A day late (but no less sincere)...
May. 6th, 2010 @ 12:04 am
Congrats on your Tony nom, Liev!|
I'm so glad you're once again getting the recognition you truly deserve.
I'm sure it's helped to lift your spirits after the pummeling you took on the basketball court the other day...
Apr. 30th, 2010 @ 12:50 am
I'm sure you all knew already, but I CAN'T WAIT for Betty to host SNL! |
I think it's my crush on her.
Could have had something to do with our romp in the shower before Leno... then again, my crush on her has been quite a few years longer than that...
Doesn't matter... don't tell Billy!!
Mar. 9th, 2010 @ 10:59 pm
It's been a while since I've used this. Paper journaling and yoga have been my outlets for months. Still, I feel I should put something in here, in case I lose those journals. Or at least so I have some measure of continuity in here.
[friends] Back in the states...
Apr. 19th, 2009 @ 07:33 pm
And couldn't be happier.|
Granted, I'm not home yet (Miami now), but there's no longer an ocean separating me from it. And right now, I really wish I was there. I'm flat... just exhausted. But it really has been a great time. Especially the crazy shows they have overseas. I have no idea what I was doing on half of them, but whatever it was, it was fun.
I highly recommend it.
Especially to you, Mr. I'm-Too-Busy-To-Join-The-Promotional-Tour Schreiber.
Apr. 11th, 2009 @ 12:15 am
[Sydney: Saturday, 2:15pm]|
I flew home to Australia to begin promoting Wolverine. I left Billy in New York to help Lisa plan for her next cabaret performance - in Mexico! - so I know he's in good hands, though of course, I miss him like the crazy romantic that I am.
I didn't expect the welcoming crew of Lisa-the-ex and my sister Rowan and Dad and Beth, all waiting for me at the baggage claim. That was wonderful and we've been a large family swarm ever since. I go off and do some press junkets and the like, and then catch up with them right where we all left off.
The whole family (including Lisa) has been staying at the house with me. I've loved hearing their laughter echo off the walls and while I'm mostly cheerful, I did have a moment last night when I walked down the dock, sat down, shoved my feet in the ocean, and closed my eyes. There is nothing more soothing in the world to me than the ocean; the sound and sight and smell just relax me. About ten minutes later I heard my dad come down the dock - can't mistake those footsteps. He sat next to me and shoved his feet into the water. We talked for a good while... about the importance of family and how he doesn't regret the time he spent with mum, as he wouldn't have had so many wonderful memories or ended up with me or my brothers. But when he and mum ended, he was able to meet Beth. And have Rowan. And create and entire happy life together. He said that maybe Deb was like mum was to him, and Billy is my Beth... And that made me smile. And I'm doubly lucky, because Deb is still my confidante. Once we came back to the house, I checked back through my journals and realized just how long it's been for Billy and I.
Five years. Wow.
|» Rest before insanity.|
The media blitz for 'Wolverine' will soon begin, but right now I'm relishing the time here at home with Billy. Every morning, we practice some yoga and meditate, and every evening the same. It's done wonders for my stress levels. Of course Billy's been trying to tell me this for years, but I'm dense sometimes. |
It's been so long since I've come here. I think I got more into pouring everything out to Billy, or to Liev, or Deb or Diane or Colin or etc. etc. etc. Though I have missed just getting random thoughts down. Like my happiness over Billy ruling against a full retirement... he's now willing to read scripts and has even taken a few parts... I love seeing his face when he comes home after a day of filming. He actually glows.
His novel's coming along nicely too, which has lifted his spirits so much. I love seeing him like this. Love it.
Me... I'm sticking to the gym. I've got a possible film in the works that I'm producing and starring in. The Oscars were a blast! Ridiculously fun and campy and it was a great chance to channel Peter Allen again. I hope, wherever he is, that he was enjoying it.
|» Wolverine filming: Day: um... something [open to friends]|
I have to admit: even though we're entering winter down here, it's not the same as the winters up above. I can wear a hoodie and be comfortable. It's nice, not having to walk around like a penguin due to wearing such big coats etc.|
I am so ridiculously happy to be working with one of my best mates: Liev. He and I have some jokes we play on each other, or maybe we'll team up and attack one of the cast members... anything to keep the mood light, especially in these war scenes. And I have to give credit to the amazing blokes from the Aussie army who came in and helped us make this look just a slight bit realistic. I realize that this will never match actual movies, and it won't come close to what was actually experienced... but we're doing our best.
Billy's back down here too, which makes it easier to sleep at night. I guess I've always been one of those blokes who needs someone to hold on to before they can get proper sleep. I'm glad that I'm getting to hold Billy.
While it's not Greek Orthodox Easter for another month, it's still Easter. And Billy's family is still pretty big on their holiday celebrations... |
So I sent him home.
And so I've been sulking since he left on Wednesday. Pretty sure Liev's about to kill me. The Sabretooth rage doesn't seem too manufactured anymore.
And I bet it's not good to spend so many hours of every day in the gym. It's silly, but it's like I forgot what I did just a few short months ago, when Billy wasn't down here with me.
|» *Left next to the bed while Billy's sleeping*|
With a note... |
Thank you, for accepting my flaws, for loving me through my confusion, for being everything I need, whenever I need it.
I only hope I can somehow, someday, be the same for you.
Happy Birthday. I love you.
A gift card for Hanmer Springs with a note:
"I've finagled a tab with them - open-door for the rest of our time here. You can go whenever you want, but I'd love for us to take one of those package deals sometime."
- Gift card to On the Fly
- Handwritten note: There are a lot of boutiques/shops between Queensland and Sydney - Let's go shopping. Anywhere, for anything, on me.
|» [locked to Liev]|
Billy's birthday. One week. And I'm the piker who has forgotten until now.
I have ideas, but need a Sabretooth to bounce them off.
What about these?
[Sydney: Dec. 25th, 8:30am]|
I am the sneakiest bloke in the whole world.
In about an hour and a half, two stretch limos will pull up, one black, one white. One will have my family, one will have Billy's. And there's a good chance a third will have to follow with all of the gifts.
I've warned Lisa-the-sister to intercept all packages from us that I wasn't able to sneak away with before Billy could post them, and she's bringing them here. I've got handsomely-paid caterers heading over at 11 with brunch - enough food to feed a visiting army.
And I can't wait to see his face when he realizes that he'll be seeing his family for Christmas.
|» [locked to Billy]|
[Sydney time: Dec. 25th, 8:30am]|
I DVRed something last night that I'd like you to watch. The movie is called 'Mixed Nuts'. I think you'll understand why I taped it when you see it.
I love you. And if you ever tell Liev that I made you watch it, please write something really beautiful on my tombstone.
Ok... I know that this time of year in Australia effectively kills some Christmas traditions, like bundling in warm sweaters in front of the fire, but the 'No Shaking Gifts' one still applies! At least until I've had some coffee, ok?
'Rumored'??? Having second thoughts that I should know about? On Christmas?!?!?
|» career change...|
So I'm thinking... when we're done filming Wolverine, I'm going to retire from acting and spend the rest of my life inspecting the world's beaches. |
This Site is a good start... but I think I could really fill out that list.
|» [friends - all except Billy]|
Shhh... Don't tell Billy. I want it to be a surprise....|
I'll be home on Friday!!!!
[Sydney time: Monday, 2:15pm]|
The pitiful looks at the production office are really starting to get to me. And if I hear one more person say "they just weren't ready for it..." I may scream.
I guess I should have expected the bad reviews... but at least I had fun with it.
|» Weekend-after-birthday bliss|
[Sydney, 2:45pm, Sunday]|
I STILL have not gone home yet, but spending my birthday here wasn't too bad. I had a really, really enjoyable phone call from my lover. Apparently I have a package waiting for me down on set (I left early on Friday - Deb made me a DELICIOUS birthday dinner), but Nic grabbed it for me and is going to drop it off later... she's apparently bringing dinner tonight. She swears she won't cook it.
She also said she's bringing me a gift of her own, but at this point, if it's not a plane ticket to New York, I'm not that interested.
Ok that's not true - I know I'll love whatever it is - Nic is great at gifting.
But as much as I've loved being here in Oz, I want to go back to my other home now.
|» Happy Birthday Liev!|
Delivered to Liev's flat in New York City, with notes attached:
Naughty Shakespeare Pillow - I couldn't resist.
Portable Basketball Stand with Carry Case - Practice now. I'll be home in about two weeks.
After I kick your ass in basketball, I'll make it up to you with dinner at Babouche.
See you soon!
|» We're... done.|
I know it's hard to believe, but we're pretty much done. I'm sticking around Melbourne for the next few weeks in case Baz wants to reshoot something, and then, maybe, I can go back to New York.|
Maybe without Nic to talk to every night, I'll actually write in here more.
It's very odd to go from Bowen, where the public was on us every day, to back of Bourke from anything resembling civilisation. |
Okay, that might be a bit extreme.
But Nic and I are fairly sure that the crew will do something drastic if they don't get a nice pub visit soon. we're planning to have a bunch trucked in tonight for everyone. Baz helped us arrange it.
Anything we can do to keep those guys happy... they work so hard.
|» Still here, still filming|
While I love being home, I have to admit, I miss New York. I miss that market down the street. I miss the coffee shop on the corner. I miss Liev's GAP jeans. |
So much to miss.
|» [locked to Billy]|
Cleopatra is on. |
a) pounce you now.
b) wait until the movie is over, then pounce you.
c) make you pounce me like Marc Anthony pounces Cleopatra
d) pounce you like Marc Antony pounces Cleopatra
e) make you wear Marc Antony's outfit (your legs are incredible, did you know that?) and walk around before the pouncing commences
f) some combination of the above.
|» (No Subject)|
I can remember filling this journal out nearly every day, using it to keep in touch with my mates. But now, now I just end up text messaging most of them, or calling them on the phone. Doing this from Australia gets expensive. And the rest of the time... well... I've taken to a handwritten journal. Billy must be rubbing off on me. |
I don't get to head up there to see him for at least another month.
It's all right though... Nic is doing a fantastic job of keeping me laughing. Baz is keeping me busy enough to forget my troubles most days. And the people here are so unbelievably kind. Lots of spectators every day, but so far they've been respectful of the set and the workers.
It's been lots of fun... can't wait to see how the next four or five months go.
It's lovely to be home. |
And yet painful. I'm lonely! Though Nic can commiserate... Keith's not around right now either.
Baz is a workhorse, but a gentle one. And we have lots of fun during blocking and such.
But I miss home. Well, the other home. New York home.
|» Homesick already|
I haven't been in Australia that long. Just a few days. |
But they feel like weeks, since Billy couldn't come along. He's in negotiations for a new movie - so he had to stay in the states. And that's a shame, because I've been doing a lot of horseback riding to gear up for the movie... he could be joining me. He looks great on a horse. Especially in purple spandex.
I wonder if I can rent that tonight... rawr.
|» [locked to Billy]|
You owe me 100 dollars. |
I told you that you'd try and christen that hammock before April 1st.
Though that might not be all... didn't we make a bet about the new table too?
It's late at night... or perhaps early in the morning. Hugh's not sure and he doesn't feel like sitting up to check the clock. If he did, he'd have to move the comfortable lump of Billy laying across him, pretty much where he passed out. |
Hugh grins. He shoulders the responsibility for that... he was a bit pushy when Billy wanted to spend the night reading in the jacuzzi. And he feels just a bit bad for protesting that. But in his defense, Billy's spent an awful lot of time reading lately, and Hugh's been a very good submissive, and the best boyfriend he can be, and he considered tonight an extension of that, really.
The way he barged into the bathroom before Billy could even start the water - completely naked - and went to his knees at his lover's feet, his nose and lips begging for a breath of his lover's musk through the thin boxer/briefs... well, Billy didn't protest. In fact, he made lots of noises that sounded quite pleased.
Noises which only grew louder once Hugh got Billy into bed. Hugh chuckles a bit at the memory, which stirs the sleeping lover on his chest.
"Sorry, sorry, love. Go back to sleep," Hugh whispers, his hand brushing strokes down Billy's side.
And it's what he intends to do as well... until he feels a hand wrap around his shaft with clear intent.
Well... if Billy insists...
|» [gifts for wgzane's birthday]|
Hugh considers nominating Lisa-the-sister for sainthood, considering the amount of trouble it was to get Billy out of the house for a few hours. They both thought it would be easy; that Lisa would offer an 'it's the eve of your Birthday' dinner, but it seemed all Billy wanted was to curl up in the jacuzzi with a good book. However, when Hugh brought up the fact that Billy's been doing that a lot lately, his lover finally relented and left the apartment. |
That gave Hugh the precious three hours he (and a few strong friends) needed...
Tucked into a corner of the dining room is this, upon which the following items sit, wrapped prettily (obviously, Hugh had help from someone who can wrap):
- a Parabola Wine Decanter
- Just a Moment clock
- Two pairs of Puma by Alexander McQueen sneakers, one in black, one in old white.
- a $500 gift card to the small bookstore on the corner, with a handwritten note,
I've seen you carrying a lot of bags from here lately... here's to you carrying out a lot more. Love, Hugh
And out in the garden stands this, fully assembled, with a note pinned to one of the drapes, "A place to read your books during the summer..."
Hugh's just hanging a drape over the new table and gifts when his phone vibrates with Lisa's 'were downstairs, hope ur done!' text message. He quickly dims the lights and heads to the door to wait, rubbing his hands together and hoping Billy's too tired to want more than his warm bed.
His birthday's tomorrow, after all.
Billy's birthday is TOMORROW. |
Why yes, I forgot until now, why do you ask? Only, I actually remembered right after Christmas and did most of my shopping then, because I knew the closer it got, I'd forget.
My mind works in mysterious ways, but it seems I've learned how to deal with it just fine. Now to find a place to hide the gifts once I take them out of my storage locker... or maybe I'll just make a run to get them tomorrow morning, so there's no chance Mister Dangerously Curious will find them before.
Billy's hiding something. He slinks in the door most nights and flies upstairs before I can even say hello, or beg for a kiss. I'm not sure what to think of it... But I'm afraid that maybe Todd or Lenore is showing their face again.|
But I'd like to think that in a situation like that, he'd tell me.
Maybe it's just me, overreacting to nothing.
I've never watched an episode of CSI before, but I'm sure you made it better. And I'm surely tuning in next week, and the week after that too. |
So... what week do we discover your horrible, axe-murdering past?
I know you're not a fan of my facial hair... I also appreciate your interest in fashion, and your tendency to keep me looking fairly trendy while still managing to make it look like I put it together myself.
With that said, why did you take advantage of my exhausted, sleeping-pill-induced coma last night to shave me?!? I liked that beard.
My first entry since Christmas and I'm here mainly to gloat about how I am the best boyfriend EVER. |
I say this because I booked us two weeks at La Casa Que Canta, in the Señora Tentación suite or building or however they call it.
Judging by Billy's reaction, it was a good gift. I've been thanked often and repeatedly ever since. I should give him two week vacations more often.
While I'm revealing things, I'd like to state that yes, we did wrap on The Tourist two weeks ago. And Yes, I was up on a table singing. But I'd like to state for the record that I was not drunk, just really enjoying Karaoke night.
Life is busy, but not bad. I have had a few slip-ups, a few nightmares that feel like setbacks, but they quickly fade into the background of my life, thankfully. There is so much going on, so much keeping me sane, so much making my life complete. So much to be thankful for - the only resolution I can make is to figure out a way to be more grateful for all of it.
|» Here Comes Santa Zane...|
Billy is so excited, he's humming 'Happy Christmas' in his sleep. Occasionally I accompany with 'War is over, if you want it', just for the fun of it.|
This year, I'm not quite as infected with cheer as him. Frankly, I'm exhausted. That's what I get for doing so many movies which happen to all come out at the same time.
But I look at it this way: At least I'm not humming Christmas songs in my sleep.
I just noticed the date. |
I'm glad I was smart enough to do my Christmas shopping before all the press tours started.
|» [meant to be private, accidentaly unlocked]|
[locked to John and Billy]|
In the past week, I have gone from New York to London to Paris to LA.
I am exhausted. I'm doing my absolute best to be a normal person, but if Billy looks at me worriedly and suggests I lay down one more time, I may snap. I know he's trying to help, but I have so much to do to promote these movies... I wish he would understand that.
I also wish movies I participate in would put some time between release dates. I could sleep for a week and I've got two more to go, just this month.
|» This is the life...|
I got to be flushed down an inflatable toilet this weekend. |
I got to be flushed with Kate Winslet...
How about now?
That's what I thought.
|» thoughts on the press junket|
Ellen is so much fun - she always makes me giggle. Jay's great too. And while I always have a great time seeing Regis & Kelly, the girl who interviewed me at GMA this time left a bit to be desired. Especially the taunt of a meat pie that tasted like... badness. |
But the movie looks great, I'm getting fantastic feedback, the reviews are mostly good, and I'm pleased. Juggling the premiere and the junket isn't simple with filming 'The Tourist' with Ewan, but they've been really great and flexible with my schedule. Perhaps it's because my company's producing it. Hmmmm.
Oh, and Billy says I've got to stop doing 'the disappearing ball trick'. Or at least stop calling it that.