Matsujo9's Journal

12:00pm: So here's a question ... is anyone still over here? Because if not, I'm thinking of closing this off. Haven't been over here in ages... and don't really have anything to post here mostly. I guess I should keep it for when LJ goes off line as it does but ...

So, if you're here, still, leave a quick note so I know....

9:47pm: It's been sooooo long since I've posted over here!

LOL, and why am I here now? Because LJ SUCKS!

:: sigh ::

Not like I was heavily RPing, but I have gotten notifications of a couple responses to comments, and I want to reply.

But nooooooo.

Anyway, life continues to mosy along. Nothing really much is happening. Erm ... really. That's it. Still selling shoes. Still hating it.

Still like the apartment. Still love my roomie to bunches. Still worry about both RL and online friends.

LOL ...

OK, will stop torturing you guys!

5:34pm: Just another Stargazing update. Added a page for icons. It's not linked in to the main page yet as I am still adding icons!!

3:58am: Color me amused
47.61904761904762% of me is a huge nerd! How about you?

3:30am: So, just realized that I haven't been over here for a while. Holidays were good. Looking forward to New Year's as I have both New Year's Eve and Day off.

Have been invited to party at my ex's... Ya know, the one I co-hosted for six years? Haven't decided if I'm gonna go. Other friends are having a party too, but it's much further away. And most of the people I know will be at the ex's. Of course, so will his new girlfriend ...

Anyway, Christmas was good. Got good stuffs.

Hope everyone is doing well!!

4:08pm: OK, just a quick one: I've updated Stargazing. Added an art section and a fanlistings section.

Go. Look. Comment.

9:33pm: So, here I am, home from a long day at work, ready to RP to relieve some stress, and ... LJ is being difficult again. Sigh. Hopefully it will clear up soon; I really wanted to game some tonight. :: Grin :: Not that that's different from any other night!

11:13pm: Halloween pics
Here they are, without further to-do, the aforementioned full-length Halloween pics!

( Generic military )
( Schoolgirl )

12:22am: It's freakin' windy here.



That is all ...


:-P

1:19am: Halloween pics
OK, the full length ones are still sitting in Ann's digital camera, but here are some "head shots" I took with my web cam ...

( Generic Military )

( Japanese schoolgirl )

8:46pm: Not too much to say! LOL... Had a nice Halloween. Both my costumes seem to have gone over well. The party was pretty low-key, and we didn't stay for too long because Ann is in the middle of Ramadan. But, got to see people I haven't in a while which is always nice.

Went to supper tonight with Ann, Mary and Paul. I will admit, I have missed going out with Mary and Paul since Don and I broke up. The four of us used to go out at least once every couple of weeks and we always had lots of fun ...

Back to work tomorrow. Lalala. And of course, we've hit the "no vacations until after the new year" stretch that is holiday shopping season. Fun.

Erm, guess that's it!

:-)

12:54am: Halloween
OK, so I have two costumes this year because we are allowed to dress for work and my "main" costume is just too darned ... risque ... to sell shoes in!

So, for work, combat boots, Army green cargo pants, long-sleeved black t-shirt, camo ball cap. I was hoping to find a jacket so I could use my SG1 patch, but no luck. May pin it to front of cap ... haven't decided!

The Halloween party theme this year is "vice or virtue." Ann said she was going as love, so I am going as lust! LOL! Plaid mini "schoolgirl" skirt, black tights, red over the knee stocking, "squishy" socks, combat boots, red t-shirt with "naughty" in glitter on the back, hair in high pigtails, lollipop. Basically something you might see in hentai. During a preview of the costume, Ann (my housemate) said, "Yep, you look like you're about to be attacked by something with tentacles... but somehow it suits you."

:-P

Will try to get someone to take digital pics so I can share with you all!

6:41pm: Once a fangirl, always a fangirl
So a conversation the other night got me to thinking: I've always been a fangirl, I just didn't know that's what it was called.

I mean, when I was a kid, I think my first fandom was (ready for it?) "The Dukes of Hazzard." I watched faithfully every Friday night, cut out pictures of John Schneider and Tom Wopat, "pretended" I could interact with the characters... I even sent away and got an autographed pic of John ...

And it just kinda goes from there. The first set of Star Wars movies and Indiana Jones (have Mark Hamill's autograph), the guys from "The Outsiders" (Rob Lowe, Tom Cruise, Patrick Swayze, C. Thomas Howell, Matt Dillon), and, during the 80s, lots and lots of TV fandoms: Simon and Simon, Remington Steele, Scarecrow and Mrs. King, The A Team, Knight Rider, V, Airwolf, Moonlighting ... heh .. anybody remember the short-lived Whiz Kids?

And do I even have to say it? MACGYVER!

My room used to be plastered with pictures and I collected TV Guides if there was even a small ad featuring a pic of my favorite show.

And how can I remember all of these? I kept the scrapbooks. (RDA has a scrapbook of his own! LOL )

Things kinda went away during college... too many things to do and not enough time. And for a while, there wasn't anything that really hooked me. And then, then came Hercules and Xena and I was hooked again. That fandom was even the first one I RPed for ... rolled dice and everything. But even that one was kinda low-key. Yeah, I watched faithfully, and played my game, but I didn't collect photos or anything like that. Perhaps if I'd been more hooked into the internet at the time, I would have.

I think Stargate is really my first "oh-my-god-I-have-people-I-can-squee-with" fandom. And I love it. I love that I'm obsessed and addicted. I love the people I've met over at The_SGC ... and yeah, I probably have a pretty rose-colored view of fandom, but that's OK with me. I know that strife exists, but for the most part, I can ignore it and have fun with those people I know want the same thing (Erm, not sure that made sense).

Anyway, I don't think that there is a point to this really long ramble. Just me being sentimental, I think.

Oh, and here's proof that "16" magazine was my friend: (Yes, my room was pink and I had another entire wall that was covered) ...

1:42am: YAY!!!!
Thanks to Panth, I now have my very own fanfic website!!!! Stargazing!!!

Go. Read. Comment.

:: Hugs Panth and bounces around room ::

9:18pm: Me and Johnny! Go me!
OK, this was so much fun, I had to post it here and Caleida! LOL

"Matsujo9"

Jennifer Aniston stars as Matsujo9, who travels to Tibet to find her inner self. She remembers the tragic death of her best friend, Justine (Mena Suvari), and vows to seek vengeance. As they go on their mission, Matsujo9 meets Brandon (Johnny Depp) and they fall madly in love. The assassin Randy (David Schwimmer) is hired to kill Matsujo9, but she survives the attack in an epic martial arts battle.

What's your journal's Hollywood blockbuster? Created by chickenbarbecue Enter your LJ username or your first name: Male Female

10:35pm: Ah yes, the age-old quandary ... computer age, that is.

What to do with all of one's journals. I currently have five. Two I use frequently (here and LJ), one I use to post quiz results (Caleida) and two that I don't use (BeringSea and NeedlessPanic).

I was originally going to use this site to post fanfic, but since I am working on an actual website over at fandomnet.com, that's kinda moot.

I am definitely dropping BeringSea as it was created for a specific purpose that no longer exists (er, you should correct me if that is wrong, Kath. Oh! And I have the regenerated code for NPanic...).

My quandary? Whether to keep or drop Caleida. Kath, the wonderful person that she is, paid for a couple of months for me, but that expires at the end of the week. The only thing I use it for is quizzes -- and responding to friends' posts -- and the quizzes I could just as easily put here if I wanted to.

So, anyway, that is my quandary (quandary is a good word, isn't it?). Don't know the answer to it yet. Just putting my thoughts on paper as it were. LOL...

P.S. LJ is being a complete ASSHAT tonight!!!!

1:28am: :-(
Sad. Donald O'Connor died.

It's been a bad week for "celebrity" deaths.

:-(

12:56pm: Random Sunday thoughts
Ya know what I like about Sundays off?

Sleeping in late, having a cup of coffee, watching movies on TV... which is what I'm doing today. Well, the sleeping in part wasn't exactly by choice as I was up until 6am gaming with Panth and Chele this morning :-P

I have tons that I am supposed to do today, and I think that Ann wants to go to see a movie ... I need to pay bills and to do the newsletter. I really should clean my bathroom, too. OK, this is the part wher I whine about how I need a real job with every weeekend off LOL!

So am watching "Breakfast at Tiffany's" one of my all-time favorites. George Peppard looked so handsome in this. I wonder if it is his first big movie?

Um ... Oh! Picked up my Season 4 DVDs yesterday. Yay! Haven't even cracked up the cellophane yet, but I am excited to see what the extras are.

OK, Ann is home, time to go!

3:47am: It 3:45 AM, and yes, I'm still awake
LOL ... and RPing with Panth.

Realized I haven't given the wrap-up of vacation. Short form: WONDERFUL! Absolutely wonderful. I felt loved and coddled.

Cuddled too. :: Grins :: Yes, David and I had many, many long, serious and heart-felt talks. Basically it boils down to we each need to get our lives figured out right now so while we are going to continue as we have been going, we aren't going to define anything. (Does that make sense?)

He is on his way back to NH, so I'm not sure when I will see him again. October, maybe.

Anyway! Suffice it to say that I had a lovely, relaxing, fun vacation -- not just because of David -- but because of all my friends.

If you want any of the gory stories, you'll have to ask! LOL

9:02pm: The interview meme
Rohandove's interview questions for me:

1. Your favorite fandom, and why?
SG1 -- It's really the first fandom I've been heavily involved in. I loved Xena/Herc -- even gamed it for a while -- but it didn't have the same power over me. I have met sooo many great people in this fandom, and they've encouraged me to do things that I wouldn't have otherwise (like write fic.)

2. Have you ever been to a con, which one and when?
Nope. But it's on my wish list of "some day..." I just think it would be really fun to be surrounded by people who all squee about the same things you do. ...

Of course, this doesn't take into account my involvement in the SCA and the annual Pennsic Wars, which, really, is like a big con for members ...

3. What is your favorite movie and why?
Oooh ... this is a really tough one. I love movies. Love. Them. A lot. I'm very much into the oldies -- Fred Astaire, Gene Kelly, Katherine Hepburn, Audrey Hepburn. But I also like a lot of recent stuff ... and I can't even narrow it down by genre because I am big into scifi, romantic comedies, good action adventures ...

Soooo ... the movie I currently turn to when I need a good laugh, something to put me in a good mood is "The Fifth Element." It's a good action flick, but funny as hell at the same time...

4. The story behind your user name?
When I started on EDiets, I decided I wanted a new "identity" to go along with the new me I was hoping to create. I am a Japan-o-phile, and have very strong family ties, so I decided to find something that fits both of those. "matsujo" means "youngest daughter" and the 9 is my birth order.

5. List three things about yourself you like, and list three things about yourself you would change:
Three things I like:
1) I am very patient. I am more than willing to let others do things at their pace, even if I need it to go faster. (Does that make any sense?) This especially applies in relationships, where I am willing to let the other person sort out their lives so they can participate more fully in mine.

2) I am finally comfortable with who I am. It's taken a while, but I think I've finally gotten the hang of being myself no matter what's going on. I've never really been one to follow trends, but there has always been a part of me that wants to be part of the "in crowed". Now, I'm happy with who I am and don't need that so much ... I don't need to change myself to fit in with others.

3) I was told very recently that I "lead with my heart." The person that told me this also said that it scared him. (The actual quote: "You lead with your heart, kiddo, and that's a scary thing.") Ya know what? I'm glad. I'm glad that I don't overthink things. That I am willing to be hurt to find happiness. That by leading with my heart I can bring others happiness.

Three things I'd like to change:
1) I'm soooooo lazy. If I'd have my druthers, I could sit around and do nothing alllll day. This can be bad when there are things to be done (pay bills, do laundry, etc., find a new job)

2) Because I am patient, a little naive, and willing to believe in the basic goodness of others, I can let other people take advantage of me. Those of you who know the story of my recent break-up know the most recent episode of this.

3) While not quite in the same category as the others, my financial status. This may be oversharing, but I am in so much debt, it's not funny. But because of aforementioned laziness, I haven't been doing a whole lot about it except stressing when it comes time to pay the bills. I have spurts of energy where I try to change this, but when nothing comes of it, I tend to not do anything about it for a while. I know I should keep working at it consistently, but ...

OK! And now that you know more about me than you ever wanted to know! ...

Rules
1. Leave a comment saying you want to be interviewed.
2. I'll reply and give you five questions to answer.
3. You'll update your LJ with the five questions answered.
4. You'll include this explanation.
5. You ask other people five questions when they want to be interviewed. And it just keeps going, and going, and going.

1:09am: Randomness
OK, so I am barely packed and I am supposed to be leaving after work tomorrow ... erm ... it might happen. If I go to bed Real Soon Now, and get up at a decent time. :-P

Almost got really sucked in last night. Started reading The_SGC from the beginning. Fun! I finally had to make myself stop or I would never have gone to bed. But I will, eventually, read it all!! I must!! LOL

Um ... guess not much else...

Random stress with a couple of people about the camp setup, but that's all taken care of now.

Ann made the karaoke CD for me, so that's done.

Work was decent tonight ...

Still stressing over money. Get paid tomorrow, and have to pay bills. I've avoided it for too long. Hope I have enough money to give Ann what I owe for rent. I think she would understand for one month ... I want to have some cash for Pennsic ... but this not being able to make ends meet is really, really starting to suck.

Er ... OK, now that I am depressed. LOL! ...

Back in a week!

9:01pm: Work work work
But soon ... VACATION!

Yes, the countdown has begun. I now have 5, count 'em, 5! days until vacation!

YAY!

11:32pm: Crispy!
So I went to bed about ... oh 2:30am, got up at, um, 7am. Was outside in the sun from 8:30am until about 7:30 pm ... and boy am I burnt! Mentally and physically!

Was setting up camp for my hobby/vacation next week. (SCA -- Pennsic Wars), and had to (with help) plot out the camp layout for about 80 tents. With a measuring wheel. And string. And spray paint.

So, yeah, Don and I are both burnt. But the camp is done. Hopefully everyone will be happy with their placements. I won't be going back up until the end of the week, most likely. I have Tuesday off, AFAIK, but need to use that for laundry and packing and the like.

I am sure that I should be in bed right now, but was keyed up and, well, radiating, so I'm ... not.

LOL

OK, so I should go to bed RSN. Really.

1:07am: Home again home
Hippity hop.

Had a wonderful and, surprisingly, productive time in Buffalo. Actually got 3 dresses made! And the tent is finished! Of course, I LEFT the tent in Buffalo ... in the living room. (Leave it to me to lose a tent in a living room), but Chadd and Morgan will bring it down with them.

That means I have two more things I need to make, at least one more optional thing, and lots of laundry during the next week.

Oh, and I have to buy a tent frame to go with the tent canvas.

LOL ...

I'm not a procrastinator, why do you ask?

7:43pm: Buuuufffaloo
So am in Buffalo, awaiting steaks that are being cooked for me for supper. I always eat so well when I am here! LOL

Tent is done, have one dress cut out. If I don't get too drunk tonight, I should be able to at least get the pieces together before going to bed.

And if I do that, then tomorrow maybe I can do the red and the purple! (Riiighhhtt!).

Anyway! Just checking in with my gals. Hope you are all doing well!!!