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[27 Jul 2011|05:22pm]
[ mood | Mystified ]

I just got my LJ flist to load! But I was logged out. So I logged back in, and now my flist WON'T load again!

I'm so sick of people on the other side of the world getting to lock me out of my internet home! I don't want any bloggers censored, of course, but this is unfair. LJ is more than fandom socializing to me, it's where I've lived for the past nine years.

For all the talk of everyone moving to Dreamwidth, it seems hardly anyone has. And those who have are irritatingly smug. ^_^
A lot of my friends have Twitters (though aren't very active) so at least I'm not completely cut off. But it's not home, it's like a little snippet of conversation as you pass someone in the hall.
I don't get Tumblr. It seems like people post things there just to get reblogged. I can see how that's fun in fandom, but it's not home, or anything I'm comfortable with.

And Facebook is RIGHT OUT.


At least I'm not cut off from my porn, as I don't get my porn on LJ. OH LOOK, here's some . . .
Mika in concert, wearing 18th century style clothes

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[06 Apr 2011|04:02am]
I feel so empty when LJ is down.
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[12 Dec 2010|03:38am]
[ mood | Candy-Coated ]

I haven't been here much lately, as I'm not really in the mood for wank. And I've been quite happy, so I've nothing to bitch about. Happy. Happily obsessing over Mika.

Ah, shiny new fandom, bringing me so much joy! Except I'm not really fitting in to the fandom. For one thing, there's no fandom to speak of on LJ, it's all on forums, which feel like foreign territory to me. For another thing, it feels like everyone on the forums have been around for years and all know each other, which intimidates me. I have trouble jumping into conversations anyway, social anxiety powers ACTIVATE!
But, rather than feel self-pity over my isolation, I just watch some concert videos on youtube and feel all giddy like a schoolgirl.

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[02 Oct 2010|03:52pm]
[ mood | *facepalm* ]

I'm so over my Castle obsession. It's just not fun anymore.
I liked the UST and witty bickering between Castle and Beckett in the first season, but as the second season progressed, they became friends, and then it all got angsty when they started dating other people. What used to be a fun show has turned into a boring soap opera. Now the third season is underway, it feels like more of the same.

The rest of the fandom is as squeeful as ever, which irritates me. And I feel like whenever I comment on posts about it, I'm almost bashing it. I've stepped back, because I've realized how easily one can go from fan commenting to community troll, heh, when you sour on something so slowly.
I've also soured on Nathan Fillion a bit, from reading his Twitter. I unfollowed him, because I didn't want his obnoxiousness to make me end up hating him. The "crush" is all but gone, though. And it was the crush that was making me enjoy Castle so much . . . now, with a clear head, I see all the hammy acting and anvilicious writing that I was able to overlook before. Makes me CRINGE.

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[18 Sep 2010|12:11am]
I'm totally going around looking for an argument just so I can use this macro . . .

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[28 Aug 2010|03:44am]
I haven't been posting much, here or on LJ. I've been focusing on knitting a lot, heh. Amongst a couple things for xmas, I've done some fandom stuff . . .
A throw with a Dharma Initiative logo on it, and a shawl of Rassilon.

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[14 Jul 2010|12:35am]
I'm rather obsessed with Doctor Who at the moment. I found a source for classic Who, and have been catching up.

Maybe I should summarize my Whovian history. I first saw a couple episodes of Seven when I was in high school, but I didn't really know what I was seeing. I liked Ace, but I was majorly obsessed with Star Trek at the time so I didn't pay much attention. A year or so later I read a big Who article in, I think, Starlog magazine. But by then it was no longer being shown on my PBS channel.
Then, in the mid-90s, they started showing the Fourth Doctor and I fell in love with him became a bit obsessed with it. I read up on all the history, read a bunch of fanfic, and hung around a DW group on Usenet (though I never posted). I also listened to a couple of the Big Finish audio dramas, but I don't remember which ones, heh. And of course, taught myself to knit so I could have that scarf. XD
My PBS stopped showing it a couple serials before regeneration, so that was all I'd seen, until New Who came about. Oh, and I saw the Eighth Doctor movie at some point. I always forget about Eight.

So now that the magical internet has put the show within my grasp, I've watched a bunch of Four, of course, because he fills me with glee. I then moved on to Five.
I liked Five a lot, especially the ones with Turlough, who I also liked a lot. I hated Adric, and got really sick of the Master showing up all the time. I've never cared for the Master anyway, in any incarnation.

Now I've started watching Six. I don't like him much so far. I really don't know what they were thinking with that coat.
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[13 Jul 2010|03:46pm]
[ mood | *Snarl* ]

Can Mel Gibson's career just be over now? Can he just disappear in obscurity? Or prison? Please?

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[08 Jul 2010|06:38pm]
Did some twatmuffin seriously just call me brainwashed, like a woman in an abusive relationship, because I liked the ending to Lost?
YEP. Where's Desmond when a bitch needs running over?

Edit: Aaaand, they admitted to trolling. Dammit, that takes the fun out of it. Troll!FAIL!
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[24 Jun 2010|09:49pm]
Ugh. Every time SRS BIZNZ breaks out, I could swear Fandom is Camazotz from A Wrinkle in Time, and everyone is dutifully bouncing their balls in sync.
Any deviations will get you eaten alive.

TL;DR I'm a misanthrope. )

[20 Jun 2010|06:03pm]
[ mood | sick of everything today ]
[ music | Drive-By Truckers- Box of Spiders ]

I just got an "Okay!" and I have no fucking idea what I did wrong.

I love Twitter, and almost never check my @ page, because why would I care what people I don't follow have to say? (Well, and also because strangers rarely talk to me.) I can't imagine deleting it, and ruining my own fun over something that is extremely easy to ignore.
Obviously, nobody should have to keep a Twitter if they're not enjoying it. OBVIOUSLY. But idiots are still going to bash her whether she's there or not. And it's not like she'd have to see the bashing anyway.

But what I lack in social skills I make up for in awkwardness! So I'm probably wrong somehow. I should just always assume I'm wrong, right?


Edit: Ah, it's been pointed out that she wouldn't be able to talk to her fans. I never would have even thought of that, because I'm totally uncomfortable with the level of celeb/fan interaction on Twitter. Heh. I don't want to talk to them! I tweeted once or twice at Rainn Wilson and Nathan Fillion when I first joined, and felt horrible anxiety about it (for no reason, I hadn't said anything inappropriate, and they probably never even saw them). And I most certainly don't want them seeing what I'm saying! I'm sure speaking with the talent makes for a fun fandom experience for people, but I'm not one of those.

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[24 May 2010|03:04pm]
[ mood | Flattened ]

Today is the first day of the rest of my life. A life post-Lost.

It brought me six years of joy (well, ok, five and a half, because a big chunk of season three annoyed me at the time), and I can't help but feel a little empty today.

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[29 Apr 2010|11:04pm]
[ mood | Interested ]

I feel like I should talk about things other than Castle, damn!

I'm totally in love with the eleventh Doctor and Amy Pond.

There are only four episodes of Lost left, and I'm a little in denial. I'm not ready for a post-Lost life!

Joss is directing an Avengers movie. I had to look that up, because I thought Avengers was the British show with Emma Peel. I obvs fail at geek. I'm not real familiar with comic books that aren't Batman or Sandman.

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[13 Apr 2010|02:34pm]
[ mood | Gobsmacked ]

Conuly? In my fandom? It's more likely than you think!

In this thread discussing the latest episode of Castle (in which Castle has a one night stand (or technically, three nights) with an actress who is using him to get a part in a movie), niuxita21 asks if they are alone in not being offended, because the general tone of the comments were negative. Some of us weren't offended, but stardustdarling calls the character a brainless slut . . .


stardustdarling: "Please don't try to feminist guilt trip me. I'm calling her as she is, and I also put down Castle as well. Both of them turned my stomach in this episode.
And it's not like this is something I'm raging about. I just call it as it is. A really distasteful display by both characters."

poisonyoulove (hey, that's me!): "It turned your stomach to see two grown adults having a fling?" (ngl, I thought the scenes were fucking hot!)

carnivalpapers: "Well, my stomach turned when it came out that a grown woman was whoring herself out for roles. And no I'm not being naive I'm sure it happens a lot but so do hate crimes and rapes and murders etc. I can still be disgusted by it."

Conuly: "Wait, wait, wait. You're comparing consensual sex with rape and murder? Yeah, she gets a few roles out of the deal. Big deal. Some people get diamond rings and houses for having sex."

carnivalpapers: "No I was just making the point that the argument "well it happens everyday" is stupid. Just because something happens everyday doesn't mean I have to like it."

Conuly: "But you didn't just say "That's a stupid argument". You said "Rape and murder happen every day too!" Why THOSE examples? Why not littering and divorce?"



Prelude to wank of great justice? Probably not. But when I saw Conuly's name there, I just about fell over.
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Listen to your filthy mouth, you fuckin' whore! [18 Mar 2010|04:36am]
[ mood | PUSSYWILLOWS! ]

Oh, the ~delicate sensibilities~ of Castle fans! In this thread at castletv.net, people were finally admitting that they're not in love with Alexis. A huge step for the fandom, heh. I was overjoyed to find this, and jumped in to joke that I wouldn't care if the character got eaten by a bear. Ok, I didn't expect everyone to LOL, but I did expect that such an over-the-top statement would be taken as a joke . . . yeah, no. Several comments followed along the lines of "omigosh that is so harsh! D:"
BUT YOU WOULDN'T KNOW IT TO LOOK AT THE THREAD. Because my flippancy, and their snowflake-y outrage has all been deleted from the thread. *Beckett eyeroll*

Later, in that same thread, the Beckett love gets out of control. Someone mentions loving Beckett the way Firefly fans love Mal. Fair enough. Then several others jump in to say that, no, they love Beckett more. Obvs.
I was a bit miffed, because, look, Browncoats are insane. Our love knows no boundaries. But besides that, it's ridiculous to try to compare different people's levels of affections, even if one group has been around for years, and is insane. :)
So I jumped in to joke around again, saying "OH NO YOU DIDN'T! Nobody loves anybody more than I love Mal!!! :-P" Surely everyone would recognize such a silly statement + tongue-pokey as a JOKE, right? Right?
. . . nope.
All of a sudden it's all serious, and hey we shouldn't go around fighting about these things.

OH I FUCKING GIVE UP. Honestly, I'm disturbed by just how miffed I actually was by their ascertation, but I responded with humor, which is more than any of them have done. Like, EVER. Their ever-so-earnest sensibilities are anathema to me! LOL

And then in this thread, that old blind item is invoked . . . someone says: "And I totally thought it was a lie becasue for one, Nathan would never speak to anyone, especially a woman, the way he supposedly did. Two, no woman in their right mind and with self-respect would still want to work with a man who called her such horrible names."

So, it's a lie, because . . . someone you've never met would never use a word you disapproved of? OKAY.
And no woman would work with someone who used such a word?

I just can't get this one scene from the movie Serial Mom out of my head, where she says "l have never even said the "P" word out loud... let alone written it down. No woman would."
NO WOMAN WOULD! *nods* And then I imagine how horrified these people would be by John Waters' sense of humor and I LOLOLOLOLOLOL!

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Remember, my safeword is "apples." [13 Mar 2010|01:21am]
[ mood | Freakish ]

So, this week's episode of Castle featured Castle completely under the thrall of a dominatrix named Lady Irena. And he's even made comments before that indicate he'd be interested in that sort of thing.
. . .
So where's the Castle/Lady Irena fanfic?
Nowhere! I even checked adultfanfic.net.

RULE 34, WHY HAST THOU FORSAKEN ME?

This fandom is way too full of romantic Castle/Beckett shippers. Needs more pervs!
If only I had any writing talent. *sigh* I would churn out story after story of Castle having kinky fun. And Alexis getting killed in various comedic horrific ways.

I'm not popular in fandom. lulz

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[03 Mar 2010|11:56pm]
[ mood | Unrepentant ]

Every single second I spend reading the comments about Amanda Palmer, this song is blaring inmy brain . . .




EDIT: Yeah, ok, WHAAAA HAPPEN? This video was embedded fine when I posted it, now it has extra code that I can't get rid of and it won't show up. Anyway, it was Nellie McKay - Mother of Pearl

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[28 Feb 2010|03:23am]
[ mood | *sporfle!* ]

Why can't I stop watching this?!



EDIT: Yeah, ok, WHAAAA HAPPEN? This video was embedded fine when I posted it, now it has extra code that I can't get rid of and it won't show up. Anyway, it was NOT THE BEES! Techno remix.

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I'll be out on the veranda, since you're already up on the cross. [17 Feb 2010|05:09am]
[ mood | Indignant ]

OMG hey, hey you guys, guess what?
Someone got offended by a show that tries to offend everyone!
Last week, Sarah Palin defended Rush Limbaugh's use of the word "retard" because she said it was satire . . . this week she's throwing a fit over Family Guy.

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[11 Feb 2010|06:39pm]
[ mood | Mystified ]

Oh, Castle fandom. We now have . . .

1)delusional shipping of the actors, and
2)people who think "fallacious" means blowjob.

I think I just *FACEPALM*'d so hard my nose broke.

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