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| User: | hotpinkdragones (130) hotpink's blabberings
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| Name: | hotpink | |||||||||
| Website: | website | |||||||||
| Bio: | I am a twenty-something online media geek, as well as a technical geek. Although my fannish leanings had been present from an early age (my mother is a old-time trekkie, and had all of her children addicted to trek by the age of two) offline fandom never interested me. It wasn't until I stumbled online in 1994 that I found fans after my heart and communities I enjoyed. In the years that I've been online, I've done all the fannish things that a good geek should do, gotten into plenty of flame wars and seen every bizarre thing one fan might do to another. In a way, I've become rather cynical about online fandom and the expectations that people can have about it. Newbie naivete depresses me, while the navel-gazing that long-time participants can engage in irritates me. That's why I like fandom_wank, and that's why I followed it here to journalfen. Fandom_wank exposes those times when fandom becomes too self-involved, too self-important, and too weird. Fandom_wank is hurtful, because it's a philosophical violation of the touchy-feely safe house that people want to believe exists within fandom. But it's a violation of a delusion, thus has a real reason to exist. Fandom is damn funny, damn harsh, and can be a perfect nightmare. Fandom is the furthest thing from a touchy-feely safe house: it is an activity that does attract people who are anti-social, looking for some type of cliquish pack/belonging, and people who are just all-out strange, as well as perfectly normal professionals and housewives. It can be dangerous and can affect real life. Fandom is no more or less safe than joining any group that attracts random strangers from all age groups and walks of life. I have developed a very firm sense of where I want to be in fandom. I like being the perpetual outsider, not tied to any fandom or, within any fandom, any particular group. Although I may become deeply involved in or obsessed with a particular show and even particular subculture within that show, I find attempts to create an atmosphere of us-against-them within or between fandoms to be vastly irritating and a easy way to drive me elsewhere. I do not want to be famous within any fandom. I would rather be the obscure author producing decent fiction without notice than a noted author being followed and stalked by the obsessive readers. I've had crazies take fandom vendettas to real life and don't need to experience that again. Even if the random obsessive would claim that they'd "never" take it that far, I've found that it takes little to push even the most rational person into a frame of mind where they would and would feel vindicated about doing so. I am a fan fiction writer and I follow my muse. I write what I feel needs to be written. I do not write for my audience--I wrote fan fiction long before I had an audience, and would still write my stories without an audience. I can not maintain a loyalty to a particular pairing or a particular genre . . . although I can develop a serious dislike of a pairing or genre if their fanatics are too loud and annoying. I write because I need to write, and I post because I feel that stories should be freed when complete and belong to society, not myself. If not to free them, why write them? Thinking and writing are not about control, but about sharing our ideas and our concepts of the world. If we claim that we are participating in the continuance of a modern form of myth development and oral tradition (Jenkins) I believe that we should behave that way. Unfortunately, in that, the open source community is miles ahead of us. If our only myths are going to be computer code, because fan fiction authors have bought into the corporate concept of proprietary intellectual property control and ownership, it will be a sad and strange future. This is what this fannish personality is all about. It's close to my real personality, perhaps closer than any fannish personality that I've taken on in the past. It is what it is. Note on friending/defriending: I friend people for very little reason. Perhaps I decided that I liked their username, perhaps our interests are similar, or perhaps I simply hit the wrong button. I defriend people with equally little reason. I rarely even look at my 'friends of' list, and you can friend/defriend me for absolutely no reason, without me being affected by your decision. **bows** Thank you. | |||||||||
| Memories: | 58 entries | |||||||||
| Interests: | 26: anne mccaffery, archer/t'pol, babylon 5, birds of prey, bouncing pink blobs, darkover, dragons, enterprise, fan fiction, fandom, fanfic, fanfiction, future history, godawful fanfic, heinlein, law & order, libraries, marion zimmer bradley, nc-17 fanfic, pern, reading, science fiction, slash, star trek, writing, xanth | |||||||||
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