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 God rehearsals have been kicking my ass, but tonight is opening night so we have one more run through before the curtains go up. I'm nervous because Katie and Chris will be there tonight to watch. They have good seats too...that I made sure of. For once I didn't get the part of Raoul either. They actually cast me as the Phantom...which means I am going to be kissing the lead actress. I can do that. I have no problem kissing the girl. She is pretty and very funny. She's been joking about kissing a gay guy since day one. Its great.

The guy playing Raoul says I dont really deserve the role because I'm gay and I can't really appreciate it, but I've done a damn good job so far I think. I've kicked ass personally, but he thinks only a straight man can understand true love. I'm sorry, I have a man and a daughter. Actually, I have two men that I am in love with and a daughter whom I think the world of. David couldn't be here tonight, which saddens me, but I am going to get him a ticket on a night he can and then take him out afterwords just as I am with Katie and Chris tonight.

Oh well though, right? He's just a fucking prick. But yeah, tonight is opening night and then I get two nights off a week. I'm gonna be exhausted, but it'll be worth it. Then Chris can pamper me again, right? Hehe.