My thoughts. Let me show you them.


Dear fandom,

I really hate you right now. You are not pirates, you do not have your very own Brethren Court, you do not have your very own pirate king, and if I see one more icon with the "Hoist the Colors" lyrics on it, I am going to puke. I like the song, and you are all ruining it for me.

Also, please stop trying to convince me that I have to support a pedophile's right to exist on LJ. I may like squicky fanfic, but that does not mean I have to embrace every self-professed pedophile who crawls out of the woodwork to bitch about how what LJ did was unfair.

See, lemme explain.

I *do* think what LJ did was completely asstastic and fucked up. It bugs the hell out of me that they ignored aaaaaaaall the users who complained about certain pedophilic journals, but caved in to some freaky bunch of rightwing nutjobs and went on a mass banning spree based on what people listed as interests. I could have very easily *been* one of those journals that got deleted, since I have "white trash incest" listed as one of my interests- so clearly, I got lucky. I'm right with you on thinking LJ totally fucked themselves over with this, and I'm seriously considering deleting my journal and leaving for good. I don't feel comfortable there any more, because how long is it going to be before some *other* christian group gets it in their heads that "teh gheys" are threatening the children of LJ-land, and wants *them* gone, too? Considering how easily LJ/SA caved on this one, it's a scenerio that could happen.

But please, don't get in my face and tell me that I have to support self-professed pedophiles who choose to gather on LJ, and trade stories about how they find infants aged 6-9 months "hot" or "sexually alluring".

Let me state, right up front, that I write some highly questionable stuff, myself. I don't dabble in fandoms for the most part, but I write and roleplay a lot of original stuff that's pretty gritty and morally bankrupt. We've got a sociopathic murderer who's into really *young* boys, sadism, and generally fucking things up in any way he can. There's also organized crime, child abuse, and incest. One of my favorite characters to write has an incestuous relationship with his younger brother, and part of the reason it's so much fun is because it's *so* fucked up. It's not a happy-fun-romantic relationship, it's a mess- and they've both got issues coming out their ears.

But you know what? It's all fantasy. It's sick, twisted, and horribly wrong...and I fully expect other people to flip their shit when they read it, because it crosses all kinds of lines. I'm not laboring under any delusions about what I write- I like dark and twisted, but I also know it's not real. I do not support any of these things, in real life. I also do not assume that other writers who indulge in similar topics support what they write about in real life. I'm weird that way, I guess- I support all manner of twisted fantasies, as long as the writers know the difference between fantasy and reality.

I'm the wrong person to argue sexual morality with, because I'm generally pretty accepting of whatever fantasies a person might have. Indulging in a little roleplay is a great way to explore the darkest parts of your imagination in a nice, safe environment.

But when you start sharing your fantasies with me, and they include having sex with children...that's where I draw the line. I *have* to draw the line there, because what you're describing to me is something you *want* to happen, in a real-life context. When I'm writing out a particularly grisley murder scene, that *isn't* something I actually want to participate in. But you, Mr. Pedophile...you want to flood me with images I'd rather not see. You want to get up on your soapbox and talk about how "loving" children should be legal, because certainly no harm could come to them by experiencing sexytimes with an adult. And when someone gets squicked the fuck out and tells you that they're not fond of what you're all about, that's when you start screeching about how we better watch it, else the thought-police will come for the fanfic writers next.

And fandom, being good with the hysterics and histrionics, believes it.

Writing about sexual situations between a couple of fictional minors?
Writing about sexual situations between a minor and an adult?
Drawing pictures of both of the above?
All fantasy. Possibly not everyone's cup of tea, but it's fantasy...and most people can tell the difference. I mean, if Perverted Justice can tell the difference between fanfic and real life pedophiles, I think you're on pretty sturdy ground.

But stating in a public forum that you're a pedo and proud of it, and then letting the members of your community share all kinds of details about fucking real life children...I ain't gonna support that. I shouldn't have to.

LJ doesn't *have* to let us post anything. They could decide tomorrow that any and all posts dealing with underage sex were outlawed, and we'd have to suck it up and deal. I don't really care about that, I have my own webspace, my own personal blog, and all the freedom I want to post my dark and depraved fiction. I want the pedos gone, and I swear to god I will projectile vomit if I have to listen to one more person go on and on about how OMG BRAVE said person was, for stating their "sexual preference" in public.

It kind of amazes me that people can be so vehemently opposed to the self-professed animal fuckers who are out there in LJ-land, but at the same time...they're perfectly ok with some dick who's main goal in life is to find a way to get a six year old into bed.

It's not always "only fantasy".

And I think I lost my original point, paragraphs ago.