My Third Eye

Ask me how the convention is going.

2003-08-31T00:25:35Z

How is the convention?

Well, I went down to the hotel, where it was supposed to be. I waited in the lobby, like they said. I waited from 1-3:30. Nothing. Not a soul. So I left. I walked down to Times Square and decided I'd try and get something to eat before I go home.

Stressed and fed up, this sketch artist asked if he could draw me, so I went for it. At least then I could block crap out of my mind. a few minutes into it, it starts raining so we had to find a sheltered place to draw. People started crwding around, wanting to see his work. In the end, I'll say goss could've done better. Will you draw me? Huh? :p

I took the Q train all the way back home. This guy started howling opera out the train car and just before i arrived my stop, these guys played Cajun music. I took the bus to get to my house and no one was home. Meaning I couldn't get in. So I waited in the rain for as long as possible. Then I went to the takeout place and had myself a Pu Pu Platter. Went back to my house. Still no one there so I hung out with my neighbor, Jimmy. We watched cable and his daughter came over later. Finally my folks came home and here I am.

I'm never going to waste my money on a convention again. Not going tommorrow, not going any other day. Unless it's scheduled with an official website and everything is handled in a better way, I'm not going. To go through all this crap, to go to a convention that wouldn't even have MR? No thank you.

I could've been home, reading a book, playing a video game, or doing absolutely nothing. I still would've had more fun. Did I mention that my train stop was ten blocks off? Just loverly. I hate parties.

I hate parties. I want that put on my tombstone..along with the pepperoni and sausage.

I hate parties!!!

2003-08-29T21:16:43Z

So tommorrow is the beginning of Rosebuds Take Manhattan convention. Oh gleeful joy. :(

I said I'd bring Krispy Kreme only because my mom said she could get a discount. I did the adult thing. I asked her about it first. See, she works payroll for Restaurants Association. She can get a dozen for just $4. Now she says she probably can't, unless they'll let her call ahead or something. :(

So now, when I could've bought some damned Dunkin' Donuts a few blocks from my house, I have to trek my ass down to Penn Station and buy them for $7. Thank you, mom.

She's like, "Well, you can get some Entenmann's at the supermarket."

I already fuckin' promised, mooommm!!!

And I've grown 3 zits on my chin. I like barely ever get one zit, even on my period. Now I have 3? Oh fuckin' loverly.

I'm going to go steam, wash and exfoliate now. I better have a good day tommorrow and there better be lotsa chicken.

ladylynx @ 2003-08-28T15:34:00

2003-08-28T19:43:09Z

So the ex is late. Big surprise. Asshat.

gradeafan sent me a convention t-shirt and a Lex keychain. Excuse me while i go make out with it, shamelessly. :p

I've just about lost 50 pounds, but i think I'll weigh myself Saturday morning before the convention. I weighed myself like twice yesterday. I don't want to go mad. LOL.

Speaking of madness, I did a reading with the faeries. They say I need to understand unconditional love. I don't get it. It's true. I mean, if someone hurts me enough, they might as well feel my wrath, no? Maybe it's an issue of self worth. I dunno. There's a few people in the world who love me that don't have a reason and it drives me mad trying to figure out why. I mean, loving someone without conditions.. I think I had that with Anders, until he abused my understanding. :/ I don't think it exists.

Ah, the ex showed up. He seems behaved. I may rest well now. LOL.

ladylynx @ 2003-08-28T13:22:00

2003-08-28T17:22:46Z

I wish JournalFen had updating software already. Maybe Lochjournal would work? I hate Lochjournal though. Bah.

My sister hung out with her friend last night and her ex showed up. They worked everything out. While I'm glad things worked out, I'm sort of not glad. I guess maybe I just don't think he's good enough for her. I suppose I just need to try and keep an open mind about it. As long as he's not hurting her, I suppose things should be ok.

All in all, it means her reading is going as planned. Now that she's out of high school, things are looking up. I'm glad. I hate to see her all grumpy and mopey.

I got a bit worried about her getting drunk last night. I mean, she put herself in a few situations that could've turned out badly if she was with the wrong people. :( I have to trust in her judgement.