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    Tuesday, May 14th, 2013
    3:21 am
    I'm not comparing myself to Shirley Bassey
    (public to Est)

    I would never do that - she's so wonderful and so different to me. I almost feel bad doing the comparison myself. But if there is anything she has done that I would like to do as well, it's do a second James Bond theme. I'm not hinting at anything, just that when I did Die Another Day, it was one of the best experiences of my career, and I would love another chance to do that. I actually think - seeing this is my wish and not even near to being a reality, as I would of course do whatever the producers wanted - I would prefer not to appear in the movie if it was to happen again. Not that I didn't enjoy creating the first lesbian Bond girl - I just think it would be hard to do another first like that. Unless they let me play the same character and I got to kiss Moneypenny, but that wouldn't be likely to happen. Still, that might be fun, and not only because Naomie Harris is stunning - though that doesn't hurt a bit.

    But yes. If I could have one thing in my career, that's the thing I'd choose. I'm not sure I have a chance of it, but it would be great if it could happen.
    Thursday, January 31st, 2013
    3:35 am
    Kismet
    (public to Est members)

    Fate. Whatever you want to call it. I'm a believer in it, in fact more than any other religious tenet or belief, when it comes down to it all, I think Fate's the thing driving us. But I could be wrong, I'm only one woman after all.

    But I do think that when you're looking for something in life, if it's something you're meant to find, you'll find it, it'll happen.

    Like my relationship with Sigourney... Madame. God even saying that word makes me shiver. I've always identified as a switch, but I've actually found it difficult to find someone I could submit to. Men... I had issues with after Sean, not that we haven't got past most of those issues as friends, but still, and there were other issues with other men, not so much with trust as with allowing myself to get there.

    With Madame, I don't have to think about it. I have no desire - beyond an occasional curious thought of course, because we all wonder about things that will not happen - to dominate her. I want her to own me, to possess me, to make me hers in any way she chooses. She's a wonderful, gorgeous woman, and our relationship is just right for me right now. It's something I need very much, and I didn't realise how much until I had it and realised what was missing.

    Missing puzzle pieces, fitting together. Maybe that's what we all need. I know my pieces - Madame is after all not the only person in my life - fit me just right.
    Sunday, September 16th, 2012
    11:06 pm
    Kink and the mainstream
    (public to Est members)

    People often say kink isn't a part of the mainstream. They're right, and yet at the same time, they're kind of not. I mean, the lifestyle isn't, for various reasons, mainstream, but there are all kinds of kinky things that are now, even if they haven't always been, at least thought about by the mainstream.

    Regardless of quality - and I haven't read it so I am not about to judge, given how many people have said some pretty horrible things about things I myself have written that I honestly didn't think deserved them - there's published fiction like Fifty Shades Of Grey. Sure there's always been things like the Marquis De Sade, or The Story Of O - the latter of which is extremely erotic and was a distinct part of my own erotic education - but I have to say that Fifty Shades is probably the first admittedly kinky novel I could walk into my local Target store and buy. You know what? That's some kind of progress. I'm not sure if it's good or bad, but it's interesting.

    I know I put a lot of sexually charged stuff out there - and I don't plan to stop, even if I have been a little more restrained, and not like that, recently - and music is one of the areas it's always been more accepted to go places other forms of the arts haven't, I mean look at Venus In Furs in the sixties. But the thing is, these things shouldn't be entirely hidden. No, I don't particularly want the whole world to know I get wet when I'm called a slut by the right person, or that calling someone a slut makes me wet if they're the right other person, but I don't mind having one of my companies called Slutco. It's shocking, but no one knows the real reason, I get to use it as an empowerment for women, but damn if the real reason isn't just as empowering in another way.

    I'm feeling quite philosophical lately. I think it's being a mother and figuring out some of these things and how I want to share them with Lourdes as she gets older.
    Wednesday, March 14th, 2012
    2:03 am
    Performing
    (public to Est members)

    You know, I do a lot of stuff. I'm a mom, I'm working on new projects all the time, music and even movies, though I'm not sure I'm going there again, but then again something else could happen for me. One of those things I'm really not about to try and predict. I am, after all, unpredictable. I also spend time at the club.

    But I have to say there is nothing like performing. Getting out there. On stage, and seeing everyone who's there to see me. I don't care what anyone says, that's a thrill that not even the best drug can ever equal. Knowing those people are there to see you, that they gave up part of their life to be there and hear you. It's... amazing. I could even say magical. I don't care if that sounds weird, because it's true. There is magic in life and the cynical can shove their cynicism where it belongs. If it fits.

    I was so lucky to get to do the Superbowl. Sports aren't a great love of mine, but the Superbowl isn't just sports, it's people coming together and celebrating and it's maybe not the way a lot of people would, but the atmosphere was just electric and I'm glad people liked what I did so much. I definitely felt the love.
    Wednesday, October 12th, 2011
    12:52 am
    Madonna and Liv have another encounter with Harold
    (Harold is an OC written by [info]candy )
    (warnings/enticements, vaginal and anal fisting)

    Madonna picks up her purse and watches Liv walk in front of her. This is going to be fun, she thinks. “How does the plug feel?”

    She nods. “Like it’s where it’s supposed to be and doing the job it’s supposed to.” she said looking over her shoulder.

    ( Good )

    (feedback welcome, comments screened)
    Wednesday, June 15th, 2011
    11:04 pm
    Madonna and Liv have fun and make some preparations
    (relatively current)

    Madonna is waiting for Liv to come to her home again. Third time in the last two weeks, the first was when they had talked and then spent the afternoon at the club, the second when Liv had picked up Lourdes to spend the day with her. Today, though, was more like the first than the second. They’re going to meet Harold for the second time - he wants her there too, and she has to admit she enjoys being with him and Liv. But she wants to talk with Liv first, not about Harold but about the feelings she’s having, and what she’s realising she wants.

    ( Read more... )

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    Tuesday, February 1st, 2011
    12:42 am
    Madonna and Liv talk and then have some fun with a third party
    (note: Harold is an original character written by [info]candy)

    Madonna is sipping a glass of iced tea, and thinking. She needs to talk to Livvie, her life and feelings have changed and it's pointless to deny it, not to mention that she knows Livvie has her own difficulties. She has been thinking on this for a while and she's okay with her decisions, she's even talked to Lourdes about them to be sure her daughter is okay and she is.

    ( You are a slut )

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    Wednesday, September 22nd, 2010
    12:38 am
    Work and processes
    (private journal entry)

    Writing a movie is very different than writing a song. I know that's probably really obvious to most people, but it's such a different process, and it's so interesting, too. As for directing, I have always liked being in control and this is honestly a way I never thought I would like as much as I do. It's interesting, the processes fascinate me. I'm really looking forward to finding out what we will have when it goes out into the world.

    It's certainly not the same as giving birth, but there are a few parallels, oddly enough.
    Tuesday, March 16th, 2010
    11:20 pm
    Madonna & Liv on Halloween
    (takes place last Halloween, October 31, 2009)
    (warning/enticement: Vaginal fisting)

    Madonna tucks Lourdes in and kisses her. She's a little disappointed the nanny got sick, but the Establishment has so many parties and bar nights, she's not all that upset. She's glad Liv went though, and hopes her girl has fun. She makes her way downstairs, and nibbles on some leftover candy, before pouring a glass of wine and sipping it slowly. She laughs, thinking of how her fans and the world at large would laugh to think Madonna - of all people - was sitting at home with a glass of wine on a holiday. But she's not upset. Her life isn't the constant round of parties people expect it to be - and it was once like that, admittedly - but she prefers it this way. Especially with Liv back in her life. She looks up as she hears a car, not expecting anyone and it has to be too early for Liv to be back.

    Liv came home early from the party. It wasn't any fun without Madonna there. She sighed as the car made it's way back to the house. She thanked the driver and made her way up to the door opening it and locking it behind her. She wasn't sure if Madonna was in bed or not so she walked through the hallway after putting her purse and keys down taking off her shoes.

    ( I'm in here )

    (feedback welcome, comments screened)
    11:18 pm
    Madonna & Liv - Discussing Halloween And Talking About Playing With Others
    (takes place around October 14 - pre-Halloween)

    It's a crisp LA fall day and Madonna and Liv have some time to themselves. "I have had an idea," Madonna says, kissing her girl softly. "How about we go looking for Halloween costumes? The kids are covered, but I really thought we should try and find something for ourselves."

    She smiled feeling Madonna's kiss. "Are we thinking of attending this years Halloween ball?" she asked looking at her.

    ( I am officially asking now )

    (feedback welcome, comments screened)
    Thursday, August 13th, 2009
    11:28 pm
    Another of those philosophical questions (public to all Est members)
    So I was talking with someone earlier, and he asked me a question, which made me think. And it inspired me to post it in the hope of making some conversation.

    What in your life is the best decision you have made (so far for those of you who are young enough for that to apply to) and, if you feel like sharing, why?

    ( Under the cut for my answer - I'm a discreet exhibitionist )

    Your turn to open up :)
    Monday, March 30th, 2009
    12:10 am
    I was reminded of this by Brett's comment to Ian's post
    (public to Est members)

    Is there anything that has been attributed to you that you would like to be true, but isn't, or you're not certain that it is (perhaps it comes from a time you don't have the best memory of, whether because you were incredibly busy or for more chemically-induced reasons) but you'd like to think you had the wit to say it?

    Aside from the comment Brett mentioned - that I wouldn't wish being a cultural icon on my worst enemy's dog - and I will so take that one, I can't think of any that aren't absolutely true. But I'm sure we've all been misquoted - ever had that happen and somewhat prefer the misquote?
    Saturday, April 19th, 2008
    9:45 am
    Madonna and Lukas Rossi: Life, Fate and other anomalies
    [current]


    ( Justin Timberlake would look good with a bunch of fist-shaped bruises )
    Saturday, March 15th, 2008
    10:49 am
    Madonna and Lukas Rossi: Waking up together
    [current]

    With Ola away, still, (goddammit) Lukas is sleeping at 'Donna's when the kids are at school or at their dad's. He likes her bed. And her, of course. So it's with a happy snuffle, that he turns over and nestles close to her. Her house is different from his place, even from the apartment that he and Ola have in Sweden. It feels lived in. Homey. It's cool. And her fridge is stocked. ( He's sure he's gotten fatter since he's been staying there. )
    Thursday, February 14th, 2008
    7:48 am
    Madonna and Lukas Rossi: Valentine's Day, just their style
    Holding the bouquet of roses behind his back, Lukas knocks on the door of the room at the Est that he'd been told his girl's in. He's even wearing a red t-shirt under his leather jacket! ( Happy Valentine's day indeed. )
    Friday, February 1st, 2008
    6:06 am
    Madonna and Lukas Rossi: Paradise
    There are gauze curtains that billow when the sea breeze blows them in. There's a fan that moves lazily above them. There are drinks on the table next to the bed in their room. The water outside crashes against the beach and when it does, it's very blue.

    Lukas doesn't currently care about any of these things. Why? Because he's got his head between Madonna's legs and has his tongue buried as deep as he can in her. Why? Because it's hot, tastes so fucking sweet, and she makes the most awesome noises. Seriously. Just listen. ( You can hear them over the waves and the breeze. )
    Tuesday, December 25th, 2007
    9:33 am
    Madonna and Lukas Rossi: Christmas, long-distance
    {current; a few hours after this}

    It's nearly 2 am on the 26th in Sweden and Lukas has no clue what time it is in California. All he hopes is that it's an okay time to call his girl and wish her a Merry Christmas before he stumbles off to bed. ( So he sits, petting Kysa and smoking a cigarette as he listens to the phone on the other end ring. )
    Saturday, December 8th, 2007
    10:29 am
    Madonna and Lukas Rossi: Gifts of all kinds.
    [warning for very light incest-play}

    More bags stored in the car, Lukas turns back to Madonna, grinning and rolling his shoulders. "What next? Sooner or later, we gotta buy stuff for other people," he teases, alluding to the fact that most of the bags already piled up were things for them and not necessarily gifts. He reached out for her hand to pull her close.

    "We really do," Madonna nods and moves closer to Lukas. "I mean, much as I love looking at things for us, we do have a lot of people to get gifts for. And some are so difficult. I want to get something for Ola, but I'm like... what do I buy my lover's lover?"

    Grinning, Lukas wraps his arm around her waist. "You probably got a better idea of his taste than I do. Somethin'....flashy. Like gold or feathers. He's..." Lukas waves his free hand to try to express what he means. ( Bright. Shiny. )
    Friday, November 16th, 2007
    9:41 am
    Madonna and Robert Downey Jr: backstory--way back.
    [takes place the week of 9 November, 1985 when Madonna was on Saturday Night Live and Robert was a cast member]

    Even at the ripe old age of twenty, Robert Downey Jr. knows that he's an odd fit for SNL. Not to say he's not trying. He also knows that there's no way this cast can live up to previous casts. He knows all this.

    It doesn't however, keep him from having a good time. And this week's show is no exception. He's made a point of flirting with the guest star as much as he can. Madonna. Oh, yes. Curvy, flirtatious, cute And she's turned him down every night when he's asked her out. Tonight, though. Tonight his charm will win her over. Oh, yes. So he sidles up to her between scenes. ( 'So.' )
    Monday, November 5th, 2007
    7:25 am
    Madonna and Lukas Rossi: pushing boundaries
    [current. Takes place soon after Madonna and Lukas meet Ana Matronic and Kristin Kreuk.. Warning for vaginal fisting.]

    The covers pulled up and over them, Lukas is lying on his side, resting his head on his hand. His other hand is tracing light circles over Madonna's collarbones and chest, teasing the tops of her breasts. The light sweat he'd worked up has started to dry, making him cooler, and he nestles even closer to her warm soft body, loping a leg over his girl's before leaning in for yet another kiss. ( So, like, where was the craziest place you ever fucked? )
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