I HAD A BOOK GO ON SALE! *collapses*

\o/

What about your sister?

Sorry, I got distracted and today we lost power.

We had a big fight on the cruise. It's stupidly complicated, but I was pissed at her one day about her not respecting me and we fought, and then the next day she suddenly invited her bf to the family's thing that was just going to be a little dinner out so I could get my first legal drink. Because she'd been shitting on me the day before and because she was announcing it to my dad right in front of me (instead of asking me, and not even asking my dad if it was okay - her bf wasn't really invited - but more like "o hay he's coming whether you're okay with that or not :D"), I snapped at her, and she exploded. I didn't mean it as seriously as it came across, but man, she was pissed. The thing with her is that she generally worships her bf's family - she's done it with the exes' families too. So she comes out with how awful I am and how awful our family is for not being as including and nice as her bf's family is. She disses me by bringing up the fact that no one came to one of my teenie bday parties in 7th grade (which is something we don't talk about, simply because we've all forgotten), and also how I whined on the phone to her about my problems - which was my depression, not having a job... basically stuff I figured a friend and a sister would not rip me apart about. So to her, I am apparently an asocial, whiny loser simply because I wanted her to not just randomly invite her bf. It was thrilling. I started crying and ran away, because I'm really mature and awesome like that. It just really fucking hurt.

Anyway, I read more of The Moonstone and calmed myself. Had A Talk with my dad - since it all went down right in front of him - and later I apologized to my sister, because I was out of hand. But she "wasn't okay with it yet," and has given me and the rest of the family the cold shoulder unless to brag about her fucking kitten. Seriously, she acted like a bitch until we were in the line to board the plane and she started talking about her cat. And then, somehow, three hours later when I thought she was fucking over it, she said her cruise was ruined and gave me a death glare. Like, what the fucking fuck. I realize my dad said some stern words to her and shit, but she even oh so subtly asked how much insurance was being paid on the car that she uses and they technically own, like, "omg nao i must cut ties with my family!!!" Which is freaking my mom out, and that's not even fair, because my mom never knows what the hell is going on and is pretty much defenseless. And I don't even know why she's so fucking pissed. I don't get it. So I didn't want her to treat me like shit whenever I wanted to just chill and read or because I'm on the computer more than she is. God, what the fucking fuck. I just don't get it. She acts like I'm a fucking loser and she gets pissy when I'm mean to her? Even after I apologize and I'm fucking nice to her afterwards? And she's even fucking meaner and she doesn't even fucking realize it? And the line about the cruise being ruined is ungrateful prattle. The cruise was for everybody, and I had a great time, and saying that in front of my parents who paid for her shit just to get back at me is fucking childish.

I'm sorry for the scree, dude; my bff is off at her boyfriend's place. Plus my dad's version of parenting is just frankly annoying. He lets us go at it like cats and doesn't really care what foul things we say to one another. Then he gives us a nice big pretentious speech at the end that just made me, at least, feel like even more of a fucking freak. Yeah, okay, I'm not a freak because I fucking like to read (which I don't do enough) and I'm a solitary sort. Wtf, family, wtff.

Oh man, people who get all superior about being more social or whatever piss me the fuck off. Anyway, I'm sorry to hear that she's giving you a bad time. Blech. What a sucky way to behave.

It flummoxes me. I mean, I wish I was more social, I really do. But she's my bloody sister - I know what she complains about, how her life is not the way she wants it to be right now. I have a hard time believing that she really does like the few parties she has and, often, her friends. I suppose she just wanted to kick me where she knew it would hurt :(

Man, and I thought my ongoing argument with my sister about her lying over reasons to dislike/not want things was getting bad.

Destroy her, RF. Destroy her and laugh at her remains.

I should >:(

Thanks.

HAPPY B-DAY!

thanks!

Well happy birthday.

I force myself to drink alcohol on occasion but it makes me want to barf. That stuff is so nasty.

Thank you!

Dude. Dude. :| Alcohol is wonderful. But I used to feel the same way - now I just suppress and keep drinking.

Happy birthday! Hope you had fun.

Someone swore to get me drunk for the first time on thursday. >

Thank you, I did!

Don't worry, it's not so bad. Just don't keep drinking if you feel sick.

That's good.

Im a freak about my self-control, and getting drunk screws the self-control bit, so.

and may have completely severed ties with my sister.

Would this be related in some way to your preference to be belligerently drunk the entire cruise?

We finally have some sunshine here. I'm so pathetically happy about it.

Maybe. She might have been pissed about my wishy-washiness about ordering drinks myself. I was just freaked about getting in trouble. :\

Sunshine is awesome.

Happy birthday! Drink moar :D

:DDDD

Happy birthday! I predict drunk posts in the near future.

i hope so too! and thanks!