniel. Dan was adorable. He stood there grinning in this way as though he couldn't believe that people really liked it that much. That we liked him that much. It's terribly cute because you know he has to get that nearly every night. Also, I loved it when many of the old folks in the audience gasped the first time that Alan Strang dropped said fuck. After the play I was going to stick around the stage door but there were (quite literally) several hundred people hanging around and no way to get anywhere near the actors. I took some pictures of the scene out there and then took off. I strolled up Broadway and headed toward 49th on the way back to the hotel. Ended up stopping at the Hershey store where I picked up a couple of things then went on up to 50th street to Duane Reade for the pop and water for the room. At the corner in front of the hotel I saw a physical altercation between a guy driving a car and one of those guys that hauls people around behind a bike. You know what I mean. They were in the middle of the intersection screaming and swinging at each other. People were standing around and gawking and giggling. It was also kinda funny. Got back to the hotel at midnight, called home to check in and then got ready for bed and here I am. I'm hitting the hay now. Later. cross posted to my various journal homes Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 9th, 2008
6:33 am	Um... accurate? <table width=350 align=center border=0 cellspacing=0 cellpadding=2><tr><td bgcolor="#EEEEEE" align=center> <font face="Georgia, Times New Roman, Times, serif" style='color:black; font-size: 14pt;'> <strong>You Are Stalking</strong> </font></td></tr> <tr><td bgcolor="#FFFFFF"> <center><img src="http://www.blogthingsimages.com/whatfelonyareyouquiz/crime-5.png" height="100" width="100"></center> <font color="#000000"> You tend to be very obsessive. Once you focus your attention on something or someone, it's all you think about.<br /> You are also very secretive. People don't know much about the life that you lead.<br /> <br /> You are attracted to weak people. You may want to prey on them, but you also may just want to help them.<br /> You need attention, and you can get desperate if you aren't getting attention from the right person. You'll do about anything to get noticed. </font></td></tr></table> <div align="center"><a href="http://www.blogthings.com/whatfelonyareyouquiz/">What Felony Are You?</a></div> (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 2nd, 2008
7:31 am	Heading home. This year's Dragon*Con was very much Dragon*Con in all of its usual indescribableness. :) We are driving back with the family and the FIL wants to leave here by 8AM so I'm hoping to be home by around 6PM. Not going to promise a report or anything because we all know how much shite I am at following through on those. I will post a little something about who I saw and such but that's all I'll guarantee. See you all when I'm in my own comfy home. cross posted to my various journal homes Current Mood: exhausted (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 27th, 2008
8:52 am	Gah. So much to do today to get ready for Dragon*Con. *runs around pulling hair* I think I make nearly this same post every year at this time. I have laundry to do, packing lists to make, the actual packing, my schedule to finish, garbage to gather and put out, dishes to wash and I have to go to the bank. Plus I only slept 3 hours last night and I could really use a nap. cross posted to my various journal homes Current Mood: lethargic (Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 26th, 2008
7:06 am	*sigh* I just put my baby girl on the bus for her first day of 6th grade. My baby is a middle schooler. How is this possible? I hope she does okay. I mean, I know she'll be fine as far as her grades go but she has problems moving from one subject to another in a timely manner. This could be a problem with only three minutes between classes. cross posted to my various journal homes Current Mood: melancholy (Comment on this)
1:12 am	OMG I love Dan Radcliffe! Just saw him on Conan and, yeah, that's pretty much all I wanted to say. Carry on. cross posted to my various journal homes Current Mood: giddy (Comment on this)