| Birthday girls!! Well, they were yesterday... |
[Aug. 9th, 2007|07:19 pm] |
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A belated but no less beloved
to two of my favourite people, ![[info]](http://www.journalfen.net/img/userinfo.gif) bittersweet_art and hellsbells.
Wishing you all the best with teh pretty and teh porn and whatever you wish for.
*humongous hugs*
If you throw me an icon I'll do my best to scribble something. *smooch* |
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[Aug. 8th, 2007|10:41 pm] |
With everything that's going on around here lately I've been avoiding LJ as much as I can (and man, it's hard because I'll be the first to admit I'm an addict) because it's stressing me out and I hate being stressed out. Hubby, being very understanding about (or perhaps just exasperated with) my fandom stress has encouraged me to go writing instead and so I have. Seeing as the cafe I frequent has no internet access anymore it's the ideal place to relax and concentrate on writing. (Except then I drink heaps amounts of coffee (which in my case is two) and end up twitching like I have Parkinson's (I'm not making fun of people who have P, btw, having lost a grandmother to it I'm not that kind of jerk) and will probably never fall asleep tonight.)
Anyway, been working on The Fire Within and have run into a few things where my imagination just doesn't cut it. So if you've been following that particular story and would like to help... Tada! ( A poll! )
I'm not turning it into a song fic, don't worry, at most they will be mentioned or a line or two quoted to give the general feeling, that's all. Just seemed a bit silly to say, "And then they sang a song. And then another. And yeah, some other stuff too."
What else? Yes, I had a waffle today. With two ginormous mountains of whipped cream on them that made them look like boobs. It was good. |
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| "Duru duru duruduruduruduru..." |
[Aug. 7th, 2007|11:51 am] |
Woke up all stressed. I hate that. *tries to unclench jaw*
I put pretty much all my current clothes in the washer so I'm sitting here, wrapped in a blanket. I don't even have underwear.
Fandom is stressing me out. No, that's not true. LJ/6A is stressing me out. It's like they took my couch, with me on it, and put me in the middle of the ocean. And I better stay put because if one toe slips over the edge it will be eaten. And some people are saying 'Hey, it's alright, ain't no sharks here anyway' while others are chanting the JAWS theme.
Bottom line: I don't know what will happen but I don't feel comfortable. And I'd like to be prepared.
I have a GreatestJournal and an InsaneJournal but if anyone could get me an invite to Journalfen I would appreciate it. Done.
I'm going to copy my stuff over to them but posting in the future will be a bitch because they don't have Semagic for Mac. *sighs* |
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[Aug. 5th, 2007|01:14 am] |
I think my damn angst muse has packed up and left for fuck knows where. Seriously, I get ideas but just thinking of writing them down has me scowling and just...
It's all been done before, nothing is new and I'm just repeating myself. Making them hurt for hurt's sake with no actual reason behind it. Emotional porn hubby calls it (it's probably called something else in English and I'm just too tired to remember), except not when talking about my writing since he doesn't read it but you know, all those My Horrible Life autobiographies that you should read because hey, pain is real and we need to be reminded of that or whatever. Like Holocaust or Rwanda survivor stories or... Angela's Ashes was on TV last night and I've seen it before and I've read the book and 'Tis as well and they're good stuff but I couldn't watch it again. Too much misery. [ETA. I kinda picked bad examples, I suddenly realised and it makes me sound very callous. IT's not meant that way. It's more about my inability to handlereal misery than anything else, really.]
Emotional porn it's like something you read (or write or watch) just to feel miserable. (I did point out to him that he makes it sound like porn is bad.)
Yeah, I feel like whatever ideas I get I'm just doing that.
Which, yeah, no problem. Focus on my happy silly muse instead, right? Except she's kinda gone too. I'm trying to write The Ultimate Gay Test 3 and I'm Just. Not. Funny. *sighs* I'm thinking both those bitches went together on a Disney BDSM cruise or something. Which is a very disturbing image. *zones out*
I should just stick to porn. Except I'm not really good at that. Anyone ever noticed how little sex there actually is in my stories? Erm... in case you hadn't I didn't just say that. Nope. *shakes head* There's sex. Lots of sex. Hot sex. With cocks and everything. Uhuh. *distracts you with teh shiny*
Oh, and did I mention the annual Gay Pride party at my brother's place is a no go this year? So it's not really an official Gay Pride party it just so happens that my sister's birthday is around the same time so first we eat, then we get drunk and play Singstar and then we go to the Gay Pride dance. It's a tradition, man, and one I was counting on. Except my brother has a 4 month old baby and my sister was invited to a party elsewhere. *sulks* So I guess it's just me and hubby then, getting drunk on our own and then going downtown for the dance, meeting my sis there. Which isn't nearly as much fun. Man, this sucks. *kicks wall*
[ETA. I suddenly got the urge to write some really dirty filthy het sex. Where the hell did that come from? Exorcism! I need an Exorcism! *listens to mp3 file of Dean reading Latin* I think it's working... With someone talking really filthy, growling dirty words and calling her a whore and a bitch while he fucks her hard doggystyle. Help!] |
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[Aug. 4th, 2007|07:31 pm] |
I've been watching lots of vids and I would love to have the following songs as mp3 files if anyone has them:
Two Step by Dave Matthews Band
Body by The Servant
Comatose by Skillet
I think I love you by Dave Cassidy (I have this one as an m4a but I can't play it on my mp3 player) Got them all! Thank you, jelloh0530.
Something else.... yes.
Apart from Jared on the Ellen show are there any videoclips available of the guys looking very cowboy-ish? You know, cowboy hat and all that jazz. I haven't seen all they've been in, in fact apart from Dark Angel, Smallville, Devour *shudders* and some Gilmore Girls I haven't seen much at all, so I don't know if they have been geared up, Texas style.
So, anyone know of any? This is for hubby, btw. I told you he was turning into a fangirl.
[ETA. Just realised I'm gonna need pics too because I actually don't have that many. In fact I only have two of each. You know those supergay barechested cowboy pics of Jensen? Yeah, they kinda make me so embarrassed I couldn't keep them on my hard drive. But I bet hubby would love those. *g*
Here's what I've got:
( Jared 'Howdy' Padalecki )
( Jensen 'How You Like Them Apples' Ackles )
So c'mon, spam me with what you've got. Even the horrible ones. It's ok, I can take it. I have alcohol.
[ETA. More pics in comments if you have a cowboy craving. Feel free to add. *g*] |
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[Aug. 4th, 2007|06:41 pm] |
I'm wearing hubby's see-through underwear. *wiggles bum* I really must do laundry soon.
We've had a rather lazy couple of days.
The little guy managed to walk into a door (apparently it can happen) today and got the mother of all nose bleeds and he has a pink line on his forehead from where the edge hit him. *pets him*
We then went to the mall, dumping the kids at the kiddie center while we had coffee and then browsed the shops. Seems it was BYOG (Bring Your Own Geek) Day today (I brought hubby) because not only were there groups of the nerdiest looking scouts I've ever seen (there's some convention or something) but we saw a couple of guys that totally outdorked hubby and his best friend.
See hubby is about 6'5" and his best friend is about 5'7", same height as me. They just look ridiculously funny walking side by side. We used to call them West Town's Most Famous Gay Couple because they went everywhere together and even shopped the same clothes. Together. Especially funny because hubby's friend is like homophobe extraordinaire.
Now these two guys we saw? They were like 7'1" and... 5'5", the most. He didn't even reach the other guy's nipples. And God, they were Super Nerds. Sweater vests and thick glasses and hair comped slickly to one side. I really had to fight not to laugh (it's not nice, I know, but c'mon!) I could see hubby biting his lips and then we ran out and giggled like teenagers. And then made out on the escalator but that's another story. (Escalators and stairs are the perfect place for kissing without straining your neck when you're so different in height. I don't know why more people don't do it. I bet Jensen and Jared do it all the time.)
What else?
Oh yes. Hubby is turning into an even worse Dean Winchester fangirl than I am. The other day he started talking about us buying a 1967 Chevy Impala from the US next year and importing it because if they're older than 40 you don't have to pay any tax at all. "I saw this really cool red one online." And I'm like "Erm... maybe we should buy a dishwasher first." And then today we saw beef jerky at the store and he said we had to buy some because Dean eats it. And now he's happily chewing away. "This is good!" *pets his dorky head* |
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| 3 Spike drabbles |
[Aug. 3rd, 2007|11:43 pm] |
I was going through the memories over at sickchicks the other day while preparing to post the Just Watching finale and I came across three drabbles I'd written in a drabble tree and never posted here. So I thought I'd do that now. They're all Spike centered. I fixed a couple of blatant grammar errors. Also, this being from a drabble tree a couple of sentences in them don't actually belong to me. (3rd to last in the second one. First sentence in the third one) Also I added titles.
Reunion
Of all the places Spike could think of, this was probably the last one he'd expected to see him in. But there he was, leaning against the bar, sipping his drink as if it was the most natural thing in the world. Tight leather pants riding low on his hips, even tighter t-shirt hugging his chest. See-through if he wasn't mistaken. Eyeliner, check. Enough hair gel to style the whole Gay Pride Parade, check. Alone and horny? Oh yes, check.
Laughing softly to himself Spike slowly closed in on his prey. This was truly going to be a night to remember.
Hunger
It was singing in his dreams, in his nightmares. Pounding in his ears, swirling down his throat, filling his empty belly with its taunting remembrance. So frighteningly delicious he knew he would give anything to have it, to taste it if only once again. His body, his soul... oh god yes, his soul. All it ever did was burn and fill his head with voices of sin and shame and a need so excruciating he wanted to die. He ran his tongue against his teeth, delighting in the comforting tear of his fangs.
Recycled blood. It would have to do.
Abandoned
“Fuck it. And fuck you! You think you are the only one who suffered? That you have a patent on grief? You need to wake up and look around, mate. We’re all in pain. Even me.”
There was no response, not even a glimmer in the blank eyes. Just a silence so thick it was killing him.
“Angel, please. Don’t do this. We… I need you.”
Silence.
“You know, I waited for you,” he said softly. “No matter what Darla said I knew you’d come back to me. Never gave up. Still haven’t.”
Silence.
“Still love you, you know.”
Silence. |
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| I needed to upload hubby's bestiality icon, just for this |
[Aug. 3rd, 2007|09:17 pm] |
Then again, who cares about porn with people in it when there are naked farmers posing with barnyards animals about to hit the stands?
Ah, Sweden. The land of Pippi and meatballs and wrinkly old executives turned farmers taking off their clothes for the sake of agriculture.
Ps. I tried to find it in English but sadly it wasn't anywhere.
A very bad translation of the gist (you Swedes, help me out here):
"Olof Stenhammar, who retired as CEO? of OMX stock broking company last spring, bares it all in a farmers calendar from Värmdö. "The other farmers were willing and after some talking I said ok," says Olof Stenhammar. 12 farmers from Värmdö, outside Stockholm, have volunteered to bare their chests for the calendar.
Olof Stenhammar, who after his retirement spends most of his time on the ? farm Siggesta, will be Mister May."
I hope the other 11 aren't as... old. Erm...
*goes to look at horrible gayporn-ish cowboy pics of Jensen instead*
[ETA. Maybe I should point out that no, I do not have a habit of surfing Swedish financial online sites, just for the fun of it. They had the story in a small blurb in the newspaper today so I Googled for it and this is one of the sites it came up with.] |
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[Aug. 3rd, 2007|12:29 pm] |
You know, for all the curses I've thrown at LJ/6A over their ridiculous new TOS I really thought that when it came down to it they were just covering their asses and would in fact handle potential abuse reports sensibly.
Nope.
Apparently the suspension of journals has already started. But this time it's not Strikethrough 2007, it's Bold'em 2007. I guess they got tired of the other name.
And hey, they're doing it the Wolfram & Hart way! Zero tolerance policy. One wrong move and we chop your head off you're out of here for good, and not allowed to make another account ever and ever to infinity, amen.
And to make it easy for those champions out there, fighting teh!evil!pr0n one journal at the time, LJ is putting a Report Abuse Button on every journal. Catch that perverted bastard with one push of a button! Or, you know, that bitch who called you a bimbo once in high school, whatever. You don't want her on LJ, do you? *push push*
I kinda feel like I went to sleep and woke up in Insano!Land.
Things is, I love it here. All my friends are here, hell, all my entries are here! My fic, my stupid rambling, my wonderful comments from you guys. All here. But LJ is starting to make me increasingly uncomfortable.
Hell, I just posted a fic involving a 'minor in explicit sexual situation' yesterday. Do I believe it falls under LJ/6A's new TOS? No. Redeeming value, yo! Do I think I might at some point in the future piss someone off enough that they decide, 'Hey, let's report that bitch', with the abuse team, being busy drinking coffee and scratching their balls, responding 'What? Yeah, whatever, if you say so' and whoops I'm gone? Well...
I'm not leaving. Yet. But I'm thinking I might copy my fic over to my Greatestjournal account, just in case. Someone had a program that allowed you to move your whole journal. Anyone have the link to that? [ETA. Found one here.]
And if anyone wants to add me over there, I'm felisblanco there as well. And remember we used to add lj_refugee to our interests the first time we had to jump over there? I still think that's a good idea. (Yes, I know there's a community too but that's more for news and stuff. The interest was so we could keep track of each other.) |
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[Aug. 3rd, 2007|03:29 am] |
Well.. I've done this quite a few times before but now it's an official meme so...
Picked up from all over: When you see this, post a little weensy excerpt from as many random works-in-progress as you can find lying around. Who knows? Maybe inspiration will burst forth and do something, um, inspiration-y.
(If you've read any of it before... well, like I said, I've done this a few times. I don't remember what snippets I've posted.)
( Buffyfic )
( Buffy/SPN crossover )
( Brokeback Mountain RPS )
( SPN fic, gen and slash )
( Jensen/Jared stuff )
This is what I waste my time doing until half past three in the morning when I should be writing or having sex or, I don't know, sleeping? *headdesk* |
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| #1 Bestseller!! (Among sex deprived married librarian mothers, age 34-35) |
[Aug. 2nd, 2007|10:19 pm] |
LOL
I was browsing for some good advice for preparing your written work for publishing (fonts, sizes etc.) and ran across this:
LULU Titlescorer
What are the chances of your book becoming a best seller, based on your title? (First impression is always important you know. *g*)
Differences Aside got a 22.9%. Just Watching got the same.
Dude, I can live with that. Hee. Not like I'm aiming for Harry Potter's status. Or any status, actually, seeing as I'm not really gonna put it out there for the public.
So what chances does your current WIP have? *g* |
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| "Celebrate we will, 'cause life is short but sweet for certain..." |
[Aug. 2nd, 2007|05:10 pm] |
After posting the epilogue of Just Watching this morning I was talking to hubby about what a huge deal it actually is, finishing that thing after so many years and I got so giddy about it that we decided to go out and celebrate. \o/
Went down to my favourite cafe and had coffee (latte for me, frappe for him. Yes, he is a girl) and cake. It was good. Yummy. Saw one of my favourite students, well ex-students now that he's graduated. We waved and said hello. My sister called. She's back in the country and I'm gonna meet up with her this weekend. Will be fun to see how fat pregnant she's gotten. (Seriously, if she manages to get her girlish figure back after birth, the way I never managed, I might have to kill her. Just so you know.)
Then we bought yummy fish for the bbq, halibut marinated in gyros sauce. I've never had it before but I'm sure it's delicious. We're having zucchini, fried Greek style, as starters. All we're missing is a nice bottle of white wine and this would be perfect.
Hubby is going to a football game later and taking the little guy with him. He has already put on his football shirt and is talking non-stop, he's so excited. lol So it's just me and the girl at home. Maybe I'll watch some SPN on the laptop.
[ETA. I just read over the feedback I've gotten so far and you guys are making me cry. Seriously. I was so worried and you all are making me feel so much better. I don't expect everyone to be happy with it, that would be silly, but I'm so glad for what I'm hearing so far. Thank you.
Just so you know, I'm thinking I might put it up as a .pdf file later, if anyone is interested. I've been working on Differences Aside, making it available for both downloading and printing/binding. I'm mainly doing it for myself because I want to have it on my shelf like a real book, but I will give you the link once it's ready (I need to make a cover and I can't really have it pics of Spike and Angel, you know. Gotta find something else), in case anyone wants it. (It will probably be in a hidden section at hubby's shop on CafePress and there will be no charge, of course, except for the fee CafePress takes if you have it printed and bound for you. I'm not gonna make profit out of fanfic, don't worry) And I thought I might do the same for JW. 65.224 words, yo! That deserves its own book, right? lol Gonna need some serious work though, I think. Just the spelling mistakes alone are numerous, I'm sure.] |
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| Fic: Just Watching. Epilogue. Au Human. Spike/Angel. NC-17. |
[Aug. 2nd, 2007|01:12 pm] |
This is it.
Title: Just Watching, Epilogue
Author: felisblanco
Pairings/characters: Spike/Angel, Spike/Danny, OFCs
Rating: NC-17++
Summary: Spike is Angel's teenaged stepson. Sex happens. And that is the worst summary ever.
Warnings: AU Human. Underage sex, step!incest, non-con, daddy!kink, spanking, angstangstangstx100
Author's Note: Thanks again to evilmaniclaugh for looking it over. *smooch* I've written half an essay at the end of this, explaining a few things and just general musings about this story. I hope that's okay.
Previous chapters are here.
( Just Watching, Epilogue )
( Author's Note ) |
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| Fic: Just Watching, chapter 25. AU Human. Angel/Spike. NC-17 |
[Aug. 1st, 2007|11:09 pm] |
Well... *deep breath*
It's been almost two years since I posted this story last. I never meant for it to be so long, both the hiatus and the story to tell the truth. I hope I haven't lost all of you. And to those of you who have never read this and have no idea what it is... I suggest you read the warnings first. This is a very dark ride.
This is the last chapter. This is the end. Well, there is an epilogue which will be posted tomorrow so technically that will be the end. I don't suppose you'll all be happy with this but really, there was no other way. So... enjoy. Or not.
Title: Just Watching, Chapter 25
Author: felisblanco
Pairings/characters: Spike/Angel, Spike/Danny, OFCs
Rating: NC-17++
Summary: Spike is Angel's teenaged stepson. Sex happens. And that is the worst summary ever.
Warnings: AU Human. Underage sex, step!incest, non-con, daddy!kink, spanking, angstangstangstx100
Author's Note: Thanks to evilmaniclaugh for looking it over when I was feeling unsure and telling me it was in fact not that bad. *smooch* I'm going to write a proper author's note after the epilogue, in case anyone is interested.
Previous chapters are here.
( Just Watching, Chapter 25 ) |
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[Jul. 30th, 2007|10:47 pm] |
Those of you thinking of attending icecon_2008, I just put up a poll over there.
*smooch* |
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[Jul. 30th, 2007|12:34 pm] |
I'm pretty sure I didn't need the 2,8 GB .mp3 file hiding in my StuffIt Expander program. Hiding, as in it didn't show up when searched for and needed the computer to be restarted to make it actually disappear from my trashcan.
With only 37 GB on the whole that kind of shit does make a difference.
You know, I love reading the reports from Comic Con and looking at the videos and listening to the soundfiles, or reading about random run-ins with the boys or a friend of a cousin of an aunt of a co-worker who used to work where one of them hung out in high school or whatever (ok, I made that up but I'd love to hear that story) and at the same time it makes me feel kinda deflated and sad and very very lonely because I'm stuck in the middle of nowhere where none of them will ever come and the chances of me ever meeting anyone are like a snowball in Hell. And here I'm obviously talking your kind of Hell since the Nordic Hell is, not surprisingly, actually a fucking freezing place. Anyway... yeah.
But then I try and comfort myself by thinking about icecon_2008 and how much fun that will be, even without any celeb boys, just regular pretty gay boys and hubby. Oh, and hellbob I hope. And it makes me feel a tiny bit better but then I start thinking that yeah, there are 15 people signed up but the chances of even half of you showing up are probably rather slim and I get all depressed again. *sighs* Which reminds me, I need to do a post there soon, just so you don't think I've forgotten all about you. I'm thinking... poll. Because that's always fun. Fun, fun, fun. *picks at toenails* *sighs*
Also, I just read shadowscast's Spike/Giles story It Never Happened and it made me all teary and melancholy, which might be why I'm being all emo. I haven't even left feedback yet, too many jumbled feelings, but you should really check it out. Takes place between S5 and S6 of Buffy and it's just wonderful. *sniffs* |
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| Help? |
[Jul. 29th, 2007|08:58 pm] |
My iBook is behaving oddly and I fear I might have a virus.
What virus scan programs do you recommend, preferably free of charge?
I've been reading through these lists of various security programs. To tell the truth I don't think I have any kind of security on this thing and yes, I know how stupid that is. This is the first time I've suspected any trouble though.
Anyone familiar with any of these programs? Obviously I can only use the ones for Mac. Anything else not on the lists you might recommend? |
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| Drabble: A Perfect Flaw. RPS. JM/DB. G. |
[Jul. 29th, 2007|01:32 am] |
Title: A Perfect Flaw
Fandom: Real People
Characters: James Marsters/David Boreanaz
Prompt: #44 Circle
Word Count: 100 words
Rating: G
Author's Notes: Written as a late birthday present for verav and it fit into fanfic100 too so...
David has a thin scar around the knuckle of his thumb. It’s so strangely shaped that James wonders if maybe it had been done deliberately, but when he asks Dave says he had an accident slicing cheese. Sliced the skin almost completely off. “Bled like a pig,” he says and laughs. “Nearly gave mom a heart attack.”
James likes to run his own thumb over the scar, around and around in a tiny circle. He can’t really feel it but it’s still there and just knowing that sooths him. Just a tiny, almost invisible proof that David’s not completely perfect. |
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| I spam, therefor I am |
[Jul. 28th, 2007|11:45 pm] |
Am I the last one to find this site, featuring erotic/romantic manips/fanart from various fandoms?
I'm rather picky about such things but quite a few over there were really good. A Harry/Ron one f.ex. was really sweet and a Wes/Gunn one as well. And you should really check out the Doctor Who/Torchwood section. Jack/Ianto and Jack/10th made my tummy happy.
I know I promised vacation stories and pics and I will deliver. Sometime. Maybe tomorrow.
[ETA. It's almost midnight and suddenly a little voice says, "Daddy, I've slept enough now." lol Nope, you haven't, you little rascal. Back to bed.] |
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