and miles to go before I sleep

(OY VEY. I hate satellite internet. It was the only kind that I could get out here in the boonies, but ho brother. There must be snow at higher elevations because the last two days have been GNARRRRR.)

Panic won video of the year in late August 2006. Jon Walker was made an official member of the band only the previous month. I do not have the Internet wherewithal (points above) to go searching for this, so can anyone tell me: what video did they win for and was Jon Walker actually IN the video?

ficsoreal, this is for the Sweet Charity I owe you. Yes, from way back in Spring. Yes, I suck. *POINTS AT THE SECOND CIRCLE*

Belatedly stolen from aerynvala.
+ stop what you're doing.
+ print screen of your current desktop - This isn't exactly my desktop, but it is my current wallpaper. Made for me by clayeer! Where the hell are you, Claire, I haven't seen you in ages. *goes hunting*
+ if you have last.fm open, print screen - Don't have one.
+ if you have a music player open, print screen - RealPlayer
+ pick a folder, open it, print screen - My folder for The Book, containing all the pictures, files, and other sundry things.

Speaking of The Book, I had a veerrrry interesting chat with wishforhome the other night re:characters. Dean, I totally think I'm gonna do this -- but I hope you understand that I'm going to be plaguing you with questions now! Jordan's as much your creation as mine!

Happy Thanksgiving to all the Americans.

...because I can't come up with my own fucking characters. Plot, yes. Dialogue, yes. Characters, no.

Is there anyone around that wants to help me brainstorm? Or just, y'know, GIVE ME CHARACTERS THAT I ACTUALLY LIKE AND CAN WRITE? At this point I just want to delete the 100+ pages that I've already written and walk the fuck away.

zarah5's journal has been hacked. This is the most recent incident in a string of hackings, both in our fandom and in others (bandflesh, shoebox, etc.).

Please take a moment and change your passwords NOW to something seriously intricate and hard to hack. Seriously, guys. Seriously. Also, consider backing up your LJ/JF/IJ with LJ-Archive. IT IS EASY, YOU GUYS, and then you will never be in the position of losing EVERYTHING; I am backing up my IJ as we speak. If anyone has any suggestions on what other precautions to take, please share.

zarah, baby, I'm so sorry. I just gasped and started swearing copiously.

Congrats to Gerard and LynZ!

I'm not that big on kids myself, but I love seeing other people happy. :D



(Think about where this guy was, emotionally, four years ago. If he isn't a living embodiment of an anti-suicide message then no one is.)

*eyes the subject line* Oooookay, that doesn't sound right. Er, for the purposes of cheering up anyone who needs to be cheered, I present to you a Big Ole Post of Fun! Here's a collection of Internet oddities and other things that have made me laugh over the years!

End of the World flash cartoon. "H'okay, so," has become such a catchphrase in my house. I can recite most of this by heart.

Fun With Smokey. Photoshop Phriday is pretty hit or miss, but oh my god this one made me laugh my face off.

My Little Pony: Apocalypse Ponies skit from Robot Chicken.

Oedipus, as performed by vegetables. It's glorious fun. Warning for veggie-on-veggie sex. YES. YOU READ THAT RIGHT.

The Salad Fingers flash cartoon series. Okay, I'ma warn you right now, this won't be to everyone's tastes. It's very, very macabre and slightly icky at parts and unsettling and might leave you huddled on the floor but OH MY GOD IT'S AWESOME. Especially the "Nettles" one. I challenge to watch that and NOT lose ALL FAITH in GOD. Wheeeeeeeee!

Keeping with my twisted sense of humor: The Perry Bible Fellowship online comics. Occasionally just as unsettling, often dirty, always ironic.

Ghost, mist, or CGI? The world may never know. Because it's too busy peeing itself.

If pretty, musical, time-wasting games are your thing, try Boomshine. Man, when I was depressed last spring I played this for HOURS.

Weebls cartoons are always mindless entertainment: Badgers, Kenya, and finally, I Love the Internet.

I love the Internet, it is fun
Sharing our genius with pretty much everyone.
Only on the Internet will you find
Stories about Gandalf shagging Optimus Prime.
There's things on the 'Net you should try not to see
Like overstretched anii or songs by Rick Astley.
I love the internet, it is fun
Just wish I could unsee that man's bum.

Dude, it seems like eveyone on my flist is having a shitty time of it right now, whether due to real life crap or fannish assholery. :( bbs, I love you! Don't be sad!

I'm not having a cakewalk right now, but I'm doing pretty good. Is there something I can do for any of y'all? A drabble? A funny story (maybe that one about the penis festival in Japan)? Some kind of amusing meme you want me to fill out?

Hey guys? What exactly is the difference between the Intel Pentium Dual Core and the Intel Core 2 Duo? Like, I get that the Core 2 Duo is considered more high-end but is there much difference in terms of processing capabilities and such?

*eyes the Dell website*

I'm writing a coda to The Second Circle.

I hate you, flyingtapes. HATE. If this become more than 10,000 words, I'ma drive in to Portland and punch you in the mouth. I know you're not really to blame but DAMMIT I WANT TO BLAME YOU.

Apparently Livejournal is going down tomorrow. Just FYI, y'all are welcome to swing by IJ if you start going into withdrawal - I'll put the next chapter of Second Circle up a bit early, so that you have something to tide you over. *g*

I doubt your OpenIDs will work tomorrow? Dunno, I guess we'll see.

Dudes, one of my very best friends from college, Strange Knowledge Boy, is gonna be visiting me soon! He's escaping from LA, too, having had enough of the same industry that wore me down; he'll stop off at my place in Oregon and then head on up to Seattle. Woot to old friends, yo.

*****

I can't believe we're in the back half of November. My family kind of goes crazy around the holidays, making tons of fudge and jelly and sugar cookies for the neighbors, like some kind of deranged Martha Stewart clan. Except with shotguns. I can't wait to start making fudge!

I also can't wait for it to snow. *stares longingly at icon* There is very little in the world that is more lovely than my family's property after a heavy snowfall. We live right next to a park and the sight of fir trees bending downward, deferential to the weight of snow... lovely.

*****

My car might be salvageable. Possibly. I don't know. My father and brother are working away, but they tell me little. GNAR.

*****

Don't expect to see a whole lot of me around (except for the story - posting starts tomorrow!). Depending on this car situation, I'm gonna try to pick up more hours at work, and then there's the holidays and my friend visiting... life is crazy! In a good way.

ATTENTION: I WANT TO HAVE NEERY'S BABY.

That is all.

*does the dance of OH MY GOD NO MORE CODING PROBLEMS!!!*

Ilu, neery. The world loves you.

Guys, what's the html coding for invisible rollover text? Say, hypothetically (hah), that I wanted to post a story that had spoilers in the warning section (similar to what disarm_d had here) then how could I make that text invisible except for those who want the warning?

I need more caffeine for this shit.

Obama has more threats than any other presidents-elect. *bites nails*

The scariest instance was:

In Milwaukee, police officials found a poster of Obama with a bulletgoing toward his head — discovered on a table in a police station.

You guys, you guys. WHERE THE FUCK HAVE COMIC BOOKS BEEN MY WHOLE LIFE? I'm currently converting "Mastema" to comic book script format and ho-shit, this is so much more fun than film scripts! I have Neil Gaiman's Marvel 1602 open in my lap - besides being completely fucking awesome (Angel/John Grey, anyone?), it has a script included in the back, so I'm bouncing back and forth between the script and the actual panels, and I can already tell the learning curve here is gonna be steep. With film I always had to watch how I phrased things and put too much of my vision into how it should look and use this angle instead of that one and go wide to pick up on this so that I didn't hurt some cinematographer's delicate ~sensibilities. But with comics, that's what I'm supposed to do. Whee!

ANYWAY. I need an artist! I've talked to a couple of people about it and had some interested parties, but now I'm all raring to go and want to get this off the ground... I'd love to have a short teaser for Mastema out sometime next year. I would love to find someone in fandom to do this with, but if anyone has any resources as to where I could look for someone, I'm all ears. I get the impression that it's good to start out independently, maybe do a self-published issue that I could then take it to Dark Horse or someone like that.

Also, if anyone knows of any other comic books like Marvel 1602 that includes the script in it, please do tell! The more, the better.

I'm not gonna lie: when I heard "Pride and Prejudice AU" I went, "uh, what?"

Except, except, a) it's really well-written, by zarah5 and softlyforgotten, who have created a whole universe blending bandom and Jane Austen (I know, right?); and b) it's Ryan/Spencer, which anyone and everyone should know by now is my one fool-proof OTP.

Except, it's not Ryan/Spencer as I always imagined it to be - they barely know each other in this, and therein lies the great conflict of the story, that they misunderstand each other constantly. Part of what drew me to that pairing is the lifelong-friendship aspect, and the impression that while Spencer can be a snarky bitch and Ryan can be a monotoned weirdo, because they grew up together they already know each other's flaws, and don't care. They have a world of two.

The lovely thing about this story is that they're both coming at the relationship from the outside - the opposite of how I've always imagined it but still very much them. It's a rare story that can reinvent an OTP so thoroughly. Well done, ladies.

As much as Cracked sometimes pisses me off, this is a really interesting article on Internet trolling and the different technologies being developed by various consoles and websites to fight back.

I don't like the thought of censorship online or anyone controlling things... but I think it's pretty much inevitable. So much of our business and social lives transpire online these days, there's no way for controls NOT to creep in.

To the anonymous person who responded to my last post with a simple, yet lovely reply - "I think you're great." - thank you, dude, I need that right now. You're pretty great yourself, whosoever you may be in the world. ♥

I go through these regular periods of unhappiness every three-four months. The last one happened at the end of June, and it wasn't too bad; I actually lasted five months until another one. I can feel it coming on, though, and that pisses me off.

Reading back over the down-period back in February/March, though... man. I was so desperate.

I'm trying to come up with coping mechanisms. Getting out of the house would be good - notsolaconic, flyingtapes or missmollyetc, any of you guys available on Wednesday or Thursday of this week? notso, we could go check out that tattoo parlor, mebbe...

I also need to focus on doing something professionally - I think that's my biggest concern at the moment. I'm feeling pretty okay with myself as a person. I looked in the mirror the other day and kind of went "Eh," because I don't worry so much about my looks anymore; I'm settling into the idea of being asexual and not looking for a relationship. That was a big, wonderful revelation to me. I don't have to look for that sort of thing or pick at myself about it. Likewise, I'm becoming more and more okay with who I am in terms of personality. It's okay if some people don't like me - there are definitely people who do, and I'm pretty solid with myself.

I don't, however, feel okay with not doing anything that furthers my potential career. I didn't wind up going to a comic book show yesterday at the Memorial Coliseum... I had planned on going and thought about it and then didn't. I have a tendency to talk myself out of going places when I don't have anyone to go with. I need to find a goddamned artist and get this shit together, dammit. I'm still learning the drums, but any actual music is a long ways off. I've set The Book aside while I wrote the Epic, but even if I picked that back up, it'd be a long, long ways off, too. So, comics it is.

*thinks happy thoughts*

Minor flist cut... nothing personal, just trying to cut back on my online time. After the Epic is done and posted (and after I write that Sweet Charity fic I still owe to ficsoreal - haven't forgot, dude, promise), I'm gonna be taking a little break and focusing on my professional writing for a while.

On that subject, I think I really will be doing a comic of "Ghost Boy," though of course NOT with any rock bands or characters named Ryan and Spencer and Keltie and Bob. No, it's gonna be Zack (no, not that one!) and Eli and Carlie and Bob. Yeahhhh, Bob is still Bob, dammit. Also, there's going to be canon genderswap (when Eli sneezes, breasts pop out of his chest). \o/ But also some pretty heavy themes including suicidal tendencies and child molestation. /o\ So, yeah. We'll see how that works.