alanna's Journal

7:53pm:

Please don't let them die *wibble*

8:23pm:

they are so cute, omg. :3

6:41pm: Fandom & Language
This poll is going everywhere I can post it, and I'd really appreciate it if you asked around for me.

Is there a particular language that fandom - particularly that of manga, anime, and games - favors?
Is English a preferred language for fans, or are most fans in non-English speaking countries speakers of their native language?
Do people learn or use English to communicate more often in forums, communities, scanlations, and fansubs than other languages?
What role does the English language play in the creation of fandom communities across country/national lines?

I've phrased the question multiple ways, to give people different ways of thinking about it. Unfortunately, I'm inherently limited in that I am only capable of interacting in English-speaking fandom and posting this in English.

I would greatly appreciate feedback.

12:09am: I'm sort of upset that me knowing that I'm acting like a teenage girl isn't making me stop acting like a teenage girl.

10:55pm: fuck

i

hate

my

life





right now

5:22pm: :O
I updated Nakuru's RP journal.

wut.

10:00pm: TWS!
Man, what the crap is wrong with Suzaku?!

I have so many issues. Why am I watching this again?

3:40pm: :o
Junjou Romantica makes me feel all warm and fuzzy and squishy inside. It makes me cry, too.

1:37pm: gah
Why am I watching the second season of Code Geass? Why?

*stabs self*

12:45pm: So you tell me we can't sleep together anymore for religious/time reasons, then a week later you're at a party dancing with three different girls--one of whom is a mutual friend--while I'm dancing alone 3 feet away and you know it. For almost an hour.



I've decided it's okay that I'm fucking pissed. I almost hope he hooked up with one of the girls later (it sure looked like he would) so I can hit him.

3:15am: ...
I used to say it jokingly, but really, CLAMP.

How long is the eye fetish going to last?

12:52am: i'm working on this breathing thing
Life's a cruel, cruel bitch. And I'm just one of the many little foolish mortals she plays with.

12:36am: ;_____;
I feel awful, I have a midterm tomorrow morning, I have a paper due tomorrow night, I have a staff meeting in 6 hours, and to top it all off, I didn't get a research grant from Pomona.

I know this happens to a lot of people, and I don't want to whine too much about it, but seriously. I really wish that they would think about how many seniors they have that want to conduct research in pursuit of their thesis, even if it's not field or lab research. Because now I'm stuck. I can't do the research over the summer unfunded--I just can't afford that. So I need to find an internship or start asking for classes. That means that I have to do all the work, unfunded, during the school year. Which, let's face it, will suck. I'll be finishing a major, a minor in a hard science, and working 3 jobs.

I'm really frustrated. I think it might be the headache, but it irritates me beyond belief that a lot of other people I know keep getting grants to do science and computer science research that, in my opinion, means just as little as my research. I'm not discovering new things, but I am looking critically at society and how it functions and what it produces, and what that reveals about the society and its past and future. I've never felt this inferior to a science student like my roommate at this school before.

I also just really, really wanted to do the work and write the paper. I'd never been so close to actually working out the logistics of a project of that scale. I've entertained a lot of ideas, but I'd never had so much help getting it to be concrete. I was really excited about it.

Fuck.

1:26pm: ... wtf
It's shit like this that really piss me off and convince me that Obama is completely unfit to be president.

How much more unprofessional and immature can you get?

4:56pm: *headdesk*
FYI self: just because they SOUND like cultists doesn't mean you should point that out to them.

12:02am: fuck
Yeah. Like facebook says. That didn't go the way I'd hoped.

12:58am: ugh, class
In between classes this morning I stopped by the Fountain for coffee, then I headed up to the AARC to eat breakfast (cookies and coffee) and read my paper. Daren came out of the office to talk to me. Then Jameson showed up, needing to use the phone to make a phone call because he hasn't gotten his absentee ballot yet (a bad thing, seeing as our primary is in a week).

Daren asked him who he was voting for, teased him about picking the right answer... Jameson was, not surprisingly, voting for Obama. With a kind of teasing exasperation, Daren asked me if I was voting for Obama too. He knew when I said no that I was voting for Clinton, and he asked me why.

Well. I answered in general terms, but basically, I told him the truth. That I am apparently old and jaded and don't believe that idealism can save a country. There are competing sets of values at work--what we want the President to be, and what we need them to be. Obama is the former. Clinton, to me, is the latter. She's strong, determined, politically savvy, and experienced in policy areas. You can say nice things all you want, but that doesn't mean you can do them.

Daren is voting for Edwards, interestingly, for the opposite reason I'm wary of Edwards. I feel that Edwards has been very "blah" in the campaign, not laying out issues and plans and switching his take and opinion. I just don't get a good read on him. Daren, on the other hand, feels that Edwards has been the most clear of all the candidates in very specific policy-related ways.

We're both not voting for Obama for the same reasons, though.

I find it interesting, that's all.

8:30am: ugh. it's early.
I overslept today (yay!) so now I don't have time for breakfast before Educational Policies. Oh well. The problem with this living arrangement, apparently, is that there aren't enough bathrooms nearby. I'm screwing around on the computer because I need to wash my face.

I guess I could use the kitchenette sink...

So... What am I going to do about breakfast...I kinda like the sound of cookies and coffee :D

1:23pm: In non-dork related news:

1. J-s-s F-ck-ng Chr-st, I wish my friends would stop pushing Barack Obama on me. There are reasons I don't plan on voting for him. Fine, call me whatever you want, but I have my beliefs, you have yours, that's what makes us a democracy.* I've donated to Clinton's campaign, I'm voting for Clinton in the California primaries, and that's that.

2. Gods, Democrats are such sheep. Obama wins in Iowa and suddenly New Hampshire is completely behind him. Huckabee wins in Iowa and the NH Republicans don't give a shit.





In dork related news:

1. I finally logged into my fantasy basketball team and adjusted the roster. FOR THE FIRST TIME.

2. I'm missing a handful of Hana-Kimi chapters and it's really bothering me.

3. I own FOUR! volumes of Hana-Kimi now.

4. I'm still missing a huge chunk of my reading list. wtf, how can none of the nearby Borders have Death Note vol. 1 in stock?!

5. The internets still fail, so I haven't gotten any new anime, and I'm RUNNING OUT.




I miss London so much.


* I hate this logic, but it's kind of true.

1:05am: nuts
I should have told Miyake-sensei I'd read Naruto or something. Then I wouldn't be tempted to go out and buy all of it.

Hana-Kimi was a mistake. DX TWENTY-THREE VOLUMES. 23. AND I OWN 3.

MOAR!!!

9:23am: I thinks I has all my pressies now!
( so i'll make a GIANT list of them all! )

I was planning on reading all of Hana-Kimi today, but the DVD Emily burned me fails, so it's actually blank. Or all of my computers are reading it as blank. And as a CD as opposed to a DVD. Interesting.

3:00pm: *sigh*
Really. I should just STOP downloading Saiunkoku Monogatari. Bad politics and political thinking may kill it before anything else.




but but but then there will be no more Shuuei! Or Kouyuu! D:

10:36am: ZOMG!
PACKAGE IS HERE PACKAGE IS HERE PACKAGE IS HERE YAY YAY YAY!

I HAS COOKIES NAO.

8:02pm: :/
Threadless is having a $10 sale. I WANT SHIRTS. ):

1:22am: *____*
omg. I just spent so much money today but I am so happy. :D

So first they dragged us to Parliament like SUPER SUPER early in the morning (do you have any idea how early 8 in the morning is? When you have to BE THERE at 8, and THERE is a 50 minute walk from where you sleep, or, alternately, a 15 minute bus ride + 10 minute walk, if the bus comes on time?). The tour was nifty and fun, and then we had lunch, and then we got to talk to an MP who used to run the Pomona program for a bit.

THEN I went off on my own (I wasn't going to waste a bus ticket Pomona paid for!) and ended up, of all things, seeing a movie. We aren't going to talk about how many pounds it was, but I finally got to see Stardust, so I was pretty excited about that. Then I wandered the National Gallery for a bit, then went to dinner at this Japanese restaurant I found.

OH EM GEE RICE. RICE RICE RICE RICE RICE. I ordered sashimi and tonkatsu and it was 13 pounds just for me but SO WORTH IT. RICE. AND TONKATSU. AND REALLY DELICIOUS SASHIMI.

And then I went to see Les Mis! The theatre's a bitch and doesn't sell discount tickets, so I paid 30 pounds at the tkts booth, but I was in the 4th row! For 30 pounds! That's just a little more expensive than the cheapest seats through the theatre. And it was so good. So amazing. I can't stop mentally gushing, I really can't. So wonderful.

And then, you know, had to come back. And then (because of various things) I met up with Carrie and Kasyn on the way home, so instead of paying 6 pounds for a cab back to my house, I split a cab with the two of them.

I'm quite tired now.