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R's LiveJournal:
| Monday, January 19th, 2009 | |
| 6:42 pm | holy crap i haven't been on here in forever. wow... |
| Wednesday, October 27th, 2004 | |
| 1:32 pm | My mother died. not gonna be online for awhile. |
| Tuesday, September 7th, 2004 | |
| 1:55 pm | I have read the Harry Potter books. i guess i can see what all the fuss is about, they are pretty good books, i'll admit that. I just am scared of the whole fandom..lol |
| Monday, August 9th, 2004 | |
| 11:23 am | Wow i don't really update this thing, mainly because i'm just here for the wank. lol..that sounds really bad, but it's true. I do have a question though..theres no Black Hawk Down scary fandom stuff is there? just a random question i thought i'd ask. It's one of my favorite films(dont judge me!lol) and just the thought of scary fandom in association to the movie scares the hell outta me. But..theres a couple pretty boys in the movie, so i wouldn't be suprised really. |
| Thursday, November 6th, 2003 | |
| 12:51 pm | OK was gonna post this on DL Anon, but decided against it. i'm too scared it'll just piss everyone off, and to be honest. i just want to save it for reference. Email from KC on LOTR Gossip today. Really dont know why i find this interesting, i just do. Subject: Re: [LOTRGossipUnsupervised] Burntconnie/KC and anybody else I might have offended! Date: 11/6/2003 10:51:31 AM Eastern Standard Time From: kc[edited to remove private email addy] Reply To: LOTRGossipUnsupervised@yahoogroups.com To: LOTRGossipUnsupervised@yahoogroups.com While we're on the subject, let me outline what I really think of all of this. This is not aimed at anyone, it's just how I see this whole fandom thing. This is fantasy. These guys do not exist in the real world as far as any of us are concerened. They represent something, they're fun to look at, we like what we see of their public persona, etc. etc. And they're actors. If they don't like gossip, get out of the business. If they appear in public at an advertised public event (not privately, going to the store, etc etc), at which their presence is a financial draw to the organizers and to themselves so what if fans go to see them and take pictures? Big fucking deal. It's what they're getting paid to do. I might point out that half the world is using as an icon a picture that I took at Comic Con. No, seriously. I'll tell you which one it is if you're really curious. They gacked it off of BEI. If people really want to think that MsA or I are stalkers, then they should stop going to her site and gacking the pictures that she takes, or that I take, or Salogel or anyone, except Wireimage, etc. etc. And they can stop bugging people who taped the C4 talks for transcripts or interpretations. A few people have taken things on the internet so fucking seriously they threaten violence (SingBlueSilver, Pansy Burrows), or build shrines to their favorite actor and think they're going to save them from evil gossip (Rakshi) or set up entire websites to discover the true identity of someone whom they believe has ruined their lives because these people feel they were duped over INTERNET GOSSIP, (MissPinkie and Pals) then the fantasy has slipped into RL. I never could understand MissPinkie and Pals because it seemed to me that the organizers felt personally betrayed or had lost thousands of dollars over a bad investment, or something like that. I see that the board is members only, so that whatever they're doing is not available to the public eye. I see also that when you apply to join, you have to tell them how you heard about the site and what your purpose is in joining. I mean, it's their board and they can do as they please behind their own closed doors. However I was on the receiving end of some very panicked phone calls and e-mails from MissPinkie who was seriously afraid these people were going to discover her home address and show up there. I am in deadly earnest when I sat that. She even hired an attorney. She was fearful for her personal safety their "investgation" started to involve people she knew, etc. She wasn't the least bit bothered about the "investigation" - she found it funny that they were so obsessed with her. What she did find frightening was what they were going to do to HER personally -- write letters to her? Show up? Threaten her? Slash her tires? Kill her cat? I'm not kidding. And while we're at it, what about Krystal who said she had gotten Elijah's address from his banker, had driven by his house, and offered to take MsA there. That is stalking. Even if the kid was delusional and did not have his address etc. the very idea is disturbing. Even if the Pink Board people wanted to get their panties in a wad over this, they have no right to terrorize someone in RL, just because they feel they had believed something they now feel isn't true. Dl-A I can understand because they have a clearly defined Mission Statement etc. and they stick to that and while it stays on their board, it's harmless. That they thrive on negativity is not to my taste, but that's their business. Frodo Lover had to have been Italian Supporter on DL, but denied that when I asked her that. I mean, how big is Italy anyway that there can be two people the obsessed with Eljah Wood -- plus her posts were similar in tone and language usage to Italian Supporter's. On DL, Italian Supporter made repeated demands to know where Elijah was and what had befallen him (this was in the late Winter, early Spring). Nothing anyone said brought her solace. I finally asked her what she thought happened, since none of our explanations or theories were to her liking. She admitted she had no idea. She couldn't accept the idea that maybe Elijah was taking a voluntary break because of course he's the finest actor in the world and should be in the public eye constantly. She wants polite adult discussion on LotR Gossip. Yet she refers to other posters and other fans as liars (see above paragraph) and bitches. That's polite and adult , all right. And if someone expresses a divergent opinion, even politely, she will not give way and concede that the rest of the world doesn't see things the way she does. This is a grown woman with a good grasp of English, who hides behind the fact that it's her second language when she wants to bail out of an argument. If a fiction doesn't have Elijah doing what she wants him to do, she thinks it means the writer is a bad writer. Yet she won't write her own fiction or tell anyone when asked what it is she wants in the fic. All we see is "Well, this story has too much Dom in it. Just another DomCentric fic. I'll wait til future chapters til it has what I want to see. Pity, this was such a good story too, til you had Dom (or Sean or whoever) doing more stuff than ELijah." People on the fanfic lists are so tired of seeing that they shoot first and don't even bother asking the questions anymore. I suspect with Inge she had reached overload on FrodoLover -- she wouldn't have been the first and won't be the last. I wrote a story FL disagreed with. It was my first exchange with her and I was taken aback that someone had gotten so invested in this that a FICTION upset them. I said, it's fiction. These are fictional characters." She insisted "Elijah would never do that." 99% of the fanfiction written has characters doing something they would never do, why is this one any different? Besides, it's fiction. She could never see that. The story, she feared, represented what might happen in real life. (Elijah gets out of acting to start a music company and drops out of the public eye - that's all it was). Like I had crystal ball or something or with my magic keyboard could manipulate reality. Um. No. This is fantasy. Few of us will ever meet. Most of us don't even want to meet each other. I know I don't. I go to events just to see the other fans that I do want to meet. If no one I know from any of the lists had gone to Comic Con or C4, I would have stayed home. The sole and only reason I am going to any of the events I will go to in the next couple of months is to meet people I've become friends with because of this. If we were to set up meetings independent of movie related public events, I'd still go. If Dom Monaghan were to appear next door to my house I wouldn't bother unless Connie, or MsA or someone else was coming down also. I mean that in all seriousness. This is no fun independent of the other LoTR fans. There is no one in San Diego who is part of my particular cell block of fandom. So I"m going to Seattle to see RoTK with MsA. Otherwise it simply isn't any fun for me. This ain't my first rodeo (fandom) and believe me I've seen some very strange things. The internet however has magnified the strangeness exponentially because we have access to instant communcation, can write our views and get them out there immediately, there are websites, gossip lists, and many thousands more fans in LoTR than there were in Star Trek or Star Wars (yes we had electricity in those days, just not the internet) So all we know about each other is what we write. If we are not careful in our writing, we can be misunderstood. No one can hear our tone of voice, or see our facial expressions when they are reading an e-mail. If someone doesn't want to be misunderstood they have to be very clear in what they are writing. Using puncutation, capital letters. Proof read. Watch their word choice. The fantasy inspires us to do things we might not otherwise do, both good and bad (take up a new hobby, travel someplace we might not otherwise see, meet people who become real life friends or lovers). People come together over this, meet, are inspired to make life changes not because of LoTR but because of the friends they may have made on LJ or someplace. The changes were probably a long time coming and highly overdue, but the catalyst was the friends made initially over a mutual interest. It also inspires people to take ownership in their view of a star to the point where it's like religion and politics - something you shouldn't discuss except with other members of your faith and political party. Ok, I think that's about it. For now. |
| Tuesday, October 28th, 2003 | |
| 3:35 pm | Lady O a tinhat??? I know this girl and she never came across as a tinhat to me. ok..i'll explain briefly. I know her from a few email groups(one i cant mention because the owner asked me and the members not to) and yea, at first maybe i believed a bit of what she believed, that the whole KB was a set up thing. the whole Eval PR, but..slowly..i realized that if it was, it was a bad set up, because there are pictures of them, and in a few they do seem rather affectionate, much as i hate to admit it. but not enough to make it a big pr stunt. I just don't like Kate Bosworth. i just don't. its like not liking a band because its not your sort of music, you know what i mean. i just think he could do better(and by better i dont mean me or anyone, i'm aware that i dont stand a chance in hel.lol). no remarks about her looks i promise, because that would make me no better then the tinhats.who i dislike so much, and i'm not having that. Wow. i never knew she felt quite this angry towards Orlando. i mean, i'm on LOTR gossip and such, becase another friend is, and her too, and i do know thats shes having a hard time in her personal life, so maybe thats why shes being so vocal. Damn. there i go trying to make excuses for someone. when i know she wouldnt want me to. ahh well, whatever any of them do with their personal lives isnt my business. Thats been how i've always thought, and always will think. i guess i dont know Lady O like i thought i did. |
| Thursday, October 23rd, 2003 | |
| 6:39 pm | An Im convo between myself and Sara,discussing the Domlijah! We this was a convo i had with my friend Sara in which i sent her that article MsA wrote awhile ago. her opinion of MsA dropped rapidly, and also, Sara(who lives in England) gave me a crash course in English humor awhile back. in this, she tries to explain why Billy calls Dom "Princess Monaghan". Basically, if you live in the north of England, you don't tease someone by calling them say..poofball..if they happen to be gay, because its not funny if its true, its offensive. there are examples, provided by Sara, so i hope its enlightining. ( Read more... ) Current Mood: annoyed |
| Saturday, October 18th, 2003 | |
| 8:01 pm | An icon i just found this! i asked over in DL Anon if someone would shoot me,i ended up the main course, and there was fun had by all. apparently it inspired an icon! woo  |
| Thursday, October 16th, 2003 | |
| 6:58 pm | Suprise suprise! Just as word was getting out there was an Elijah Wood Thread on the main DL Gossip board, i go there and...the forums are closed for maintence.lol. I guess the webmaster is really tired of the crap. who can blame him? i mean, yea the majority of the people there seem to be pretty decent, but the flames and other stuff really gets annoying. i miss it though,not that much though! Current Mood: crappy |
| Saturday, October 11th, 2003 | |
| 10:35 pm | Question Concerning ROTK pemieres! Is there going to be an NYC one? I know there where ones for TTT and FOTR but please tell me theres going to be an NYC one! anyone?? |
| Monday, October 6th, 2003 | |
| 1:38 pm | Thats it i'm Done I can't take it anymore. I come back to DL today and theres 20 something pages, and all of it seems to be nonsense. why nonsense? Because its the same things said yesterday just said differently. I can't take DL and the hate and anger anymore! i cant take people who get pissed off and turn on a person(in this case Dom) because of an innocent remark. I can't take those that just can't accept the proof of their own eyes. Am i the only one throughly pissed about this? HE DIDN"T KNOW BOUT THE RUMORS! therefore, he couldnt have been yanking anyones chains for the last year. But wait the shout outs? there were none. they did not wear matching ties, i dont know anything else about the shout outs. They cant accept the fact that they were strung along by a certain person. MsA. this was paaparently started by her. She was one of the first(?) to be convinced they were gay correct? Well get angry at her, not Dokm, not Elijah not anyone else. get the fuck over yourselves. in the fandom world, DL matters but a very little. And considering how busy Dom and Lij have been do you honestly think that they read DL regularly, if at all? I'm saddened that there are people who will turn on someone like they have Dom. He doesn't deserve that. I'm done. I think i'm gonna stick with DLA from now on.DL has become a disgusting place. doesnt mean i wont pop in ever so often but the insanity there is too much. |
| Sunday, October 5th, 2003 | |
| 1:31 pm | I'm too damn nice. i really should stop caring what people think of me, but i can't. its not my nature. i'm even nice to the tinhats. NAt seems nice, and i dont know if La is considered an tinhat, i dont think so. i just cant be mean to people. well..i can, but it takes an effort sometimes..but with people like MsA its easy...mostly. lol I wish i could go to all the events that people speak about like CM 4. am jealous. |
| Saturday, October 4th, 2003 | |
| 8:53 pm | My day i've spent more time today on DL then i ever thought i would ever again. i thought i had learned my lesson that most of them won't listen. Today was Collector Mania 4. i'm not going to waste my time reposting , because i have to get offline in about 7 minutes to watch Law and Order SVU. I'm such an idiot. I try to explain myself to people, and they just don't hear it, or want to hear it. I dont think any thing that was posted today on DL was favorable to the Believers of the Domilijah(sp?) There are some reasonable people there though, probably wont last though. sigh. Current Mood: thoughtful |
| Friday, October 3rd, 2003 | |
| 5:38 pm | I'm so out of it i was unaware there was a bean_daily livejournal community. hell yea i joined! also i rented GoldenEye..just because. Do any people who read my journal here want my livejournal id? its not the same as this one,its older. just let me know. |
| Saturday, September 20th, 2003 | |
| 7:08 pm | Umm ok.. Apparently, in an attempt to make me stop posting at DL, someone's bashing me again. Like it was a big secret that Vixen and R are one and the same. I even said in one of my first posts that i was R. Jeez. DL is not the official "Bash R/Vixen" place. If they want to do that, at least do it at my journal. Hell, i even added a link. Anyway, Me, my dad, and my nephew went to Target and walmart today. I bought "Don't Say a Word." heard it was good from a friend of mine. Also, dropped my niece off at Walmart, her boyfriend wanted her to come over his house for a while .No nothing improper goes on, trust me. I know the boy and he's very respectful of my niece. Shes 15. I can't help but worry though, but i feel helpless. I am "just the aunt" |
| Friday, September 19th, 2003 | |
| 12:33 pm | Dom going under the knife? please... From DL and posted on DLR RE: Those LOTR Boys II by: anonymous 09/19/2003 @ 03:12AM Someone's looks have taken a hit recently...he may look more chipmonk than monkey, as the Ringbearer's brush with the Morgul blade hasn't been the only time the Fellowship has been under the knife of late. That set up a whole 1/2 page about 1.whether it was Elijah or Dom 2.whether it was Doms teeth or nose they were talking about..gaah! this people!! Current Mood: annoyed |
| Thursday, September 18th, 2003 | |
| 6:35 pm | Say What? in the space of two days,on DL, i've been called a troll, a teenie and a tinhat? Dont they cancel each other out? Thats just very odd to me. Seems they are tinkering with the meanings of those words agin. I thought a troll was someone who posted false info just to start stuff. I have never posted any info to flare tempers. Actually, i've never posted information at all. And i thought a tinhat was someone that believed that Dom and Elijah were being forcibly by PR and thought Sean A was the walking talking equivelent of Satan. Not me either. As for teenie, maybe at times i come across that way, but i am trying not too. But i give up. I have tried not posting as much, i Have tried captializing as they have suggested, and they still aren't satisfied. So i'm going to post as much as i want. when i want! all those anons posting is what gets me. at least i identify myself. |
| Saturday, September 13th, 2003 | |
| 8:22 pm | thinking I wonder do i really act younger then i am? have actually gotten advice on how not to get flamed on DL. i admit, when someone gave me the link to that place, i never really expected to get so caught up in it as i did. i guess some of it i deserve, since i post so much. advice from someone RE: Those LOTR boys by: 8:10 #2 "R - Just sit back and watch. That's what I do. Posting constantly and getting flamed isn't going to help you make sense of the Domlijah phenomenon. Sit back, take it ALL in, and make up your own mind" i think i'll do that. i'm not getting anywhere posting as much as i do. |
| 5:50 pm | For Crying out Loud just curious doid any one on DL_Anon post this? R, you little vixen you! and it goes on to tell me not to play games and pretend i'm new to all this at DL_Anon?? i'm very confused as to what the person on DL are talking about? i've been trying to go to DL all day but it's been down for maitence? Current Mood: cranky |
| 3:14 pm | Hmmm the forums at datalounge are down for maintence. i'm expecting a quiet weekend with MsA gone. |